i sometimes wonder if i am transexual or transgender cause i fantasize being a guy. this wasn't the case before my last abortion (but not before my last last abortion) when all i thought about were nude guys
in other words, i think about men soooo often that i sometimes wish i was one, to be broad shouldered, shirtless, confident, i want to be all these things and sometimes i play around with the idea of pretending to be a man with all these things
that, and i hate being pregnant cause i end up having the baby aborted, which makes me want to be a man even more cause then i would never have to be pregnant ever again