[quote=Freeshooter92]
I don't mind some. Some. What I hate, is being constantly, CONSTANTLY, being grinded under something's bootheel. This constant spiral of failure and hopelessness is actually honest-to-god depressing me. I feel like utter dogshit when I have my character's big heroic sacrifice just... just ignored. Or when the only time anything get's done is when a fucking god decides to bail me out. It makes me feel like my character is worthless, and is merely a background character while the important people are doing stuff.
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I understand, I've got that feeling before, though in my case, it is more the worry of how things could go. In your case, I can definitely see the issue. Alaira has been through quite a lot. I've heard others voice similar concerns about being lesser characters as well, though I shall not name names. Personally, I still love this RP, I look forward to every update, but...constructive criticism is a good thing, no?