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Rohaan scrubbed at his eyes and gave one final spit before he opened them and looked up at Hana, who had clearly given up the gentle coaxing strategy. If Berlin had been paying attention, he would have been proud of that. The lad often needed a little force to keep in line. The boy glowered up at her, and considering he was already somewhat soapy, he snatched up the bar and, grumbling, scrubbed. For all his dawdling in the bath, he made quick work of it--the sooner over, the better. When he'd rinsed, he shot out of the tub and proceeded to toss his clothes in for a scrub. When those had been sufficiently wrung dry and hung over the lip of an empty barrel to dry in the sun, Rohaan shamelessly streaked down to the crew quarters and found his spare pair of pants. They were a more fitted cut but were too big for him by a little bit, so he cinched them around his waist with an old piece of rope tied in a square knot that would have made Pieter proud. He didn't have a spare shirt, as the one that wasn't currently hanging to dry had previously been lit on fire.

Rohaan found Hana again and was about to ask her about this linament he'd so dutifully bathed for when he caught sight of Berlin. He'd spent a lot of time relying on visual cues rather than verbal ones, so he was fairly perceptive of those things for a ten year old. And he knew his captain. He didn't know what it was exactly, but something had happened.

--

Berlin turned sharply, suddenly alert. He assumed it was another vessel, and as magically gifted pirates they really had little to fear out on the high seas. The captain considered merchant ships to be opportunities and naval ships to be a nuisance at worst. So it was with an intrigued expression that he pulled out his spyglass from a pouch at his belt and squinted through it to peer at the faint dark shape Pieter had indicated. The little smirk he had melted away almost immediately. For a while he was silent, but whatever he was seeing was clearly not at all what he expected and not at all comforting.

Then in typical Berlin fashion, he calmly handed the spyglass over to Pieter and said, "Priest...mind telling me what I'm looking at?" He assumed that if it wasn't a vessel, then it had to be something of The Salt, and he guessed and hoped that Pieter would have some idea of what exactly he was looking at. "Is...that...something in your jurisdiction? Or is that something else entirely?"

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Uban plunked down hard in a seat with a tin mug of rum with a wedge of lime floating in it. As soon as he sat, he realized that it would be some time before he was willing to get up again; the high of his power was fading already and it left him feeling absolutely exhausted. For once, Uban was actually quiet as he drank, and by the time he got to the bottom of the cup he was beginning to nod and more than once the cup almost fell out of his hands. "Damn..." he muttered, suddenly as groggy as if Berlin had just commanded him to sleep with his influential touch. But even he could see the dark shape out in the distance. He couldn't make out exactly what it was, but he assumed it was a ship and groaned. He even entertained the idea of getting up, but instead just leaned back with a sigh and said dismissively, "Eh. Just don't let 'em kill me, mate, yeah?"
Delayed by my hands again. Don’t ever get tendinitis...
I'm loving it too! its been so fun!

no worries! I've got comic con this weekend anyway :)
The slam of the instrument case felt somehow expected and Ridahne didn't even look up. But the sudden crash of crockery against the wall made even her jump, and she turned to stare at her companion with wide eyes. That was the kind of thing she would have expected herself to do, not Darin. Not quiet, reserved Darin. She was no stranger to the raised voices and the intensity of the conversation either, just...not from her.

Admittedly, a lot of what she had to say surprised her a bit. She had always been told the tree prevented evil. Yet Ridahne had seen evil. She had seen a lot of it. And she had questioned the Tree in her youth many times. But somehow knowing it made it feel more...important. But her words did answer some of her questions about why she'd been given that vision, why she'd been sent on this insane journey. At least she knew, sort of.

"They have LAWS, Darin, laws that have to be upheld! What were they supposed to do, wash the blood off my hands and then sit me down in Khaltira-Sol's chair and put me in her place as thanks for MURDERING her? Let's not forget the two other people I slaughtered!" Her voice was raised but it lacked the fire of true rage. Darin had seen that before and this was not it. This was frustration, but not bitter, fiery rage. Ridahne's eyes locked onto hers unflinchingly. "I will make no apologies for it. I'd do it again. And again, and again, and AGAIN if that's what I had to do. But the fact of the matter is I murdered people." There was no guilt in her eyes, no pity. "I came in the night and slit their throats. They did not order my death to defend Khaltira-Sol. They ordered my death because that is what you do to a murderer. What else could they do? You forget also that they forgave my execution in order to send me here. They could have killed me anyway. But they didn't. I hold nothing against them for that. And if I can let that go, so can you."

Ridahne caught her breath. But she kept going. If they were going to talk, then by the Tree, she was going to. "I did not try to give you honor for the sake of honor. I tried to give it to you because you are earning it. You are not perfect and neither am I," she said with a bit of a laugh. She knew that all too well. "But like it or not, whether you're aiming for it or not, by the end of this you will have earned honor. Is honor given for the right reasons really so abhorrent to you? Darin, I see so much promise and hope in you, but black skies, you frustrate me sometimes! And I don't know what you WANT from me! I keep my mouth shut and you are upset with me for not being open. So I speak, and you don't like what you hear. And I'm sorry," she began, her voice a little raised but again lacking the heat of real anger. "I know I am not the easiest person to be with. 'Aggressive' is a kind word for what I am. I get it. And I'm sorry." And she meant it. Ridahne had a lot of thoughts and feelings, and none of them could be summarized so neatly into either 'good' or 'bad' feelings. She just had them, and right now they were all tumbling out at once in a disjointed mixture of respect, frustration, thoughtfulness and a desire for reconciliation.

Though Ridahne never rose from her seat, she seemed to sink a little further into it again. She put one elbow on the table and rested her forehead against the heel of her palm. She sighed deeply. "I don't even know what point I was trying to make. Typical Azurei--just start yelling until something makes sense." She shook her head, perhaps at her own folly and eventually said, 'I'm sorry. I'm sorry for making you uncomfortable. I'm sorry for being so damn difficult--I am. You can say it." A tiny smile pulled at the corner of her lips. "I'm sorry for snapping at you all the time. You don't deserve it. I hope I can be better. I hope we can be better, you and I. I have never wanted to be at odds with you. I still don't."

Ridahne meant it. From the depths of her soul, she meant every word. She just hoped Darin would see her earnestness. She really did want things to be better between them, though she was still figuring out how. Somewhere in her mind she was trying to remind herself of what Ravi told her of the two of them being more alike than either realized, and she held on to that quiet notion.
Ah, there it was.

Ridahne had been doing so well, the whole night had been going so well, and with one stupid word she ruined it. Figures. Why she wasn't just waiting for something like that to happen was beyond her--she should have known better. The first thing out of her mouth was a very quick but quiet, "But that's not what--" And then she clamped her mouth shut so hard and so tightly that Hadian would have been proud of her. You'll only make it worse. So she took a breath, sighed, and gave her second, more thoughtful answer.

"I won't do it again. But...think about this...Should not honor come from truth and justice and what is good and right? Not from an artificially given station? Don't let the corrupted actions of one Sol ruin the word. It is our language. Language is history. Language is culture." And then even more softly she added, "I did not mean to offend you. I thought to honor you but...I have never known when to keep my mouth shut." Then bowing, she said, "I will do better."

And that was all she had to say. She quieted and gracefully sat back down in her chair, reaching for a cup of wine. She was not angry, not bristling or bitter or furious. Instead she just looked a little deflated, like whatever emotion or energy that had fueled her up to this point had left her, and she was now just kind of tired and defeated. Maybe even a little sad. So Ridahne sipped her wine and quietly waited for the two of them to be 'released' from the celebration. Ridahne had done this many times before and she was good at it. Perfectly polite, she would sit and be the presence she was required to be, to speak when spoken to, and to wait patiently until the ritual was over. That was her duty. So that's what she did. Instead of paying attention to other conversations she merely inspected her cup, occasionally gave a cursory glance around the room, and thought of bed.
really wanted to post but tendinitis is bad and I just started acupuncture so I'm kinda sore. ill post when I can
Ooooh, have fun! I wish I could but I'm very far from the beach :( Enjoy mate!
Perhaps just disappointed that her efforts didn't go over well. Nothing too crazy.
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A long-accumulating playlist of stuff I use as inspiration for Ridahne. Enjoy!
Ridahne didn't know what to think or feel. She felt a tear or two spill down her cheeks but she wasn't necessarily upset, just...moved. Emotional. Which emotion, she couldn't say. All of them? She decided that whatever it was, it wasn't wholly bad. She decided on just overwhelmed. That seemed to encompass much of tonight, she thought. Somehow Darin coming over to speak with her made her feel even more 'on the spot', which just made her cheeks burn even hotter with embarrassment. She felt so exposed, so open and vulnerable. It scared her. And yet there was freedom in that, too. She didn't want to a make a scene though, and she realized with a quick glance around the room that she had anyway. Inwardly, she cursed herself for not just shaking the feeling off and rolling with it.

Her amber-gold eyes flicked up to Darin, reflecting something like panic and yet something like an apology too. She wanted to speak, to move, to say something or give some sign. But she just had to...just had to breathe for a moment. This day had been earth-shattering for her in one way or another, and her brain was still struggling to keep up and process it all.

Get a grip, Ridahne. You were trained better than this. Pull it together.

One breath. In. Out. Another. Each one slower and longer and more controlled than the last. And then her hand reached up to take Darin's and her grip was strong and purposeful. She stood, smoothed back the loose runaway locks of hair, set her shoulders square and stood tall, composed. It was the best she could do. Ridahne spoke in a low voice so that only Darin would hear, "I am with you, Darin-Sol." Her hand was still wrapped around Darin's; she squeezed it. "To whatever end."

Sol.

The honorific just sort of came out of her mouth without any thought or intention and though she didn't show it on her face, it surprised even her. But she had no intention of taking it back. When she thought about it, it fit. Roughly translated, the suffix meant 'one of high honor', but in Azurei only the Queen or her princesses merited that level of honor even though the word itself did not mean 'Queen'. Ridahne had not belonged to a Sol since her betrayal and had promised herself she would not swear to another ever again. But this felt right. Yes, it felt right. She hoped Darin wouldn't panic like she had when she had first called the girl Ri'atal. Perhaps she'd explain the translation of it later. Either way, it was something for her ears alone for now.

"I'm sorry," she said softly, though at a less private volume. "I'm...not used to...being so...open. You play nicely. Will you play more for me on the road?" She smiled despite herself. "Maybe I could sing for you? I grew up around sailors, and they do love their working songs and shanties..." Another smile. It was awkward and uncertain in its delivery but it was her way of apologizing for all that had gone awry between them thus far, and it was her way of asking, Are we good?. She got the feeling that neither of them would be the same when they left this farm. Now was as good a time for a fresh start as any.
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