Ahh, oh my goodness! My trio this year is basically this RP in dance form, holy shit. Okay, so it's about having your "desire" (the thing that you cherish the most) taken away from you. It is a really violent, tragic piece and it makes me really emotional, but anyways! Myself and one of my partners are "logic and reason" personified (I am logic and I have a white costume and she is reason with a black one). The third girl is "desire" and she has a grey costume with this red ribbon wrapped around her torso. It looks really cool and kind of bloody. So basically the entire thing is a power struggle between Logic and Reason vs Desire. At the end we start ripping the rope from around her body and she is like thrown around the stage and it is super raw and conceptual and awkward and [i]beautiful[/i]. Then she ends up on the floor with the rope still around her wrists and it is kinda like we have made her into our prisoner or puppet or whatever you want to call it and have just stripped everything away from her. But today, we started walking off holding the rope and "reason" looked at me and the look on her face was something that I could imagine Lisette looking like (smug, powerful, malevolent) and I nearly died when it clicked how alike this and the routine are. 

It feels [i]so[/i] good! I was like explaining everything that I've said to you (minus the whole liking her thing) and she was totally cool with it. I don't think anything is gonna change at all, to be honest, she isn't weird about it at all, in fact she was the one who started the conversation about it today when we were together and she was super pumped. But she told her [i]mom[/i] (which doesn't bug me, she is like my second mom anyways and literally treats me like one of her kids) and her mom knew too! I don't think I'm doing a very good job at hiding this... heh. 

That actually sounds like so much fun! I went to a girl guides camp once when I was younger which was fun, but we only stayed two nights and it was over with too fast. The closest I've ever been to going to a real sleep-away camp was when I got invited to a Math camp in Ottawa this year, heh. I couldn't go because it was an inconvenient time but I wish I could! Not exactly like the type of camp you went to, but still!

Basically yeah, that's what most novelists do. Unless you're like Stephen King and can pop out a book like it's nothing. I'll probably keep writing my whole life, publishing a novel is one of the first things on my to-do list! 

Don't ever say that, aha. High school drama I will never miss you! XD But, oh my goodness, I got to school today and one of the windows was smashed and I laughed so hard! Apparently someone threw a rock at it. 

I cried during Silver Linings, I just love Jennifer Lawrence's acting almost as much as I love Emilia Clark's. I feel like Jennifer's character in that movie, though, would have been a really different/difficult role to play. Haha, anyways hope you like those movies. To.Get.Her is a low budget film but it is really worth it! 

I do it sober and willingly, what does that say about me? >.< Haha, but it isn't a bad routine, and I've done well with it. But not as well as some of my other solos and oh my god now I have to brag because this is actually the most exciting thing that as ever happened to me!!! At my last competition my student choreography solo (meaning I was the one who made it up) won overall Student Choreo with a [i]94[/i]! I beat out this one girl who is absolutely amazing and her OC was in her best style which is acro, so that felt kinda great!

Well this is awkward, wow I am so sorry. For some reason I thought I told you about that, but I think I just told you about the whole friend drama I went through (which is one of the biggest reasons [i]why[/i]). But no, I don't do it anymore. I get that it is super hard to understand so I won't try and make you, I don't really enjoy that I've done this but I was in a bad place and I couldn't really express all of the emotions that I had. It was just easier to feel something physical I guess. If you've ever known someone whose done it before they would probably explain it as a release, like all the negative energy just kind of disperses which seems really morbid, I know, but that is how it feels (pain actually releases an endorphin in the body that gives it adrenaline). But after a while it becomes like an addiction, I sometimes still crave it even though I know how bad it is for my body and I won't ever let myself go back there. As for my guidance counsellor, it is really hard to open up and some of the questions she asked me were really upsetting but it made me realize a lot about myself. I don't think that there is any chance of me falling in love with her though, haha, maybe if she weren't old. XD

Oh if I told my mom my entire family would know in about a day and they would probably through a party. They'd love it. I have a cousin who is gay, I don't like him 'cause he is just a seriously weird person (one year he made his boyfriend's kid get in our family pictures and then a couple months later they broke up, so now we have some rando kid in our pic), so they wouldn't be all weird about it.

... Okay, I am not sure how much I can express in words how beautiful that was. Oh my goodness. You have a really great way with words, just the way you explained that is [i]so perfect.[/i] I keep re-reading it and crying, oh wow. [i]"it's on a continuum, it evolves over time"[/i] Do you even realize how amazing that sounds? Okay, that was so over dramatic of me but holy perfection. Would you mind if I used that as a text post on tumblr or something like it?? Maybe a quote would be better... but please?

Haha, that is so great! Once when I was with my friend and her bf at the movies I told them both that I was the Harry to their Ron and Hermione. Harry Potter = Perfection. I think it's so nice that you're all cool with each other, like that is true friendship right there! :) You went on a blind date? I've honestly always wanted to do that, even just for the experience. I think it would be fun. Although, I do think that situation would be pretty awful, gag me XD 

I want to go to Harry Potter land, omg I am such a potterhead it isn't even funny!!

Edit: Sorry if that post isn't edited very well >.< I don't know if I'll get another chance to post anything for the next couple of days, I'm going to Moncton and won't have my computer, so I figured I should get something up :p