Well I didn't get in, haha. I probably wouldn't have joined the company anyways. There is too much pressure at that level. Girls are pushed to have that "perfect ballet body" which is basically [i]super[/i] skinny with no boobs. You have to look like a child, which I guess is kind of the only reason a company would look at me anyways. But the pressure causes eating disorders, depression, and other unhealthy things. Ahaha, she yelled at him because he couldn't get the counts for the music right, he got really sassy with her and it was scary/hilarious. 

That must have been rough on your parents.. I'm glad that everything worked out for the better! And yeah, aha, I get the whole mother-in-law/daughter-in-law rivalry. My mom and grandmother get along well for the most part but I can tell there is a little bit of tension there, just because they are two completely different women. Okay... so I think my problem is I watch too much television and have an incredibly biased view on what Mormonism, or even Amish lifestyles, are like. I think I should probably shut my mouth now before I talk myself into a hole >.< Ahaha But polygamy, that really is extreme. I don't really agree with it, but y'know whatever... I'm not anyone to judge other people for what they believe. 

:O That is so many people.. I wouldn't remember their names either, even though I am good at remembering names. Then again my family names their kids weird shit like "Ketch" (Yes, I really do have a baby cousin named Ketch..). I'm in love with the name Faust for a boy so I'm really in no position to be all judgy. But really? [i]Eight[/i] kids? I can't imagine it, that is so crazy! But I will admit that I love big families and I've always wished I had another sibling. Hah, yeah I'd probably need to make a chart, too :p Also, oh! Okay, I wasn't sure, that is interesting to know. 

Seriously, sometimes I forget that people don't know what 'Pas de boreas', 'Pirouettes', 'Soutes ' etc are. I say things like that on a daily basis so it doesn't faze me at all, but then again I'm sure that there is some soccer lingo that I wouldn't understand? Hah, in my world it really isn't impressive, but thanks anyways :p 

Ugh, seriously I could vent all day about it but I don't want to be shallow. But seriously, I don't know if she'll ever treat me the same again, or if I'll ever be able to trust her again. I know that sounds extreme but if you could feel how hurt I am by it you would understand. She cares, yeah, but I'm really tired of people saying that. I don't care if she cares because she is just turning the whole situation around on herself like always. Anyways, about not be able to talk to friends. Yeah, I seem like I am this super open person who can talk about anything but I tell people about the surface problems. There is no one in this entire world who comes close to actually understanding my complex emotions and I don't know if I could even start to put any of them into words. Although I agree being able to stop and start a conversation when it gets too much, and just the whole animosity thing makes it so much easier to open up. I'm glad that you think I am an understanding person, I like to think I am. I love listening to other peoples problems, as weird as that sounds, and trying to help them. I guess it kind of makes up for the fact that sometimes I feel like I can't help myself. This is going to sound super weird and I really hope you don't think I'm a freak or sometime but I guess I kinda look up to you. There isn't really anyone in my life who I can do that with, I'm usually the one that people turn to for help and not the other way around. So I'm really glad that our OOC posts didn't stay surface, it really has helped me come to terms with a lot of things so really, thanks for that :) 

That sounds so fabulous! Oh my goodness, and the whole fake blood thing! That is disgustingly awesome XD I was in Toronto a couple years ago and we were there in October, close to halloween, and they were having their annual Day of the Dead or whatever it's called. It was just kind of getting started while we were walking to the airport but it was cool to see some of the costumes. Was it for a party that you guys dressed up? Ahh, your Pirate costume sounds so amazing, really creative! 

Aww, I'm sure it's gonna be a really great couple of days :) The polar bears say hey, by the way, from all the way down here in exotic Canada... XD Haha, but oh my goodness! The weather has actually been so nice lately, it's suppose to get up to 24 degrees celsius on saturday and it has been total shorts/skirts weather. But my school board has started this ridiculous new rule that girls aren't aloud to wear shorts to school anymore because it is "distracting for male students". Like seriously? That is ridiculous! Why should we stop wearing shorts while guys get to go around sagging their pants? I think it is totally inappropriate for the board to say something like that. And really? It's not my fault if they can't keep it in their pants..

I can relate to some of that, especially the part about being alone. I feel like I'm constantly surrounded by people but no one really sees me. It's like I'm not even there to them. Like today I was sitting with two of my friends at lunch and they just started making random plans to hang out all summer and do all this shit together while I was sitting there like 'Oh, thanks for the invite.' Then I felt pathetic because they should be free to make plans without me, they don't have to hang out with me outside of school. But it just hurts, you know. It hurts so much sometimes that I feel like I'm breaking away from the inside, and that my heart has gone cold because it can't take anymore pain. That's really dramatic, but it's how I feel. I know it's hard to remember sometimes, trust me I get it, but you're never really alone.. even if it feels like it. I'm always here to talk, even though it is over the computer, I am willing to listen. I don't really have the whole confiding in people problem, like I said I will tell people things but not go into detail about them, or play it off as not a big deal, like I told my best friend that I like girls and we've talked about it a bit but she thinks that I am super cool and stuff with my sexuality when really I am so fucking confused I don't know what to do. I kind of feel like my entire life I have had myself placed in this perfect little shoe box; Go to university, meet a nice guy, settle down, have a family, grow old, etc. But now I don't know if I want any of that, I mean obviously I want to go to university but all of that other stuff is just kind of mush in my mind now and it almost feels freeing at the same time terrifying. I don't know, it's just freaking me out a lot lately. 

It doesn't sound ridiculous at all, that you would be sad about her leaving even before she gets here. You have a right to be upset about it because obviously she is really close to you and letting go of friendships like that is hard. My biggest fear is my best friend leaving, and I don't mean just to travel and go live somewhere else, she's suicidal and I've seen things that I wish I haven't and felt things that no one should ever feel because of it. And it is really hard to watch her struggle like she does. I was watching her on stage the other day and started crying because I just wanted to shake her and scream: "You know that feeling? The feeling you get when you're on stage nailing a routine and the adrenaline is so high and you can't remember anything but the amazing sense of euphoria and rapture? That's called being alive and it's really fucking nice." But sometimes she doesn't see that and it's so scary, even now typing all of this I am starting to cry because it makes me physically ill to think about her ever being gone and I just wish she would see that!! I'm sorry to share something like this with you, she'd never go through with it and there is a lot of people in her life making sure that she won't it's just sometimes I get so caught up in how she feels that I forget to let out how I feel, and now I feel like a selfish asshole. 

I definitely agree with that one, characters with depth are so much better than just "fluff" characters. It definitely makes the story that much more interesting. Char is really special to me, and I never intended her to be when I started this but it just kind of happened. Actually, Lisette is [i]so[/i] much harder for me to write for. I keep on trying to get into her head, like I've even tried outside writing exercises when I get bored, but she just isn't there yet. She gets my vulgar sense of humour, also I am a huge bitch 99% of the time so she also gets that. Otherwise, Lisette is her own thing. I wouldn't say she is my opposite though, for the most part I channel all of my sass into her XD What about Booker?? Now I'm curious about where he fits! Ahh, you have no idea! Charlie even has extended family... her eighteen-year-old cousin Alice is a teen mom and where that may seem like a really random thing, I made her for a reason! I mean, she's never been mentioned yet but her character serves to personify the thought that Charlie isn't 'good enough' for her family, because despite the fact that Alice had a baby at sixteen Char is still the disgrace of the family. Anyways, I'm working on getting all of this stuff out of my head and written down at some point. I'll share it with you eventually.. if I don't think it will completely ruin the mystique of the character.

More characters can be a thing... just saying we aren't limited to these four and there are a bounty of ideas and other characters that we can try out if you want. I think that keeping it to just a few is boring anyways, heh. But we can talk about that more later.. OH MY GOD THANK YOU THE FEELING IS MUTUAL <3 Really though :) 

I get it, no worries :) My "wee hours of the morning" self is like that, too! I don't mind whining, anyways. 

Good! But we can do that later 'cause I'm feeling a little bit too emotional already, it's probably best to save that for another day XD