[quote=@Dark Jack]
Heh, hey yoshua. I know the feeling... I also keep wanting to continue this RP or - more likely since I have to accept that it is well and truly dead by now - reboot it. If I ever did so, however, the setting would be somewhat different from what it was originally. In the years since I created the RP-world I have begun rewriting the story it is based on, you see, and I have made changes to a lot of various things about the world in a way I think works much better and makes a lot more sense.
I've also learned a lot about being better GM in the meantime, so that would probably be rather different in a new iteration, too.[/quote]
I'm already curious what a rewrite would end up making this already deep and fascinating world look like and I'm sure you've improved (somehow) with the passage of time. I know I have, that's for sure haha.

[quote=Dark Jack]The main thing stopping me is the fact that I honestly struggle to have faith in my hypothetical players anymore. The primary reason I prefer to GM in the first place is to avoid the potential issue of the GM abandoning the RP and leaving the players hanging dry... but knowing that I will always be around as GM doesn't help much when the players abandon it instead.
Obviously I don't mean to blame anyone for leaving; no one should feel forced to participate in an RP if they no longer feel like it, and as I have always said real life comes first. But twice now on just this site I have put in huge amounts of work to make RPs ([i]The Prophecy[/i] and [i]Night of the Hunt[/i]) only for them to peter out and die because the players just stop posting. Stuff like this really kills my motivation for this kind of thing... so unless I someday come upon a group of thoroughly dedicated players that assure me that they'll stick around for the long haul, I don't know if I'll want to put in the work all over again.[/quote]
Yeah, I definitely understand how demotivating that can be. That's actually largely why I tend [I]not[/i] to GM, especially wholly original settings because the reality tends to be that the average person has more trouble connecting with things that aren't familiar in some large way. That's not a failing, it's just a sad reality I've discovered based on my personal experience. Still, at the same time, I've come to realize that from to time it's better to try anyways, because otherwise it leaves you with this...sort of unfulfilled longing? I don't know if you relate to that at all, but I thought I'd put it out there.

I will say that my problem when I fell off--as I believe I told you--had less to do with you and everything to do with the fact that I'd made a character that didn't have enough intrigue/staying power to keep me invested in his story. Furthermore, I then fumbled the process of creating a new character who [I]would[/i] keep my interest, much to my chagrin (ah Ilitas, if only I could have finished you). If it means anything or would help, I've got virtually nothing on my plate in terms of RPs or writing at the moment and I'd love to explore a new and improved version of the Prophecy's world.

I've got a Bleach Fandom RP I'm GMing that I need to figure out in the coming months, but my players are being startlingly patient with my current situation (IRL has some stuff going on that is a bit rough) and as I'm sure you know, GMing takes a much greater toll than being a player does. So yeah, if you'd be at all interested in doing something like that, I'd love to work with you! It might also be possible that I could rope in some friends of mine if you got us a Compendium 2.0 to work with. I know Shien still has it saved somewhere even if the current link no longer leads to anything--though she hasn't yet responded to my request for a link to the new site so I can look at things again.

Anyway...that was long and rambly, but here we are haha. I'll leave it at that until you get time for a reply :)

P.S. If you have anything like a Discord I'd love to chat more one on one as well.

P.S.S. I think my problem with I'onriyi was very much that he was a little too...unambiguously [I]good[/i] and I've found I have a much greater enjoyment for characters who are either morally grey (with or without some good leanings) or outright evil (with shades of grey thrown in to make things interesting). So I'm confident I could make a character that--along with your exceptional GMing--would keep me around for some time :P Okay. Now I'm done lol.