I wish I could touch you - hold you hand, stroke your hair, lean against you - but I can't. I know it'll make you uncomfortable. I know you will never feel the butterflies that I would, that you'd never have the same dreams I had.

Is it wrong for me to want hold these feelings, desires, thoughts? I only wish for some physical touches before our impending parting. I once dreamt of visiting you, but friends wouldn't do that. I once wish for a touch, but you wouldn't do that.

I think everyone knows of my crush by now, with how I turned into a tomato the whole time. I even wonder if you've ever seen me without a blush. Why must I feel so much, when all is but a fantasy?

We didn't even hug goodbye. And you left me on read.