Meesei had been absorbed in her despair to the extent that she had not noticed her pack approach. Even their voices were little more than noise in her mind. It was only once Sabine was right next to her that she actually realized she was not alone. She recoiled slightly away from Sabine's voice, leaning herself ever closer to the cliff's edge.
"Sabine? No...no you should not be here. You should leave; away from me. I am unworthy of you. Wholly and completely unworthy. I have been blind. I have failed in every single way that I could have failed. I tried so...terribly hard. I tried to make everything better for us, but I have just made everything so much worse. How much have I squandered? How much time is gone?" Even as she spoke, Meesei could not stop sobbing. She had no composure, and not everything she said made complete sense. It was difficult to say how much of her behavior came from remorse and conscious acknowledgment of her situation, and how much stemmed from her sleep deprivation. There was little question that this was the lowest point of Meesei's life to date. Her body and mind were broken, making her like a shell of the woman her pack had known. And all of it stemmed from the book Fendros was holding.
"Sabine? No...no you should not be here. You should leave; away from me. I am unworthy of you. Wholly and completely unworthy. I have been blind. I have failed in every single way that I could have failed. I tried so...terribly hard. I tried to make everything better for us, but I have just made everything so much worse. How much have I squandered? How much time is gone?" Even as she spoke, Meesei could not stop sobbing. She had no composure, and not everything she said made complete sense. It was difficult to say how much of her behavior came from remorse and conscious acknowledgment of her situation, and how much stemmed from her sleep deprivation. There was little question that this was the lowest point of Meesei's life to date. Her body and mind were broken, making her like a shell of the woman her pack had known. And all of it stemmed from the book Fendros was holding.