Mika was expecting him to try and avoid the question so when Dean erupted into yelling at her, she flinched back into the couch even more than she already was. She tried to stay calm but every single word he said to her hurt like a dagger into her heart and no matter how much she tried to stop it, she felt those tears fall from her eyes once more. For the first time since he strangled her in the motel, she felt scared of him. 

"I was drunk..and hurt. And yeah, I did say maybe if I had died I would be a problem for you..I'll admit that, but all I saw was you with that...woman and I saw red okay?" she sheepishly replied, she couldn't even shout at him anymore, she didn't have the mental compacity or energy to shout anymore. She noticed how Bobby looked at her before trying to reel Dean in a bit which she was thankful for. 

"I'm not used to having anyone with me Dean, I'm used to shutting people out and I've tried...I've tried so hard not to keep you shut out and yeah, I'm not used to seeing you as someone who didn't just accept one person with them. I'm not used to wanting to be with someone who is used to sleeping around and flirting their way through everything to get what they need. I did things wrong, I get that, I lied to you for months out of my own insecurities, and yeah there is barely a day that goes by that I don't see how scarred I am, not just on my body but in my head and think 'hey, maybe the universe got it wrong, maybe I should be dead! Maybe it'd be better if Bobby had just buried me in the backyard', and I'm sorry that hurts you Dean, but that's the truth. I am screwed up in my head" she said, tapping the side of her head. 

"I am a mess and I'm not perfect in the slightest. I'm trying to change Dean...hell, I don't even know what we are" she said, gesturing between herself and Dean, "But you gotta realise how much it stings when you tell me you won't let me out of your sight, you won't be going anywhere without me, that you love me and then first opportunity you have, you're downstairs in a hotel, with a woman on your lap trying to get her piece of you in a damn bar in front of other guests! How else was I possibly meant to react to that!?" she explained, realising that she may have left out the exact location of the incident to Bobby earlier.

"I hoped we could have talked it through, but you just walked away and left me a note telling me to figure everything out then come find you" she finished saying, wiping her eyes, visibly shaking.