Jacob opened his mouth then closed it, he didn't know what to say he was lost at words. Finally he spoke "maybe I thought i could find a cure Ellie I don't know anymore I just.... Don't want you to leave please Ellie if you do I don't think the resistance can get through another week." His voice cracked with every word he let out, "I've already made to many mistakes..... Please Ellie I'm scared out of my mind everyday I wonder if I'm gonna get shot or something else when I can't sleep I stay up all night punching a wall or something hoping the pain can get rid of my thoughts..... Ellie I've been having nightmares all to often I can barely get any sleep or anything just don't leave." His hands curled up into fists, his voice was still cracking with every word, tears were flowing freely down his face now he just looked defeated.