I’ve really tried to focus on self healing this year. It’s no secret to anyone that I have trauma, on top of trauma, on top of - you get the point. 

I’m a bitch with baggage. 

But I wanted to get rid of it. 

Anyway. 

People don’t talk about how that journey changes you. They especially don’t talk about how you’re going to long for your former self. For that familiarity, and the comfort. No one warns you that you’ll literally be awake at three in the morning, grieving and crying for the person you were a few months or years ago. 

I miss the girl I was. I really do. But at the same time, I’m great full for the person I’ve become.