[b]Jessalyn - Haywood - Despair[/b]

Jess couldn't cry. She cried too much. She was beyond it now.
The despair she felt was so deep... so completely draining... that there was nothing left.
He didn't care. She knew he didn't care about her, but he didn't care about his own child either.

She felt the baby move inside of her, like it was cringing from all the yelling that had gone on. 
"I'm sorry," she whispered. "I am sorry to bring you into this world. This isn't what you deserve. You deserve so much more..."
All she could do now was pray that her child was a boy. At least then he would be safe for the most part. She didn't even want to think of what would happen if her child was a girl, how they would both be tortured.
What happened to her didn't matter. Her fate was already sealed. Bruce was right. She wouldn't survive for long.

Maybe... maybe that was for the best...
Death meant no more pain... no more torture... just eternal sleep...
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No one came for a long time. She didn't even know how many minutes or hours went by. She stopped counting. No one brought her food. She heard people talking outside of her cell, but no one opened the door.
Life went on outside. No one noted or cared what had happened to the pregnant girl. No one asked questions. They went about their lives, not caring what price was paid to keep their lives simple and uncomplicated.

Jess knew she should hate them, hate him. But she just couldn't find it in her. Hate took too much energy. It accomplished nothing. It didn't help her. It didn't make things better.
She was so tired....
Her eyes dropped and her head lolled to the side. Her face stung from the blows he had given her. She was probably bruised, but not bleeding that she could feel.
It was very uncomfortable, trying to sleep tied to a chair, but she was just too tired to try and stay awake anymore.

Maybe she would dream... dream of being far away from here... being somewhere safe and warm... with someone who cared about her and her baby...
she'd be with Lynn and Floyd... they would be happy and healthy and safe...

She could dream...