[quote=Skittlez]
[2]As for the Hell thing, I've been struggling through feeling depressed "on and off" (it's sort of always there, just gets bad at certain times) and all I do is panic and I know when I'm fighting with myself all I can think is how I disgust myself and how much of a failure I am and how everything hurts and it hurts to breathe and I feel panicked and hopeless and I wish I was dead but I'm scared of hurting anyone but myself because I'd feel selfish. Hell is nowhere in my thoughts personally. Nor was it in my sisters' thoughts when she attempted suicide, she doesn't believe in Hell or Heaven.I saw something, and it was a chart of how painful different deaths are (on a scale of 100). I believe that shooting oneself in the head was like 15 and hanging oneself was in the high nineties and bleeding out from the wrists was in the seventies or eighties and overdosing was high too so I just thought it was strange how people always seem to be romanticizing the higher pain deaths (hanging, bleeding out, overdosing, and drowning). Just a thought. I don't know how accurate it is, of course but yeah.
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People romanticize "harder" deaths [i]because[/i] they're harder, actually. You feel more pain, there's more of a twisted sense of release when one dies instead of just a quick "pop" and then you're out.

Same reason why ritualistic suicides or sacrifices are usually extremely painful. It's a mark of pain tolerance. It's one thing to die from a bullet to the head, but another to be so determined to die that you would lay on the ground in screaming agony for [i]twenty minutes[/i] after cutting yourself open.