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Maybe focus on one at a time and put them up as a series of short stories as you complete each one?
"Yeah... I went from getting into Princeton to being a loser who dropped out of college all together."
Dude, you're keeping yourself safe. That doesn't make you a loser. And college will be waiting after all this is done, after you're safe from these bastards. So will the rest of your very, very bright future. Out of everything I wrote, you cannot focus on that one sentence. Read the rest, please, take it in. Breathe in the support you have here. You cannot twist every positive into a negative, otherwise you just defeat yourself. We're here, we're standing behind you, we're believing in you. And all of that is useless unless you can pull yourself together, and carry on fighting and staying strong. Carry on reporting everything that happens. Press charges. Stay alive. And hold onto hope for a better future, because it's coming. This isn't the rest of your life. This does not define you. Not unless you let it.
Dude, you're keeping yourself safe. That doesn't make you a loser. And college will be waiting after all this is done, after you're safe from these bastards. So will the rest of your very, very bright future. Out of everything I wrote, you cannot focus on that one sentence. Read the rest, please, take it in. Breathe in the support you have here. You cannot twist every positive into a negative, otherwise you just defeat yourself. We're here, we're standing behind you, we're believing in you. And all of that is useless unless you can pull yourself together, and carry on fighting and staying strong. Carry on reporting everything that happens. Press charges. Stay alive. And hold onto hope for a better future, because it's coming. This isn't the rest of your life. This does not define you. Not unless you let it.
"I know I shouldn't give them the satisfaction of taking my life. But it hurts to live. I'm going to be 110 percent honest with everyone here... I blame myself for the rape. I know I'm probably a bitch and that's why they hate me so much. I'm a bad person. They have every reason to do all of this. And I don't want to live being a bad person."
No offence, hon, but that's horseshit and deep down you know it. Think of every awful human being you've ever known - bitches, assholes, cruel people and callous people and selfish people. And then think about how many times you assaulted them or raped them.
Wait - you didn't do that?
That's because you're inherently a decent human being, who, by virtue of the fact that you didn't act that way, believes the awful people did not deserve it. And if the worst people you have ever known do not deserve it, then nobody deserves those things. Nobody, including you.
The fact that you didn't do this sort of thing to others automatically makes you a better person than those doing this to you. The fact that you didn't do this sort of thing to others shows that however flawed you may be, you don't deserve this, because you aren't so awful a person as to ever do these terrible things. I barely know you, maybe you aren't the best of people (though I doubt you're all that bad), but nobody deserves to be abused like that. The people doing this are the evil ones. That is fact. You are not a rapist. You are not harassing people across the country. You are not ruining their lives. They are doing those awful things to you. So they are the bad ones. Judge everyone in this situation, including yourself, by their actions relevant to the situation. Who's being attacked? You. You are the victim. So how are you the bad one, how do you deserve it?
Reverse this situation, mentally. Imagine you're the one counselling someone else, and they told you what you've just told us. Would you agree with them? Would you think that the abuse they'd been through was their fault? Do you blame the victims you see on the news or hear about in your town, or do you hate the rapists for doing it to them? What about other types of abuse, domestic abuse, physical assault - if I go and punch someone, is it my fault or theirs? You have the same rights and feelings as anyone else, so treat yourself the way you'd treat someone else in your position were the roles reversed. Treat yourself with some empathy. It is very common for rape victims to blame themselves, maybe in an attempt to rationalise, but try to address the facts of the matter: what have you done that makes you so bad as to deserve this, the cruellest of all treatments? Really? Compared to the sick fucks who are actually carrying this out, you're a goddamn angel. You're in the right, here, and they are so in the wrong. They are the ones to blame.
No offence, hon, but that's horseshit and deep down you know it. Think of every awful human being you've ever known - bitches, assholes, cruel people and callous people and selfish people. And then think about how many times you assaulted them or raped them.
Wait - you didn't do that?
That's because you're inherently a decent human being, who, by virtue of the fact that you didn't act that way, believes the awful people did not deserve it. And if the worst people you have ever known do not deserve it, then nobody deserves those things. Nobody, including you.
The fact that you didn't do this sort of thing to others automatically makes you a better person than those doing this to you. The fact that you didn't do this sort of thing to others shows that however flawed you may be, you don't deserve this, because you aren't so awful a person as to ever do these terrible things. I barely know you, maybe you aren't the best of people (though I doubt you're all that bad), but nobody deserves to be abused like that. The people doing this are the evil ones. That is fact. You are not a rapist. You are not harassing people across the country. You are not ruining their lives. They are doing those awful things to you. So they are the bad ones. Judge everyone in this situation, including yourself, by their actions relevant to the situation. Who's being attacked? You. You are the victim. So how are you the bad one, how do you deserve it?
Reverse this situation, mentally. Imagine you're the one counselling someone else, and they told you what you've just told us. Would you agree with them? Would you think that the abuse they'd been through was their fault? Do you blame the victims you see on the news or hear about in your town, or do you hate the rapists for doing it to them? What about other types of abuse, domestic abuse, physical assault - if I go and punch someone, is it my fault or theirs? You have the same rights and feelings as anyone else, so treat yourself the way you'd treat someone else in your position were the roles reversed. Treat yourself with some empathy. It is very common for rape victims to blame themselves, maybe in an attempt to rationalise, but try to address the facts of the matter: what have you done that makes you so bad as to deserve this, the cruellest of all treatments? Really? Compared to the sick fucks who are actually carrying this out, you're a goddamn angel. You're in the right, here, and they are so in the wrong. They are the ones to blame.
I'm trying to get even a modicum of motivation together to study after four months (almost to the day) of doing absolutely fuck all. How about you?
Holmishire said
Have you ever broached the subject of homosexuality and bisexuality with your friends? If you're worried about it, you could discuss the subject from a purely philosophical point of view before revealing yourself to be of that grouping.Of course, this depends on whether or not you're the type of people to randomly discuss political, philosophical, and ideological viewpoints as a means of everyday conversation. But I'm sure there are ways of edging the subject into focus, though it may take a bit of patience.
I think this is a good piece of advice. Gauging people's reactions to it would hopefully put you at ease and help you to make a decision about coming out. Some people say you should come out regardless of whether you'll be hated for it, but I'm not sure I agree. If you've still got years of high school left, being ostracised can be even lonelier than being secretive. Particularly if you don't really define yourself by your sexuality much, then just not discussing it can be not dissimilar from, as Wayne said, not discussing your love of Fallout or something, whereas being ostracised for it is horrible all around. Whereas, if you're closer to the end of high school, maybe you may as well just come out.
But, well, if the homophobic atmosphere was really strong then you'd likely already know about it. It'd be palpable, obvious to an extent. If that's not the case, then you'll probably not find total ostracisation greeting you. If any friends ditch you because of it, you've dodged a bullet 'cause they were shitty friends.
What's sure is that romantic issues can and should be kept private - if you really like this guy, and therefore (I'd hope) really trust him, then telling him in private may be a weight off of your chest (if it doesn't go anywhere) or even the beginning of a relationship (if it does), and if he is trustworthy would not go beyond the two of you. ^^
Hank said
How wonderfully naive.
She thought Rare was a girl, thus loving a guy would be just peachy in the eyes of even idiotic, homophobic fuckwads.
What would you want your character to be named in a serious story?
My most common alias is Amis Thysia, and my real name is Henry. "Halo" could work as a nickname or some such. Mix and match these as you like. Also, I'm male, in case anyone's forgotten again (seems to happen a lot.)
List any names for Starships you would want to use.
If not used as part of my character's name, Halo works well here.
If you were in charge of a ship or a fleet in a space battle, what strategies would you use?
To be honest, I'm not much of a grand-strategy guy. I doubt you'd make me an admiral or anything anyway, but I would see myself doing significantly better being given a task and working solely on that, focusing purely on doing that aspect exceptionally - something related to subterfuge or military intelligence. This is reflective of me as a person.
Given control of a larger fleet, however, I'd probably be most effective running a guerrilla warfare campaign behind enemy lines - cutting supply lines by intercepting supply convoys, which is particularly key in many space-battle settings as a "scorched earth" policy is very difficult to implement, and leading hit-and-run attacks with light, fast, stealthy ships. This would also place me in an excellent position to continue gathering information via the capture of ships and personnel - if I want to know troop numbers, military capacity, morale, whatever, who better to ever-so-politely ask than the enemy logisticians and quartermasters?
Forced into a head-on confrontation, well, the tactics used would be entirely dependent on my strength and theirs, and on other conditions (such as our respective distances from reinforcements, from our homefronts, and so on.) But I'll outline the way I'd think about it:
Do you have any ideas for names of planets? These could either be based off of spam culture, or from your own mind.
I'm terrible at this stuff, so I will give the same advice as in the Ships section: just translate stuff into Latin, brah. All your problems are solved.
My most common alias is Amis Thysia, and my real name is Henry. "Halo" could work as a nickname or some such. Mix and match these as you like. Also, I'm male, in case anyone's forgotten again (seems to happen a lot.)
List any names for Starships you would want to use.
If not used as part of my character's name, Halo works well here.
If you were in charge of a ship or a fleet in a space battle, what strategies would you use?
To be honest, I'm not much of a grand-strategy guy. I doubt you'd make me an admiral or anything anyway, but I would see myself doing significantly better being given a task and working solely on that, focusing purely on doing that aspect exceptionally - something related to subterfuge or military intelligence. This is reflective of me as a person.
Given control of a larger fleet, however, I'd probably be most effective running a guerrilla warfare campaign behind enemy lines - cutting supply lines by intercepting supply convoys, which is particularly key in many space-battle settings as a "scorched earth" policy is very difficult to implement, and leading hit-and-run attacks with light, fast, stealthy ships. This would also place me in an excellent position to continue gathering information via the capture of ships and personnel - if I want to know troop numbers, military capacity, morale, whatever, who better to ever-so-politely ask than the enemy logisticians and quartermasters?
Forced into a head-on confrontation, well, the tactics used would be entirely dependent on my strength and theirs, and on other conditions (such as our respective distances from reinforcements, from our homefronts, and so on.) But I'll outline the way I'd think about it:
Do you have any ideas for names of planets? These could either be based off of spam culture, or from your own mind.
I'm terrible at this stuff, so I will give the same advice as in the Ships section: just translate stuff into Latin, brah. All your problems are solved.
Kyuki, you have to continue reporting what's happening. If it has gone this far, it's unlikely to stop by itself. It's better to have the cops on your side, at least. If you don't report it at the time, there's no record of it and they literally cannot do anything. As hard as it is to open up to a complete stranger about everything that's happened to you, you need to report each new thing to them as soon as you can and thus keep an accurate, documented log of the awful shit that's been happening to you. And then, when the fucking bastards slip up, you'll have them, and all the evidence you could possibly have gathered. You can even carry a voice recorder on you, to capture any further incidents. In the meantime, you can get support from the places MDK mentioned. Again, I know it feels you're just going to antagonise these sick people by looking for help, but the exact same people you're going to have all the experience in the world in dealing with cases like this - and in the end, they're probably more powerful and influential than these cunts. They can support you and advise you; they will be on your side, and that's what you need. These people are trying to isolate you because you can't fight them alone. Don't let them.
Most importantly, please, do not end your life. There is an end to this. There's no knowing exactly when or on what terms that will be, but it will come. You're ridiculously smart, Kyuki, you could have gone to fucking Princeton when you were just seventeen. You will survive, you will heal, and you will live a good life, and you will contribute so much more to society and to the people around you, whoever is lucky enough to have you care for them, than these people ever will. Your future is bright enough to be worth tolerating this darkness. You're worth it; believe that, believe in yourself. Now I sound like a cheesy musical, but it's true.
And don't ever be afraid of talking to us. When we fight, it's about the stupidest shit and nobody really means it all that much. Anything serious, and we will all band together. You're one of us; we might not be able to do much practically, but we will always support our own if we can. I think I comfortably speak for almost everyone in saying that.
Most importantly, please, do not end your life. There is an end to this. There's no knowing exactly when or on what terms that will be, but it will come. You're ridiculously smart, Kyuki, you could have gone to fucking Princeton when you were just seventeen. You will survive, you will heal, and you will live a good life, and you will contribute so much more to society and to the people around you, whoever is lucky enough to have you care for them, than these people ever will. Your future is bright enough to be worth tolerating this darkness. You're worth it; believe that, believe in yourself. Now I sound like a cheesy musical, but it's true.
And don't ever be afraid of talking to us. When we fight, it's about the stupidest shit and nobody really means it all that much. Anything serious, and we will all band together. You're one of us; we might not be able to do much practically, but we will always support our own if we can. I think I comfortably speak for almost everyone in saying that.
Holy shit. ._. Congatulations, man. Excited?
Azarthes said
Actually you're -1 on my list
I wanted to make a joke about someone not being on a list and therefore being sqrt(-1), i.e. imaginary, but then I realised you're actually on my list so I can't make it.
God Aza you ruin everything >:c
rpg101 said
Well this was a disappointing use of ctrl+F . Except for Halo. Halo's cool.
I only made one list too, we can be loner-buddies.
rpg101 said
Shut up Halo. You don't even go here.
I just have a lot of feelings ;-;
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