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So what do I [i]do?[/i]
*Sniffs*
How do I prove that I’m worth anything at all, even to myself?
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That's a question people back in my home have been asking for millennia. There's no real clear answer. The best advice I can give is to not be too hard on yourself; you're young and going to be growing for a long time. You have plenty of time to figure out what you want to be and how to be it. But if it helps, the rest of us are here to remind you that you're worth more than you can imagine.