John sighed and said “ya…I don’t want to let her down…I don’t want to fail her like so many others have…and I did. And I let Serena get hurt. She’s still recovering…oh heck Josh is going to slug me…”

Sam could see John from the kitchen but he couldn’t see her. He added weakly “I see her with Sam and I know I can’t screw this up…I don’t want to be a reason to make her fall back into the dark hole she has been in”