So dont rely on those around you. At the end of the day only you can make real changes in your life. If you have the willpower to take your own life then you've got the capability to make things better for yourself you just have to focus on the goal and instead of dwelling on how thing are at the moment.

Bare in mind I am a highly independent person. And im pretty sure ive never been depressed. The whole concept is alien to me on a personal level because I strive to stay positive or at least practical with everything I do. Its worked for 20 odd years so far, even during the low parts of my life.