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Being stuck under the large beast, Ayana had time to reflect on her life and the past. Which wasn't something she often got to do in her chaotic life. She had always wanted to be friends with others. To join a club and be accepted into it and have all the fun that a group of friends gets to enjoy. All the memories that get created during those periods of time. Those are the things she sought after the most. Though it didn’t sadden her that she hadn’t yet experienced this feeling of acceptance. She had grown use to often being on the outside, an observer, a social outcast of sorts.
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All the times she had tried to join the various clubs, and all the failure and rejection that had resulted in the end. Whether it was setting the oven on fire when she attempted to join the culinary club. The time she somehow managed to not only miss hitting a baseball with a bat, only to get sent spinning out of control. The bat slipping from her fingers as it took out the water cooler, which in turn took out half of those who had come to try out for the team when she went crashing into them in a slippery ice cube and sports drink logjam. Or the time she had the bomb squad summoned to the school, after she nearly blew up the entire science clubs lab. Accidentally knocking over a set of vials with the contents mixing into an explosive concoction.  Amongst the many other failed attempts that she had experienced.
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Though, she didn’t feel sadness that this may be the end and she never got the chance to find her place. She found herself disappointed, here underneath this giant beast, her lungs burning from the lack of oxygen. She was disappointed that she didn’t get to try again, even if it meant being rejected again. She was never going to give up on it, nor was it going to shape her behavior or personality. But here she was, maybe at the end of the line. She could have never imagined or dreamed that this would potentially be the way she went out. Though she had to admit it would be appropriate considering her history. 
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She felt warm inside as she thought about her short experience here in this new and strange world. She had started to make some inroad; she had even gotten to talk with her sister and get along with her. Which often wasn’t the case as the two mixed about as well as oil and water. Even starting to make some friends with some of her other classmates. She had no real regrets, beyond not being able to help the others more. If this was too be her end, then so be it, it had been a shorter life then expected, but she had enjoyed it, nonetheless.  The weight of the beast almost disappearing from her, as she remained within her thoughts, trapped beneath it.