[b][u]NATALIA[/u][/b]

When Natalia woke up, and had all the thoughts instantly flood her mind of what this day was to mean, it took her a few seconds to realise that Cason had been stroking her hair and spoke to her. Glancing up at him with sleepy eyes and a soft half smile that she still felt like she had to force slightly, "morning..." she replied to him, shuffling closer to him and draping an arm across his torso, whilst she placed her head on his shoulder for comfort. "I don't think I'm ready for today even though I know it has to happen...it just feels so final" she openly told him with a hefty sigh.

"It still feels so wrong that she's gone, the closest thing I'd ever had and will ever have to having a sister" she added, fully realising now that by vocalising everything was her only way to compute the reality of it all, especially after spending a good chunk of this time having been silent in her grief. Then it hit her...how Dean was going to feel today and Bobby. Mika was Bobby's blood and she couldn't imagine how this was going to affect him the most as he really did seem to love Mika like she was his daughter and not niece. She was always slightly jealous of that relationship in some ways and now it all felt so obsolete that she felt guilty for ever feeling like that, especially as Bobby never treated her like she wasn't one of the family. 

She also really didn't know if she was able to watch them burn Mika, even though she felt like she had to. There was so much confliction in her mind and she had barely been awake. "I'm scared of saying goodbye to her, is that stupid?" she asked Cason finally. 

[b][u]SAM[/u][/b]

"Yeah..it is" Sam replied to Anna after hearing that she had woken up and felt her touch his thigh, clearly trying to feel to see if he was still in the car with her. He felt bad for not remaining laid down, but the moment he woke up he had to sit up as although he felt somewhat rested, he still felt the weight of what was going to be happening. 

As she sat up and reached up to play with the rogue curl in his hair, he remained sat in his spot just letting her before nodding lightly at her question. "Yeah I did, slept right through for once but don't feel any less emotionally heavy" he replied honestly. The only thing he did feel was ever so slightly lighter from the hold the demon blood on him finally. He reached out and placed his hand on top of her that was on her knee and stroked her hand with his thumb. "I just can't get what is gonna happen today out of my head because I'm not just thinking about my own feelings on it, but everyone else's. I'm worried about Dean spiralling again and I'm worried about Bobby, not to mention everyone else." he openly told her, keeping his promise to not shut her out of his thoughts. 

On top of all that, he felt conflicted in when to bring out Mika's body onto the wooden stack ad part of him still never wanted to do it, but he was still firm in his belief it had to be done and now the day was here, he felt so torn. He also couldn't say if Dean was going to be able to carry her out or if his brother would want him to do it- something he would be willing to do if it came to it. Especially with how hurt Dean was, but he also knew how stubborn his brother was and he would crawl with his family on his back if he could. 

Then he heard Duke outside yelling for Esme and curiosity took over everything he was feeling and thinking. "You think he'll need our help finding her?" he asked Anna, glancing down at her.