I've been thinking this over for about half of today and trying to figure out how I feel about trying to DM Phandelver. And I simply don't want to try doing something I've already tried, especially since it wasn't the best experience for me personally. It caused me some real stress, so much I left RPG for days to avoid dealing with the shit that happened.

If anything I just don't really think I want to specifically run this module. I love D&D but god damn running one here is absolutely difficult. I hope everyone understands. I should really try to take a step back and try to review what I as a DM and a person can do. I just don't want to feel like I'm attempting to do something I simply don't have the drive to do at this moment right now.