[center][indent]I'M SIX FEET FROM THE EDGE AND I'M THINKING. MAYBE SIX FEET, AIN'T SO FAR DOWN.[/indent][/center]

Things had taken a turn from good for Hailey to hell so quickly that even she was confused as to what was happening. Hailey had only left the house half an hour to go get some Chinese food before James and her parents left, tonight was their parent’s anniversary. Every year the twins had a tradition of eating dinner together, though since James and Ryan were no longer hiding their relationship she would often join them. She would get Chinese food before their parents left and then James would order pizza later that night, and Hailey was looking forward to having dinner with just her brother and maybe Ryan. 

At least that was until she returned home to find the back doors of an ambulance being closed as she pulled up. Hailey didn’t even turn the car off before she got out, running to her mother who stood in the doorway trying not to cry. That was when her mother told her about James, that he had went pale and passed out in the middle of the living room. While Hailey was packing up some clothes to take to the hospital for James she called the group. Ryan had been first of course, not because she was more important, but because she was his girlfriend, then Blake and Joshua.

How Hailey sat in the semi-crowed waiting room, hands on either side of her face, long light brown hair lose and falling in front of her face. As she sat there trying her hardest not to start crying again. She wasn’t sure what was the worst part that they still hadn’t let her in to see him, that her friends still weren’t have, or that the one person that was responsible for everything she had and the person that kept her from hurting herself could be gone. Three months ago James had found out what she was doing, and he had been helping her since, just like he did everyone.

[i]The day was easily in the top ten of the worst days of her life so far this year. Earlier that day she had waited at home all day for her boyfriend to come over, before texting him to figure out why he hadn’t come over, and that was when he broke up with her. He hadn’t even cared enough to tell her face to face, no it had been through text.

Hailey was sitting in the far corner of her small overly organized room, boiling her eyes out in the dark. It was no wonder her boyfriend had broke up with her, she was an ugly worthless bitch, a waste of space. She could have ended it all right then and really no one would have cared. Or at least that had been telling herself. The light to her bedroom turned on as she was pulling up the sleeve of her long sleeved shirt, because of the blinding light she didn’t have time to hide it as she normally did.

[b]“What the hell are you doing Hailey?!”[/b] Her brother’s horrified voice came from the doorway before Hailey’s eyes adjusted to see her brother standing there with a plate of food. It was normal for her to lock herself in her room and skip dinner altogether, but this time she had forgot to lock the door. 

[b]“I….I was just…”[/b] She stuttered looking up at James as he sat the plate down on the table coming towards her, tears in her eyes, hand closing around the razor blade. James held his hand out for the blade looking ashamed of his twin sister. [b]“I just wanted the pain to go away.”[/b] She told him handing the blade to him before the crying started again.

James sighed stick the blade in his pocket before hugging Hailey tightly. [b]“It’s okay Hailey, I’m going to get you some help.”[/b] He whispered in her ear.[/i]

Ever since then Hailey had been in therapy which her parents hadn’t even really noticed, and Hailey was doing so much better. Though right now all she wanted was that damned blade, as she rubbed her sleeve against the scars from where she had long been cutting herself. Feeling a hand on her shoulder, she looking up at Joshua her eyes still puffy but not red, she gave him a fake smile and standing up. Before she could say anything however Blake walked up, wiping his arms around Hailey’s thin body into a bear hug, picking her off of the ground. She buried her face in his shoulder before he sat her on the ground, Hailey wiping her eyes with the long sleeve of her shirt.

Then Ryan was there hugging her as well, she knew that it had to be just as hard on Ryan to have James in the hospital as it was for her. Soon they were able to see James, he looked so weak and pale lying in the hospital bed with oxygen tubes and IV’s in him. It made her want to start crying again as she went to stand beside her twin, Ryan moving to the other side of the bed.

Even though things looked terrible, Hailey was in denial of how bad it was. She couldn’t lose her brother, she couldn’t. [b]"Well there has to be something that the doctors can do to make it better. Right?"[/b] She said softly show in how much denial she was in. When James didn't answer right away Hailey shifted slightly as James told what the doctors had said what was wrong with him, making her brother look at her, he gave Hailey the same smile he had been giving the others taking a hold of her hand. Even though Hailey didn’t say anything more she gripped his hand lightly looking at the floor. The last thing James needed was to see her sadness for him.
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[center][indent]IF I TURN MY BACK I’M DEFENSELESS. AND TO GO BLINDLY SEEMS SENSELESS.[/indent][/center]

Blake hated hospitals, a whole building of sick and hurt people, it brought back memories he chose not to remember. However most of the times he went to Mercy Central Hospital anymore when he went to see one of his friends things never seemed to be serious. Only the tone of Hailey’s voice when she called him said this was different. He had been helping his little with some summer school project when she called him last, she had broke down and started crying towards the end of the phone call. He woke his mother up telling her what happened and that he couldn’t watch his brother anymore. Not even making it to his jeep before Joshua called asking to catch a ride because his father took his car. 

Picking Joshua on the way to the hospital, the ride was quiet not even the radio playing and Blake too far into his own thoughts to even feel like talking. Since James and Blake met in kindergarten they had been like family, second grade when Blake’s father left and his mother was pregnant for his brother Blake stayed at James and Hailey’s house more than his own. In some ways the two twins were more of a family then his mother was to his brother and him. 

When they got to the hospital he dropped Joshua off at the doors before going to park the jeep in parking spot, circling until he found somewhere closest to the doors. He sighed putting his head against the steering wheel closing his eyes for a moment as his thoughts went back to his sixteenth birthday.

[i]“The rain was pouring outside soaking every itch of his clothes as he walked up the driveway to James and Hailey’s house. It was about a two hour walk from house to house, and the rain and darkness hadn’t sped up his walk either. It was almost ten in the evening by the time he knocked on the door.

When James opened the door he was clearly surprised to see Blake but it still didn’t stop the smile that always seemed to find itself on his face. [b]“What are you doing here? Shouldn’t you be out to dinner with your mom?”[/b] James asked moving to the side to let Blake in.

He shook his head frowning coming inside. [b]“No, she’s drunk ranting and raving again. I had to get out of there before I just snapped again and get something I regretted this time.”[/b] He answered running a hand through his black hair.

[b]“Did you leave Tim there with her?”[/b] James asked closing the door before more rain could get in.

Blake shook his head turning to look at him. [b]“No, I left him over at my aunts. But some of my families in town staying with her, there was only room for him. I was wondering if I could stay the night here again?”[/b] He asked.

James smiled nodding and patted Blake on the back moving past him. [b]“They won’t care as long as you stay in the bottom half of the house.”[/b][/i]

Clearing his throat and putting his guard up he walked into the hospital, walking up to Hailey as she stood and wrapping his arms around her into a tight hug, picking her off the ground as he did, letting Hailey bury her face in his shoulder before sitting her on the ground. The nurse said they could go see James, though the fact she also said they may not have long to visit was a little disheartening, it wasn’t as much as actually seeing his friend weak in the hospital bed. The smile was fake, Blake knew a fake smile when he saw one. Moving on the other side of the bed close to Ryan he leaned against the wall not having a seat to sit in.