Blitskrieg said
Without making this thread depressing, confusing, or stupid, I'm just going to explain that I was never very good at social interaction my entire life, I never got it. And the past few years have made me into a pessimistic, numb, and bitter person with maybe a few good moments.I know I have explained this before, but I do want to get to know people better, not just in my town but also on here (where I have spent so much time). This is why I am always hoping the AceXToellnerXPrimez meetup thing happens because it would be ballin.Now I think I had three people here who I actually considered my friends;Dex, but you know what happened there.Bela, but we grew apart (I also started being a dick).Sole, but I ignored him allot because I'm a horrible person.Squee would always be nice to me but I never felt like I was being sincere to her even though I wish I was.Now, I have the obligatory list of people I wish I had the capacity to know well or a chance to become friends with.God that was fucking depressing.right, the list:-Borvo-Nargle (hated you at first for like no reason, but your gowing on me.-Dervish-Awson (I agree with like 90% of what you post here.)-idle-Turt-Bea (but mostly due to my man-crush on mike).-Mike-Foxes (if he is still around).-Rilla-Ace and Primez (should be a given at this point).-Jorick -Sora (you fucking hippie).-Mamoth (mostly just to piss him off by putting him on this list).-Jster.-Seravee (out oldtower talks were really nice).-Squee, Bela, and Sole are also givens.-SherlockThere are people I missed who will log in for the first time in weeks against all odds purely to bitch at me for not adding them to this list.There are also people I had nice PMs with who I would like to talk to again, but names evade me sometimes.A part of me also wishes this list was smaller (i.e.: more meaningful or some kind of bullshit), but whatever.Go fuck yourselves. I'm going to shoot a dog or something to stop feeling emotions.
At least I inspired some form of emotion! Hatred can be rewarding sometimes too!