Iria couldn't see and that scared her, making her shine brighter and brighter, every color under the rainbow flashing and dancing faster and faster, brighter and brighter. So much blood... [i]I can't see![/i] So much pain... [i]I can't see![/i] Her panic rekindled a subconscious desire to fight back. Fumbling she gripped her fan and pushed out the blade. She turned, just as a flying mass came at her.

[i]Scccrrreeeenk[/i]

The weight and release from cutting a throat. The gurgling as the creature died slowly from not being able to breathe. Panting mixed with her sobs, but she spun again, sending her fan spinning through the air.

[i]Shunk[/i]

Such a sickening sound. Stumbling forwards, she was standing over a Demi boy and the dead creature, that had fallen to the side. Her blue fan lodge in the side of its head as its dead eyes stared straight ahead. She limped around the Demi to the dead creature, looking away and back again, horrified and still sobbing in pain and terror. She tried to pull her fan out. It was harder than it looked on movies. And with a shredded side, she felt herself surrcoming to the pain and blood loss. With a horrified sob and cry she managed to pull her fan out of the creatures head before falling to her knees, sobbing and holding her arm. The dancing lights around her, under skin were starting to flicker out, slowing in their frantic pace and fading away as her adrenaline and panic faded.

All that was left was pain and horror. Horror at what she had done. At what she managed to do. They always talked of glorious battles and wonderous wars, but if killing monsters, even bears like this, if this is what it felt like? She'd rather be a Demi hidden away in camp than feel like this. Iria's sobs lessened, the world around her becoming spotted with black. Then she felt the cool ground under her tear stained, blood speckled face. The world was pain. Everything was pain. Even the horror and self disgust had become pain. Everything was pain. She closed her eyes, wishing it would stop. And that was when she passed out.