Fendros sighed. "That's similar to how Meesei put it, and I know, that makes sense and all, it's just..." Fendros trailed off, looking down. "Each time the beast killed, whether it was an animal or a person, it... I don't know if that was just how the instinct worked, but it [i]enjoyed[/i] it." Fendros put his hands up low in front of himself, "Seeing the light go out of their eyes, tasting their blood..." Fendros shook his head, "When you're in that moment, when you are the wolf it... it's hard to tell whether it's yourself or the wolf doing the thinking, and..." Fendros lowered his hands, closed his eyes and breathed out through his nose. He opened his eyes and looked at Ahnasha, "I know it's a simple creature at heart, but the beast form makes me afraid that I might get similar enjoyment out of killing, and that scares me." Fendros looked ahead again, "Janius told me a while ago that the wolf will not stop me from being who I want to be as a person. I just wish I could trust him and not worry. I really do."