Woah, the Royal Winnipeg Ballet. That does sound really official and terrifying x) Did you do well? Why did the choreographer yell at the pianist? 

They're not shunned now, heh, but apparently my grandmother went through a pretty hostile period with my mom because my grandmother was convinced that she had tempted her son, my dad, away from the church or something ridiculous like that, and [i]that's[/i] why they left - when of course my dad openly admits that he never felt part of it when he was growing up. I love my grandmother and she doesn't feel like that anymore, but sometimes I do pick up on some tension between her and my mom lol. Of course, that's sort of how it goes right, mother-in-laws and wives having a little bit of a power struggle, that's nothing new. Mormon's have pretty strange beliefs about the afterlife and a whole weird mythology thing with Jesus living in America at one point or some crazy shit like that, I'm not even really sure to be honest. They have temple rituals and wear special garments under their clothes at all times. They're not allowed to smoke, or drink alcohol, or even caffeine. Really though, if you met a Mormon, chances are they would be totally "normal" and probably really sweet. You might know some Mormons actually. There were a few dudes in my high school who were and I never even knew until like senior year. Really they are totally normal and likeable. Their beliefs aren't for everyone, but I don't think the word extreme would pop into your head if you met one. But [i]Fundamentalist[/i] Mormons are a whole different story xD Like polygamy and stuff? Yeah, that's extreme to me. 

Oh yeah, I couldn't name all my cousins right off the bat to save my life xD Ahh, that's terrible. Let's see, my dad has six siblings, all married and everyone has [i]at least[/i] four kids, (except for our black sheep family) but Aunt Shana has eight and then two of her daughters have a kid, and my Uncle Mike's kids all have kids. Uncle Tom just had his fifth, my Aunt Linda just got remarried and her new husband has three kids and his daughter has a kid... I should make a chart for myself, I can't keep track xD And yes, since Mormonism is a Christian religion, they do celebrate Christmas, and Easter.

Hm, please translate this foreign language xD So...you can do the splits? Haha x) Anyways, it sounds impressive!

Oh wow, that's really rough :/ I would feel just as hurt as you if someone acted that way towards me. Angry too because it would seem like they are just turning the situation toward themselves instead of trying to be understanding. She must care about you though, even if it comes out in a totally unhelpful way. Since I don't know her, I really shouldn't make any assumptions. Do you think she'll ever come around? I completely get the feeling of not being able to talk openly about how I feel with the majority of my friends. There are only a select few who come close, and even then I just feel like I'm asking them to feel sorry for me which I hate. And yeah, it's easiy to be open with you, anonymous behind this computer screen, able to edit everything I say and "pause" the conversation if I feel too emotional. But it's more than that too, I can be open with you because I get the feeling that you are an understanding person. I never anticipated our OOC chat to be anything more than, hey what should we do next in the RP, but wow it's been pretty cathartic, hasn't it? x) I've enjoyed rambling to you and listening to your thoughts.

Yeah "not falling head over heels in love" wouldn't apply to me either x) 

Oh we made everything! We bought cheep hipsterish clothes from Walmart and cut them up very carefully so they looked decayed and stuff and we bought a whole spectrum of face paints to get our skin as gross as possible xD We used this wax stuff to create "gouges" and cuts on our faces, necks and hands. And omg, we got this fake blood that literally made me gag when I squirted it out of the tube because it was obscenely realistic. And then we smothered that on ourselves xD haha, it was sooo fun just getting ready. We each did our own faces and then did details for each other. Once we had the clothes on, we cut them up a little more on each other, which was fun too. Nice, your cat woman costume sounds great! I'm not sure yet what I'm going to be this year.. Last year I bought this leather corset at a Scottish festival that came to my university and I made a pirate costume with it, some fishnet stockings, knee high heeled boots, a jagged skirt and cape and a colonial style hat with a feather that my brother got from Colonial Williamsburg x) Yeah, there are always those girls running around, using halloween as an excuse to wear as little clothing as possible.

I love catching up too, I could talk to her for hours! Heh, yeah I guess you're not [i]too[/i] far away, oh exotic Canada x) But that reminds me, I need to ask her if she has room in her igloo for me to come stay with her sometime. And say hi to the polar bears for me will you, eh? 

Yeah, no, it's all good. I didn't mean to sound so dramatic, there's really no specific thing. I don't know why I'm feeling emotional right now lol, but I think it has something to do with seeing my roommate again soon. Maybe it's just stirring up some old resentments about having to move around so much. I think moving every three years maybe somehow messed me up a little. I think there's something wrong or lacking with my ability to make meaningful, non-shallow relationships with other people. I think I'm totally, totally alone, emotionally, but it's my own fault because I can't stand to feel vulnerable. But you have to be vulnerable and open, don't you, in order to have a real connection with someone. A lot of people I've known have confided in me, but I don't confide in anyone, ever. I think I've turned some potential friends off because they confide in me, then expect me to reciprocate, but I stay secretive, and they realize I don't actually trust them with [i]my[/i] secrets and that pisses them off. I feel bad about that. In every relationship I've been in, I've felt like I was holding back. I've wrestled with coming to terms with my sexuality but there's still something in the way and I feel irritated with myself about that. The thing is, my roommate is one person who I do feel pretty open with, but she's not really in my life anymore. She'll be here for a few days and then gone again. I'm feeling prematurely sad about it, which is pretty pathetic, I mean she's not even here yet! It's just like, the closer you get to someone, the more difficult it is to leave them eventually, so staying distant is sort of easier in some ways. But moving on and replacing friendships is natural isn't it. I'm making a big deal out of nothing, everyone goes through this, not just me. I don't know why it makes me so profoundly sad. 

I think pouring our "bad stuff" into our characters might make them richer and more relatable, and that's part of what makes our RP so compelling. It's sort of an indirect way for us both to work emotional stuff out, at a nice safe distance. I've actually wondered what characteristics of Charlie might be your own. Her personality comes off strongly to me. Of course, you're also talented enough to write a totally different, but equally believable character for Lisette. Do you think she gets any of your personality? Or she is your opposite? Or else, how does she fit in? I love that you have all this backstory for Charlie x) I do the same with my characters! Imagine all this stuff that might not ever even get mentioned in the RP. It gives the characters depth indirectly I think, because they become more real in your head and then when it comes to writing about them, you're just describing this person who already "exists," and it comes out naturally. 

Ok, phew, I'd rather go with the forbidden love of Romeo and Juliette, rather than the dying part. But like you said, it's nice to let things just sort of unfold for themselves and be unpredictable. It makes me want to try all kinds of characters against your characters to see what happens x) You react so naturally and interestingly! At the risk of sounding too flattering, you're the best RP partner I'v ever had! xD I just gotta say it, it's so true. And ditto on this being the best RP I've ever had.

[b]EDIT:[/b] Well, its daytime now and when I reread what I wrote in my third to last paragraph, in the wee hours of the morning, it makes me cringe lol. I'm not as mopey as I sounded, just need to get some whining out of my system I guess heh.

[b]Another EDIT:[/b] Yes btw let's make that our goal! We'll come up with an appropriate ending and then this whole thing will feel complete, and not like something we abandoned.