Yuki's tail flicks as she sits in the sauna. Back and forth. She's not touching Civelia, but she looks like she wants to be, wants to have one hand over her shoulder, another brushing the damp hair out of her face. But she's not, she's just watching and close. Uncertain, but present. Trying her best to help, hoping that she can.

Then the attendant asks her a question and uses her name. She starts, her ears twitch and the hair on her arms rises in goosebumps. It's not...not that nobody would know. Purnima had her and knew who she was from the original Crevas arrival, so it was simple enough to believe that Purnima had been loose about it. No more random knight in service to Suli pretending to be some Kel Paladin, she was Yuki Edogawa and had been all along. Hardly a surprise, and it's not like it changed anything except maybe the expectations around her. But even so, it made her start to be addressed that way by an attendant. 

"I don't...I don't know. She's a goddess, but a good one, right? The light of this world, the foundation of its civilization. So, like, everybody in Thellamie wants to defend and support her while stopping all the other goddesses like Azaza and the Rot Star, and the dark dragon, right? But I guess I haven't really thought about Thellamie theology or anything. Like, I've fought two different dragons now and it's not like I got smitten by divine might. Super strong, yeah, but this feels more like the Greek gods or the Maia or something. Like uh...my world has the idea of gods that are like really strong people but not perfect, and then there's like capital G God who's omnipotent and omniscient in some religions, but that also means you can't really interact with that sort of god because it's everyone and nowhere all at once."

She brushes her own hair out of her face, the heat of the sauna having loosened it so that it falls all about her face and shoulders now, little bits of glitter from her dress twinkling at the ends. She likes the sauna, but she doesn't like the way that the black veins are pushing at Civelia's face. Was this really the right way to treat her? It felt hard to breathe.

"I guess, I dunno about Civelia like as a person. I like lots of the people in Thellamie, so if Civelia is good for them then I support her. And I like the ideals of her paladins. I want to fight for protecting the people I love and care about. Even if I'm outmatched. Even if I don't know everything that's going on. I want to fight to bring people together. To...to have all my friends and keep them and find ways to share with them instead of constantly being dragged around and regretting every second where I was one place meaning I couldn't be with someone else."

It was really hard to breathe in here. Yuki was panting. Why had she said all that to this random attendant?