Vera let Andras pick from a store on the end, with the girl choosing heeled knee-high boots, though with Vera making sure she picked a pair that didn’t clash with her outfit. Boots weren’t what she would have gone with personally, but she wanted to keep the girl from backing out on her, and so she got her way.
And thus, with the sun now slowly sinking down over the horizon, they reached their destination, now appropriately dolled up, much to Vera’s approval. That said, they’d ended up in a somewhat seedy neighborhood. The streets weren’t as clean and the usage of neon lights seemed to increase proportionally with the grime.
They were at a dingy little nightclub that Vera had visited once in the past, and honestly she was surprised it was still there. They often changed ownership and thus name, but this was almost exactly as she recalled it. Good. She needed this. She needed to let loose and blow off steam.
She suddenly linked arms with Andras and took her up to the door and the bouncer who blocked their way.
“Working here now, huh?” Vera apparently knew the man. They had a tendency to bounce, pun not intended, from club to club.
“What’d you do, beat up the wrong guest?” She snarked. She then pulled Andras closer still.
“She’s with me.”The man just rolled his eyes and waved them inside. The inside resembled the outside, just louder. The music was bassy and seemed to largely be
remixed rock songs rather than typical electronic music lacking vocals.
There were a few sitting areas scattered around the edge, most sporting torn, flattened cushions held together with dreams and duct tape. Then, there was the main floor filled with people dancing. Dancing might have been too kind a way to put it, considering the gross disregard of personal space and lack of grace.
Vera took a deep breath,
“It’s good to be home.”Andras felt the need to cover her ears. The music was so loud in here. It didn’t feel like it was coming from any one direction, it was like she was somehow always in the center of it. She knew deep down that covering her ears would be pointless, because she’d need to use her hands sometime. But she felt the need to. “
W-What are we going to do here?” Andras asked, her voice drowned out by the music. Trying again, she tapped on Vera’s shoulder, and almost shouted, “
What are we going to do in this place anyway?!”
Vera reached inside the small purse she had slung over her shoulder and then stepped up to Andras. She reached up, taking both of the girl’s hands and gently, almost sensually pulling them away from her ears.
“Shhhh, just let it wash over you…” Plop! And suddenly Andras felt something pushed into her ears. Ear plugs? Vera did the same for herself.
“Just kidding, no amount of partying is worth my hearing and the following headache.” She looked directly at Andras as she spoke, letting the girl read her lips.
“I’ve been at this a while and seen way too many people end up with tinnitus.” She then grinned, like a hungry shark in her element, once more taking Andras’s hands.
“And what we’re going to do… is teach you to dance. The fun way.” And so Andras was dragged to the dance floor, first at arms length, but then a sharp tug that practically had her pressed right up against Vera.
“You’re not claustrophobic are you?” Again, Vera was looking right into her eyes, close enough for them to feel each other’s breath.
Andras let out a squeak of surprise. She had gathered what Vera’s idea of “dancing” was, but she didn’t expect to be thrust into it so quickly. “
I-I’m not! I don’t think so, at least…” Andras definitely was uncomfortable, but it wasn’t due to any kind of phobia. She couldn’t keep up eye contact with Vera; something about it was embarrassing her. Andras turned her head. “
I’ve never danced before, so, I don’t know if we should be doing this…” Andras gave a weak excuse to try and weasel out of the situation.
“I figured, but that’s why I’m teaching you, now isn’t it?” Vera felt a bit of pity. She’d been in Andras’s position once. Overwhelmed by lights, sounds, smells, and people. But then she’d gotten used to it. Addicted to it. Surrounded and hemmed in by people and yet undeniably free. The constant yearning for more was liberating as it steadily dragged her out of her comfort zone.
It had taught her that one’s “comfort zone” was just a self-inflicted prison that locked away everything life had to offer.
“Relax, just feel the music and follow my lead.” Vera stroked Andras’s cheek with the back of her hand in an attempt to comfort her. She also positioned herself so that she stood between Andras and the bulk of the crowd, letting the overwhelmed girl focus on her rather than the mass of strangers that threatened to swallow them.
Maybe it was all too much, maybe she was really here for her own selfish desires. Maybe she’d only brought Andras along as an excuse. But still, part of her really did think she was helping Andras, even if it was just a side-effect of her own hedonistic desires.
Andras realized quickly that things were best if she just kept her eyes forward. She had to keep up with Vera’s danci- strange movements, and her desire to look at the ground or the walls made it impossible to keep up with her. ‘
L-Like some kind of basilisk. Wait, that’s the opposite of the situation right now. I can’t even remember my mythical-’ Andras stumbled slightly, bumping into her dance partner. She took a quick glance at the crowd, and the lights and the entire club. ‘
Should I really be thinking about mythical creatures right now anyway?’ That thought crossed her mind briefly.
Andras wasn’t really sure of herself, even when she settled into a rhythm with Vera. Personally, the music was slightly off of what she’d listen to normally… And played way too loud, of course. The earplugs helped with that, at the very least. Andras was slightly fascinated with Vera, however. She seemed less… annoyed than she was… all the time. ‘
I guess this is what she likes to do?’ Andras pondered.
Andras stumbled again slightly. Though her boots only had a small heel to them, she wasn’t quite familiar with them enough to not have a hard time keeping up. “
H-How do you do this all the time…” Andras wondered aloud, her breathing elevated from the dancing.
“Hm?” Vera almost seemed in a trance like state until Andras pulled her out of it.
“It’s easy now. That tension you feel, you have to let go of it. What you’re feeling is your desires pulling against all those dumb shackles you put on them. I’m not saying go out and steal a TV, but I am saying that in here, you need to just stop caring. Stop assuming anyone really cares. Just let it all bleed out of you and let what’s deep inside tell you what to do.”A devious look slipped onto Vera’s face,
“I mean, once you’re really used to it, and you get used to people, you can even just go grab a stranger and dance. Watch.” She pulled away from Andras and slid back into some other girl, pressing herself back-to-back with her.
“They don’t mind!” She raised her voice so Andras could at least kind of hear her.
“Do you honey?” she reached up over her shoulder to cup the girls cheek, but then grinned and just smacked her ass.
“Hey!- Oh my gosh, Vera?!” The girl went from confused to overjoyed, flinging herself at Vera.
“OK, I cheated, I know this one.” Vera admitted. That said, to be fair, long before the girl had recognized Vera, she’d seemed perfectly fine with Vera’s dancing up against her and even touching her face. So maybe she’d been telling the truth.
“Come on, you and your cute little friend follow me, we have a little spot in the corner!” The girl took Vera and Andras’s hands and pulled her over to a large corner shaped sofa next to a glass table that once upon a time had probably been transparent but now was decidedly opaque. Vera was soon excitedly bantering away with the girl and a few of her friends. For a moment, almost seeming to forget about Andras.
Then, things got a bit awkward. Perhaps it wasn’t a surprise, but soon little pills were being passed around, and white sweaty with runny makeup and generally disheveled appearances, none of the girls actually seemed sick. Once could only guess what the true natures of the pills were, but some already seemed dazed, manic, or just had far-away looks on their faces.
Soon enough, a pill had made its way into Andras’s hand. Vera had one too, and she popped it into her mouth. But then, a second later when no eyes were on Andras, Vera’s hand shot out and swiped the pill from her hands, shoving it into her waistband. Vera winked at her, and faked a cough, and hid the one she’d pretended to take as well…
Andras tried to keep her cool, her stomach sinking for a moment. Putting aside her stint as a demon (which she had at this point due to everything around her), she was definitely too afraid of what could happen to try it. She knew that she was with a different crowd than she was used to… But whatever was being passed around wouldn’t have been good anyway. She nodded to Vera in a silent expression of gratitude. ‘
I-I knew she was good at heart!’ Andras secretly rejoiced.
And then, about fifteen minutes later… the rush had faded. The blur the night had become was suddenly at a screeching halt. The girl that had recognized Vera had just gone and passed out. Some of the others were in a similar state or had wandered off to who knows where to do who knew what.
Vera sat there, a blank expression on her face despite being perfectly sober. She broke out of it only momentarily to tilt the unconscious girl’s head slightly so she wouldn’t choke if she happened to vomit.
And then her face just fell into her hands. A bit ago she’d seemed downright blissful. Now she just seemed… defeated, somehow.
Even Andras, who was out of her element, had noticed the shift. Keeping a respectful distance, she leaned slightly in towards Vera. “
Um… Are you alright, Vera?” She asked as softly as she could while still being heard. Thinking quickly, Andras added, “
And uh. Thanks for saving me before.” Andras awkwardly motioned to her open palm, to call back to a few minutes earlier.
“I didn’t want to spit it out…” Vera finally said, voice shaky.
“I didn’t want to save you. I wanted to get high with you… or just take yours for myself. Either would be better than this. Just numb surrounded by a bunch of zombies.” She glanced at the people who hadn’t shown so much restraint.
Andras swallowed. “
Numb? But… You were having a lot of fun before, right?” She recalled it all. “
P-Plus, can’t we have fun without, well, drugs?” Andras had trouble saying that last part. She could hear the anti-drug commercial theme music playing in the distance. She felt distinctly uncool, from both her own definition and what she assumed Vera’s definition to be.
“I was having fun, because I was following my rules!” Vera snapped.
“And now I’ve stepped right back into my shackles!” She leaned back into the couch, arms crossed, finger tapping away with such impatience it was practically a blur.
Then, suddenly, a pair of hands came down on Vera’s shoulders. Vera tilted her head back, actually looking hopeful, perhaps it was someone who could drag her out of the slump she’d fallen right back into.
Again. The little back-flip in her heart, the almost relieved, joyful parting of her lips before they firmly pressed back together in a thin line. Fucking Seth.
Was he stalking her now?
“Vera, Vera, Vera,” he spoke. “You look suspiciously unfulfilled. Don’t tell me they left you out,” he asked her. His fingers slid across her bare shoulders as he stepped around the couch.
“What can I say. They only had the cheap shit. Doesn’t do anything for me anymore,” she told him. It was her usual sass, yet somehow it felt subdued. Weak.
The bite was missing.
He slid down next to her, arm draped around her, forcing himself down between her and Andras. He pulled out something, not all that dissimilar from what had been passed around before.
“Then how about something a little better.” He chuckled at something. “I can tell you want it. It’s in your eyes.” Suspiciously, Vera didn’t have a comeback this time. He held it up in front of his lips and then leaned in toward her.
Vera was sure he did see something in her eyes. She could feel the pull toward what he held and... The next thing she knew they were face-to-face. She reached up and grabbed his hand, pulling it away, but then she leaned even closer to him, lips parted slightly and barely more than a hair’s breadth from his.
She let out a breath slowly,
“Fuck you, Seth,” she hissed and pushed him off of her. She had one rule. If she was done with Wolf, if she wanted someone else, she’d make damn sure Wolf knew about it beforehand.
“Andras,” in the heat of the moment, she just threw out the girl’s fake name.
“Get up. We’re leaving.” “Oh are you?” This time Seth sounded quite impatient. “I told you, we have unfinished business. I was TRYING to be nice about it!”
“And I said we don’t!” Vera didn’t sound in control anymore the way she just shouted at him, a hint if panic and desperation in her voice.
“I don’t care what you say, facts are facts. Or have you forgotten that little break you and your little boy toy took from each other. Came running back to me right quick you did,” Seth told her, a sinister gleam in his eyes. “Got real deep in things too. And you made quite a mess when you left.”
“Fuck off, Seth! That’s not fa-”“And my my, how many memories you left me with to share.” Seth had pulled out his phone and was swiping through it. “Particularly fond of this one.” He held it up, displaying a picture of him and Vera hanging all over each other. Vera looked out of her mind with bliss, her skin glistening, but her eyes sort of glassy and unfocused. “Went right back to the way things were! Best week of our lives, wasn’t it!?” Seth grinned madly, one hand gripping the back of the sofa like a talon. His whole body was tense, as if he were a predator ready to pounce.
“I said we’re leaving!” Vera, looking more vulnerable than ever, actually sounded ready to cry. She grabbed Andras and hurried them out of the nightclub, just picking a direction once they were outside and walking…