Hey wheels, I'm proud of you for doing all that you can to cope with your condition, and I hope you continue to grow in strength and confidence. I very much understand the desire for friendship, I myself have pretty much zero online friends, as I failed to cherish the friendships I once had until they were gone. I am very thankful to have local friendships that I can lean on, and I hope you are able to do so as well. Unfortunately you and I don't really have the same interests. I have no confidence in my ability to try to write a rockstar or a bard, or anyone with musical talent, as I have come to accept that I am a musical idiot spawned from musical idiots. Rockstars come from a breed of person that loves, cherishes, and cannot understand a world without the language of music. I am the opposite of that. I don't get music. I like the sound of music (I have mixed feelings on the film of that name), but I could live in a world without music. I am also not particularly interested in modern settings, nor wrestling. All that said, I don't think we would work super well as writing partners, but I nonetheless wish you the absolute best in finding friends and writing partners here.