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Mary Sue Sullivan

Location: Cafeteria
Skills: N/A
Costume: Avenger's academy uniform



Mary Sue flinched at people rushing to her side, and every impulse in her headed was screaming for her to take some measure of control over herself. She was stuck with the idea that people seeing her like this, where she was broken, and a mess, and unable to curate every external emotion and response was the sort of thing that would ultimately make people not want to be around her, leaving her alone again. It was a terrifying thought, but even the deepest of fears could not dry tears. Her head was pounding, and her tears didn't stop, but she had regained a modicum of control over her mouth.

Drying what she could, she coughed, and tried to mumble out some kind of assurance that she was fine, but found words caught in her throat. The blood and horror of that was gruesome and painful and horrifying in its own right, but that idea of her; somebody who could be anybody, seem any way she wanted or needed to be; it was god awful. It was inhuman, and she knew she saw that monster in herself. That was not a trick of the nightmare, it was a capacity she was certain she had, and she didn't know what to do with that. Struggling to her feet, and looked at Andy and Zari, almost pathetically. "I'm... sorry." She didn't know if she was for her throwing a fit, or for a deep inauthenticity she was now acutely aware she possessed, but it was true. "I'll be okay, I promise." She said, specifically to Zari, though her eyes were still puffy, red, and wet.
Mary Sue Sullivan

Location: Cafeteria
Skills: N/A
Costume: Friendship



Mary Sue shrugged at Zari, if Zari wasn't serious about winning the competition, that was her prerogative, she supposed. Until their team could function as a unit, they'd always be worse than they could be. She didn't say it but she was relieved; she wanted to see how far she could go. A world where she, as a first year, helped stage an upset in the Contest, was one where she thought she might just be happy, at least for a little while. She needed to feel like it made sense for her to be here, and she still didn't, even with he knowledge of her power changing, even with everything she's done so far.

Entering the haunted house, Mary Sue steeled herself, but there was a pit in her stomach, flinching when she realized that she was very suddenly alone. She flinched from the shock, but quickly tried to take her her surroundings; a large cavern permeating the walls, stretching on for almost forever, holes of all sizes permeating the walls, but a clear path forward in front of her. She was twitchy from the sudden loss of Zari and Andy, but she tried to keep her mind sharp; this was safe... right?

Walking through, she felt as if she was being watched, as if every action she took was being calculated against. Her heartrate was rising quickly, and she nervously looked behind her shoulder to see nothing of not behind her, only to turn back and see a perfect copy of herself with a kind smile on her face. Jumping back, Mary Sue was ready to fight, but everything, the quick look of concern, the extending of hands, the open posture, told her that the person in front of her wasn't a threat. Lowering her guard, she choked out a "What the hell is going on?"

"Beats me!" The copy of herself responded, staying still for now, apparently not wanting to be the first to approach. "I started existing a few minutes ago..." A look of worry crossed her doppelganger's face "The house seemed to really mess up everyone else, maybe it's going to hurt me instead of you." She offered, and Mary Sue's face was filled with fear and remorse. Was that the idea? Torture her without every hurting her. She couldn't imagine something worse for a hero, but to helplessly watch as somebody is damaged in the most fundamental of ways.

"Well... let's make sure that doesn't happen." the young hero tried, closing the distance between the two of them, "We're heroes right? We save people." She rested a hand on her clone's shoulder, and forced a smile. "So I guess I just have to save m-" She started to say, but was interrupted by the shooting pain of a sword running through her gut. Almost more distracting than that though, was the almost melodic giggling of the copy in front of her, as the weapon phased out of existence. "You know, I think that's what I hate about us the most. Not that we're naive, because God knows we aren't, but that we think we're better than everyone else." She said, her voice dripping with a level of content that was previously absent.

As Mary Sue staggered back, she turned to run, needing to take some kind of space to reassess the situation but she was a wounded animal being cornered by a predator. No sooner did she turned away did she find herself chained to herself. "See, this is what I mean," her tone has taken to condescension, and she continued on as Mary Sue glared, and clutched her stomach. "Everybody who's walked out of here has been scared out of their mind, and you still think you're going to walk through unscathed. You're so scared of failure, not because you can't take it, but because you could never prepare for an outcome that you don't believe is possible."

While she was being monologued at, Mary Sue had thought herself clever, and had managed to conjure a tunic around her waist, pulling the wound tight, and stemming the bleeding that'd been leaving her weak and dizzy. Bearing her teeth, she lunged towards this awful version of herself, only to quickly find her arm being held behind her back, and her body pulled up close. Her eyes widened and she struggled helplessly, a knife suddenly pressed against her throat.

"Listen to me." The command was curt, short, and accentuated by the cold steel threatening to end her life. "You're going to die here, and that's okay. It's expected, it's probably what's right for us in the long run, but for as long as I exist, I want you to remember this." The blade pierced her skin, and Mary Sue could feel the rush of cold air hit her throat at an angle that it never ever should. "You are not special for being worse. You can work as hard as you want, fight as much as you can, but as you are, you are poison. Either give up, or accept what you are, but never try to act in spite of yourself" These were the last words Mary Sue hear as she fell to her knees. This couldn't be happening, this wasn't ever supposed to happen. But it was, and as she spiraled into unconsciousness, all her pain was gone, and she found herself lying on the floor, out of the house. She almost couldn't move, instead staying where she was in the fetal position, tear pouring soundlessly from her eyes.
Mary Sue Sullivan

Location: Cafeteria
Skills: N/A
Costume: Avenger's Academy Student.



Mary Sue kept her satisfaction that dysfunction had infected Zari's team to herself, she knew that eventually, it could come down to the two of them against on another, and as much as she wanted friends, it was tempting to make sure she'd have the advantage. Her head was caught on a few potential vectors of conversation actually, and she didn't quite know what to do. One one hand, people generally like being agreed with, and reinforcing Zari's instinct to self sabotage rather than try to talk things through would probably make them better friends, but it also felt like encouraging that was actively bad. The tension in this choice effectively made it so Mary Sue was stuck, unable to come up with a response that didn't seem in some way fundamentally incorrect. There was visible discomfort on her face, but she finally landed on expressing sympathy.

"I'm sorry you're going through that with your team." She said, which was true, Mary Sue wanted to win, but she wasn't sociopathic. Turning her attention to the topic of the haunted house, Mary Sue would by lying if she didn't admit she had some amount of fear at the topic of going in there, especially after watching people come out of it. Maybe the thought process was that, if they were supposed to be super heroes, then the things that scared them needed to be serious? She guessed that was true, but it was still a lot to take in. "Yeah, if you have horror movies scarier than whatever's in there, I'm pretty sure they're not allowed here." She said, trying to make light of the thing they were planning on walking into.
Mary Sue Sullivan

Location: Cafeteria
Skills: N/A
Costume: Avenger's Academy Student.



Mary Sue's entire body tensed as the results were unveiled, and when her teams name was called, she relaxed in a way that she hadn't for months. It's hard to say exactly what it was, but it was like the bulk of the stress she'd been carrying since she got here vanished. A grin spread across her face, and she punched the air, barely keeping herself from crying out loud in excitement. She was absolutely ecstatic, and though thoughts were creeping in on the best ways to prep for the Contest, tonight, she would allow herself to be happy and relish in this accomplishment.

Mary Sue could personally care less about the Savior of the School, but she was happy for them in spirit, she supposed. Instead, she focused on Andy, and said, "I really don't think I've ever seen any horror movies." Which was true, but she wasn't about to let it stop her, she continued, "Maybe you could show me some sometime?" She wasn't sure she'd have the best tolerance for anything too scary, but assuming her teammate wasn't out to traumatize her, she thought it might be fun, and it would give them a chance to spend time together doing something Andy liked.
Mary Sue Sullivan

Location: Cafeteria
Skills: N/A
Costume: Avenger's Academy Student.



Mary Sue beamed at Andy wanting to get to know her; her attempts to make friends was working! She quickly started to say, "Um, I really like writing, but I haven't been able to do it in a bit." To be honest, she'd started the hobby when she was small, writing stories about the different heroes she'd heard or read about, but those were luckily all lost to time, as far as she knew. These days, she was much more for poetry, but the idea of sharing any of that made her heart almost jump out of her chest. She should really get back into it, if she got the chance.

"Besides that, I'm a really big hero nerd, I have a list of biographies I still have to chew through when I have the free time. What about you two?" She wanted to know more about Andy, admittedly she knew almost nothing, but she seemed cool. She really liked being on a team with her, and out of all her team members, she probably knew her the best. She gave a quick turn to Zari, as if to try to signal that she wanted to hear from her as well; she didn't want her to feel left out at all, she just couldn't think of a more natural way to extend that to her in that moment.
Mary Sue Sullivan

Location: Cafeteria
Skills: N/A
Costume: Avenger's Academy Student.



Mary Sue's ears perked up at being raised an world away, that was something she hadn't heard about, and was very curious to learn more, "You mean Asgard? Or... something else?" She didn't know if that question was insensitive, but her dad was Raynor right? She'd never been off world, this was the furthest from home she'd ever been. She wanted to press for details, but she honestly didn't know how. She quickly responded to Andy in the mean time, "And uh, yeah. I was... homeschooled. I didn't get to see a lot of other kids growing up, friends of my parents or not." She didn't have a better way to put that her dad was way too paranoid to let her go all the way to visit old work friends with him, and didn't feel like trying to explain that mess.

Mary Sue's attention was quickly diverted, however, by the screams of Victoria. She hesitated a bit, she'd never done anything that left her terrified enough to scream before, would she be walking into some kind of living nightmare or something? But, she knew backing out now would make her seem weird, and she really really didn't want that, so she pushed down those feelings and turned her attention back towards Andy and Zari. Unsure of what to say, she just kind of stared awkwardly, not directly commenting on the screams of somebody coming from the thing they were watching towards.
Mary Sue Sullivan

Location: Cafeteria
Skills: N/A
Costume: Avenger's Academy Student.



Mary Sue waved at the new girl, and forced a small smile, before nodding "Oh? I don't think I got your last name..." She felt bad for not recognizing this person by her face, but she was also in a costume, so maybe that was it? She hadn't ever been in a haunted house before, but it sounded fun. "Yeah, I'd like that!" Saying yes to what people wanted to das typically, in her experience, the best way to get people to like her. Maybe it was wrong to think about social situations like this, but she did want friends, and so she was willing to engage in some light social mirroring to get that to happen.

It was then she blinked, her dad used to talk about how he got his powers and her eyes widened for a moment, before saying, "Oh, your mom is Sparky, isn't she?" That was what her dad always called her anyway. She was relatively certain her dad almost killed Zari's mom, but now was maybe not the best time to bring that up? "Sorry it took me a second, it's nice to meet you too!" She loosened up a little bit, having a bit more context for this social interaction now. The asymmetry in information scared her for a moment, but the panic from that was melting away now.
Mary Sue Sullivan

Location: Cafeteria
Skills: N/A
Costume: Avenger's Academy Student.



Those words pierced Mary Sue a little. For a moment, her face softened, and she nodded. She wasn't sure completely, but... maybe these softer parts were important. She wasn't some Spider-Man type, she knew she'd almost certainly always be working on a team. Maybe she could game this in her head as being about making sure she could be close to people so she worked better with them; maybe the best way to save people was to always remember that she wasa person. She wasn't sure, but smoothing had shifted. She felt a bit more comfortable with the idea that she didn't need to push so hard all the time.

With that, Mary Sue put her hands up at Ser Nemo and said, "He's fine! Don't worry." before turning her attention back to Darius and nodded, "I... think I see your point. Thank you." Before turning off and going to see who she could find to talk to. It wasn't long before she saw Andy, who looked to be going through it, and thought this might be a good opportunity to try to hang out with one of her teammates. "Hey." She said, feeling awkward but trying to push through it, approaching Andy, "This party sure is... a party. What's up?" She had literally no plan for how to do this, and she could feel her anxiety rising, but hoped it would subside.
Mary Sue Sullivan

Location: Cafeteria
Skills: N/A
Costume: Avenger's Academy Student.



Mary Sue's brow furrowed at the comment about her age. It was obviously something meant to get under her skin. Children of that age wouldn't be at this school in the first instance. Not that she had to point that out, she realized, given that she was just being made fun of. She did grit her teeth in frustration though; it was like he didn't get it. "We're... Here to save people, right? That's what we wanna learn to do." She was trying to phrase things carefully, because she had complicated feelings. She wanted to be a hero, and she wanted to do well, but for once, this was a thing she wasn't just doing for her. This was a thing she was doing for other people, and that just fueled her more.

"If we mess up, or we aren't strong enough, people will get hurt. I... Can't imagine sending myself out to try and stop that from happening, and not being the best version of myself. I'm not there yet, how can anything else come first?" She knew that sounded preachy, but that was how she felt. For all she wanted to be, she still didn't think that she was enough, and until she was, she had to keep pushing forward. She didn't know how people could see this situation differently, it just didn't fit in her brain.
Mary Sue Sullivan

Location: Cafeteria
Skills: N/A
Costume: Avenger's Academy Student.



Mary Sue was surprised by the fact that a Chaperone had decided to take an interest in her lack of a costume. Attention from adults quite frankly wasn't something she was used to getting, especially any that might be even vaguely negative. It was the natural consequence of her perfectionism and limited engagement, there just wasn't anything to remark on if she was doing her job correctly. She shrank back a bit looking away from him for a moment, clearly flustered at what had transpired. She gave a quiet, meek nod, and wasn't sure what to say in response, how bad was this?

She looked back at him and said, "Yeah, I just... didn't really have the time to put one together." She said, not being entirely dishonest. Could she have put together a costume if she put her mind to it? Yeah, of course, but what would the point of that have been? "More important things to focus on, you know?" It felt almost embarrassing to say that for some reason, something about it all hurt. She knew how to be a good student, it seemed, but personhood outside of that felt... unreachable. She had friends and connections, sure, but how did she get more than that? What was it everyone else understood that she didn't?
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