“[color=f49ac2]Right[/color],” Penny chuckled in response to what he’s actually prepared for. While Penny knew he was a reaper and what his job entailed, she sometimes forgot about the whole ‘comforting’ aspect of the job. 

“[color=f49ac2]I wish I didn’t care… because every time I do care, my heart breaks repeatedly. As soon as I start to believe that he’s going to make an effort and contact me more often or include me, he doesn’t and I’m left disappointed. It’s just an ongoing process. It’s the same for Liam, my other older brother.”[/color] Penny had a hard time blaming them for it too. 

“[color=f49ac2]I can’t blame them either, even though I try- which makes me feel even worse. Distancing themselves from me and our family was a way to cope. Our mother… she would hit us and throw things at us if she was mad or drunk. Even if we did something wrong. I was her favorite to beat on because I came way later than Luke and Liam. I was unwanted and with all of mother’s attention on me, they were free.” [/color]

Penny no longer cried when she talked about her abusive home. While it was a sensitive topic and she didn’t exactly go around broadcasting it to everyone, Christian deserved to know what skeletons hid in her closet. Honestly, she feared Christian leaving her and becoming too busy for her. She didn’t want her relationship with him to turn into what she had with her brothers.