@DJ Currently I can't find a word that adequately suits her mood. She felt 'bad' before but not [b]bad[/b]. Depressed, useless, frustrated, suicidal, waste of space, miserable, worthless, obsolete, cursed, disgusting, problematic, etc, are all more symptoms than the true feeling right in her gut right now. While it's such a small and simple word [i]bad[/i] seems the only adequate way to sum things up. She truly honestly sees herself worse than demonspawn right now and from the bottom of her heart she doesn't see why it would bother any of them to see her the way she is. Aren't the wicked supposed to be punished? Is her current viewpoint.