Alex tried to move backwards, but just pressed harder against the wall. "No," He whispered, trying to convince himself. "You couldn't have. Nothing so dark could be your fault. I did it, the blame is mine. It... It..." Alex tried to avert his gaze, but couldn't look away. In an almost inaudible voice, he said "It started when you left. I ran away a month later. You can't be blamed though, it's not your fault. You're the only reason it didn't happen sooner. Nyx, please..." He pleaded with his eyes. "Don't blame yourself. I can live with being a monster, but if you thought it was because of you I... I'd..." He couldn't finish the sentence, choking on the words.