Elliot kept looking at the blood. She wasn't sure this was going to help him. She wasn't even sure that the dialysis was going to help him. She wasn't sure anything was going to help him and in a few years he was going to be dead. Tears welled in her eyes, "What about me... What about when he dies... He acts like he just so happy to have me back for the last few years of his life. He's fine with me watching him die... I don't think I can do that.... I don't want to do that... I don't want to do anything at all...."