Never to that degree, but I also associated my passion in writing with loss and couldn't bring myself to it in earnest for quite some time. You have my condolences in all regards.

But take your time and find something to iterate on with writing, there's plenty of welcoming places here to do so if you look. I hope you find people that lets you feel comfortable to indulge again. Just take your time and feel it out, don't force it. 

Hope your stay is a positive one.