Penny loosened her grip, in shock over what Christian just offered. She pulled away, but not completely- her hands still on his shoulders. "Take them away...?" She trailed off, her mind racing at the outcome of the offer. "But then, I'd forget everything. Reconciling with Luke, the vampires, almost dying," She paused looking into his eyes. "You," she whispered.
Sadness and regret gripped her heart when she thought about forgetting everything she's been through. Her feelings for Christian- whatever those were. If she said yes, she'd be free of the nightmares and the constant worry and paranoia. She'd be free of the heartbreak she knew she'd have to endure in the future if Christian decided to leave.
But she'd also be missing out on reconnecting with her brother and building her first genuine relationship with someone. Penny shook her head, her eyebrows furrowed. "It's a tempting offer, but I'd regret it if I accepted. Everything that's happened has made me a stronger person. I see the world differently now and you're the first genuine connection I've had for probably my entire life," Penny tightened her grip on his shoulders, reassuring herself that he was here. "I've had nightmares before. They're not real and go away after a period of time. I'll be okay."
Especially now that you're by my side, she thought. There was so much Penny wanted to say to Christian, but was too afraid to do so. If she clung to him too much or got too close, would he push her away? Would he think she was clingy and annoying? Penny didn't want to find out nor did she want to forget. No, she and Christian would stay as they were. Friends that taught and comforted one another.
Sadness and regret gripped her heart when she thought about forgetting everything she's been through. Her feelings for Christian- whatever those were. If she said yes, she'd be free of the nightmares and the constant worry and paranoia. She'd be free of the heartbreak she knew she'd have to endure in the future if Christian decided to leave.
But she'd also be missing out on reconnecting with her brother and building her first genuine relationship with someone. Penny shook her head, her eyebrows furrowed. "It's a tempting offer, but I'd regret it if I accepted. Everything that's happened has made me a stronger person. I see the world differently now and you're the first genuine connection I've had for probably my entire life," Penny tightened her grip on his shoulders, reassuring herself that he was here. "I've had nightmares before. They're not real and go away after a period of time. I'll be okay."
Especially now that you're by my side, she thought. There was so much Penny wanted to say to Christian, but was too afraid to do so. If she clung to him too much or got too close, would he push her away? Would he think she was clingy and annoying? Penny didn't want to find out nor did she want to forget. No, she and Christian would stay as they were. Friends that taught and comforted one another.