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[The Final Pam] is both the metric by which the world will be judged, and the judge. And executioner
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who needs boys when you have girls??
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i must be a legendary pokรฉmon because i am Genderless
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โ˜… โ˜† โœฐ โœฎ F R A N K I E โœฎ โœฐ โ˜† โ˜…
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โ€œTheyโ€™re nonperishable, snake. They wonโ€™t be going bad anytime soon.โ€ Skav shook a particularly old can of clam chowder in Blueโ€™s face, expression one of schooled nothingness. Mentally, they were ringing church bells and dancing through meadows. They were seeing a future and holding onto it tightly, hoping, hoping to actually experience it and see it. A future with the Qrow, a future with a manic Blue, a future with the sky above them clear of smog and full of music and life and God. It was an intoxicating vision. Skav never imagined that they could ever have a life outside of this mask and this city ever since Arya ruined them, but now it all seemed to make sense. Running again-- why had the thought never crossed their mind? As Skav packed away more boxes and cans and bottles into plastic bags, they stole glances at Blue, committing the details of this man to memory once more.

It was hard to remember that they were younger than the boy when he was a solid five foot six and emotional.

Skav was, in age, still a child. They hadnโ€™t even hit twenty yet and here they were, downing alcohol almost every night and committing gang atrocities. Was there anything else teenagers did? Skav couldnโ€™t remember what a normal life was like, really. Most teens were not often packing up to get out of town because their sister was a sociopath bent on killing secrets. Some would be in college, pursuing higher education, and others would be finding an honest living elsewhere. Skav tried to imagine themself as a student, sitting in a class with books bought by their mother and father and learning about the human psyche with a few dozen other listeners. It wasnโ€™t realistic in the slightest, but it was still something to think about. Skav shoved the image in the back of their mind for later dissection as they grabbed hold of the remaining few plastic bags and moved them closer to the door.

They turned slowly, fully intent to start working on packing away the few belongings that were scattered across the room, and nodded as Blue went off to collect his own belonging from the bathroom. Skav really didnโ€™t have much to pack besides food and a few colorful sweaters-- when they first ran away they had nothing but the clothes on their back and their fatherโ€™s stolen (or, perhaps at that point, inherited), and now everything seemed to be the same.

Feet drifted aimlessly across hard floor, digging into the pile of clothes Skav left in front of the bathroom silently. There were only two that werenโ€™t bloodstained, and the rest had gone ratty and dull with age and experience. They folded the sweaters slowly, appreciating the heavy fabric they bore, and passed them to the side, thinking hard about what else they would really need. Their knife was--

Skav nearly clocked Blue when they felt the swish of wind and suddenly saw the flash of metal, but their feathers smoothed at the familiar glint of the multicolored butterfly knife. โ€Thank you.โ€ They mumbled, slipping the knife into their back pocket smoothly. Watching Blue walk off, Skav suddenly remembered the cash they had stashed beneath their mattress. As the boy left their apartment with a few bags, they wandered over and shoved the thick futon up, staring down at the three stacks of bills that had been pressed tight under pressure. There should be about three thousand dollars there, saved up from both honest work and gang mission

s. It wasnโ€™t much for the grand journey they were about to take, but Skav figured it wouldnโ€™t hurt. They gathered up the cash and moved back towards the pile of clothes to readjust their binder and sweater. The money was tucked between their chest and the tight material, and after taking a deep breath Skav decided, instead, to wrap the cash up within one of their two sweaters. Nothing else of value came to mind, and by the time Blue reappeared in the apartment they were all set with another couple plastic bags in hand and their mask (quickly and horribly washed) back on their head.

โ€I remember. Letโ€™s go.โ€ They gathered up the keys and trekked back down on to the street. The Qrow sat pretty and pristine as always, glittering in the San Marzano sun for the last time. Skav couldnโ€™t help but smirk at the car as they popped open the trunk and pushed the multiple bags into the empty space. โ€As soon as weโ€™re done at your place we are out, capiche? No coming backโ€ฆโ€ Again, a thrill spilled through their body, shaking them to the core, and it grew into a symphony of hope as Skav slipped into the driverโ€™s seat and the engine roared to life.

They were going to be out of this city, out of Aryaโ€™s hands, in only a matter of hours. Hope was loud and swelling, and Skav wanted to hold on to it as much as they could.
โ€œA month? Seriously?โ€ Noah deadpanned, flipping over the card without so much as inspecting the flowery text pressed on to it, โ€œThat's barely enough time to order anything for whatever we come up with. I don't think this'll fly, Director.โ€ He passed on the slip of paper to the next person and drifted soundlessly towards the stage, pulling himself up with both arms pressed down in the woods. All of this seemed to come straight from a fairytale. They wouldn't have enough time to create anything long or grand and the mysterious donor may not even be real in the end. Every cell in Noah's body screamed about how awful this idea was, how he shouldn't even bother to contribute in to but...

There was something oddly thrilling about trying. Lucas already seemed set on getting the group together to perform, and by the time Noah found a comfortable spot to lean against he could hear his roommate listing off possible plays they could start developing. A small group of titles splayed passed his vision, endless plays they could probably get together in less than a few weeks if they really worked their hardest. Noah stared down at the polished stage and, for a moment, saw the paint-stained double that belonged to his old high school. Theater wasn't in his blood but he forced it into his life anyway. Noah tried to imagine his life without the stage and the lights and the sounds of thespian life and he only fond a gray landscape, blossoming with the dark colors of bruises and alcohol and abandonment.

He thought of a life without Abracadabra! and suddenly felt a pull in his chest to fight on. A show in a month, it sounded impossible but...

But where was the harm in trying?

Noah drifted back towards the front of the stage and slapped a calloused hand down onto Lucas' shoulder. "Decide on a play and I'll get the light design squared away as quickly as possible." He spoke with the casualness of a robot, straightening his posture as he tilted his head back to inspect the catwalks. Depending on the play, he would have to venture up and start adjusting some of the older fixtures to accommodate the scenes. They had no time to order anything additional like they normally would, so the Director would have to be pleased with old gels and shaky spots.

Still, he had more than enough to work with in the theater, no matter how old everything might be. Noah silently wished for a newer tech set up but found himself rather thrilled with the idea of climbing back up into the catwalk and sitting there silently all day while the actors prodded around the stage. He thought briefly of joining them on stage for the rushed show they were about to set up and instantly felt his stomach swoop with more bad-idea-anxiety. Getting into character for him was a therapeutic but long, long process. It would be ill-advised to ask for a role on such a quick play. Besides, tech suited him better mentally, even if he did enjoy getting into the mindset of another person for a few hours a night.

Noah was drawn from his flood of thoughts by the familiar voice of Ziggy, and his line-drawn lips actually tipped upwards for a moment at the play suggestion. An Inspector Calls was an old, three-act piece. Long enough to set off some red alarms in the back of his mind, but just small enough set and tech wise to quell the panic. "That's 'drawing room theater' at it's finest. It's three-acts long though, but I think it can work if the actors work their asses off." He droned in agreement, "Any other suggestions?"


Skavโ€™s sleep was dreamless, thankfully. Perhaps God was offering them a break, giving them a sweet few hours of rest in exchange for the night of panic and fear He had put them through already. So the night passed on aimlessly, without even the slightest hint of an image slicing through Skavโ€™s mind, and then suddenly they were awake and staring blankly at the stained cushion of the back of the couch. They didnโ€™t dare move, too stunned by the fact that they were not in their own bed for a moment. The anxiety spurred along with the weight of an awful, awful hangover and Skav swallowed down a wish to vomit as their eyes drifted upwards and focused on the familiar, bare ceiling of their apartment. Something heavy settled on their chest and, slowly, they realized it was relief. Relief that they were home, relief that the sun was out. Relief that, somehow, they managed to keep the contents of their stomach down and hold onto their sanity long enough to school their exhausted expression into one of apathy.

And then there was a noise.

Shuffling. Fabric against plaster. Feet on cold hardwood floor. Skav held their breath and slowly tipped their face back towards the cushion, squeezing their eyes shut as a presence moved towards them. There was a long moment of complete silence-- no. Nothingness, not silence. Skav could hear the person breathing, hear them shifting, hear them thinking. The endless minute swelled within them as they struggled to figure out a plan of attack of escape. Skavโ€™s knife was not on their body, and there were no weapons hidden under the cushion before them. They remembered a vodka bottle from last night was nearby but had no clue how far it could have rolled away during the passing hours. The seconds of thought finally melted away to a feeling of pure confusion as the figure behind them whispered,

โ€œHey, wake up.โ€

Familiarity swarmed them like a wave, crashing upon Skavโ€™s frantic mind with enough force to knock the wind from their lungs. They shifted once, blinking away the haze of adrenaline, but they were once again plunged into uncertainty when that near-manic voice above them began speaking of leaving. Running away. Running away. Skav let out a soft, shallow breath and shifted once more, sitting up as slowly as humanly possible in order to avoid getting sick all over their friend.

There was something odd about the way Blue rambled. Skavโ€™s head tilted once, blinking slow as they processed his words again. Leaving San Marzanoโ€ฆ Could it be so easy? Skav hadnโ€™t really thought about it beforeโ€ฆ. Before--

Memories of last nightโ€™s meltdown flashed before their eyes. Aryaโ€™s name was scribbled on the back of their eyelids as they blinked rapidly and, after glancing down at their arms, reopened scars were sluggishly forming scabs in order to avoid infection. That's right.
Arya was in San Marzano, and she was looking for them. Skav AND Blue, now that he knew basically everything. If they stayed in one place for too long, if they stayed in the city for too long, they were bound to be found. They were basically already dead.

โ€œDear God.โ€ Skav mumbled, rubbing their arms slowly, feeling each bump and memory beneath their fingertips in order to stay grounded. Arya was near, their mind wanted to cry, but they had to stay focused. Skav had no wish to go through another crack in their facade, especially around someone who was suddenly offering a brilliant idea.

โ€œLeaveโ€ฆ Leaving San Marzano.โ€ Skav repeated, lifting a thumb to the bottom of their lip and pressing lightly. It was an oddly human gesture for them and led to a thoughtful expression that was often hidden behind a veil of feathers and red glass. โ€œThe Qrow is a good car if you didnโ€™t completely trash it last night-- it could carry us for a good few states. Weโ€™d have to go today, and stock up on shit here or on the road. Yes, yeahโ€ฆโ€

They stood suddenly, staring out at the glistening sunlight of the west coast. A future they hadnโ€™t noticed was laying out there in the world. Hope. The Lord was offering Skav a friend to finally watch their back and a way out, and they crossed themself silently before turning to stare down at Blue with their usual apathetic stare but it slowly split into a half-inspired smirk, โ€œYou are a genius, snake. An absolute genius.โ€

And then they were off towards the kitchen, stumbling across the floor on unsteady feet as their hangover fought against their every move. They paused for a moment next to the sink, groaning as bile filled their throat and then subsided with the loss of motion, and after the feeling to be sick passed Skav moved and began throwing open cabinets. Nonperishable foods sat in most of them-- cans of beans and soups that were so ignored that they appeared dusty in the slanting afternoon light. A whole three shelves of these cabinets were filled with boxes of various pasta and Skav muttered something about โ€œdonationsโ€ before they began placing the goods onto the counter.

โ€œI have some things here already-- food and a shit ton of old vodka and wine.โ€ They pulled a few dozen plastic bags from below the sink and began piling in boxes and cans and bottles, eyes zipping from counter to the rest of the room quickly, โ€œAnd besides that I donโ€™t have much to pack. If we--if we are actually doing this Blue, together, then what would we need to get from your place?โ€ They turned quick and met Blueโ€™s stare expectantly, looking a bit manic themself from the entire idea of getting the hell out of dodge.
Whoever invented caffeine deserved all of the awards of the highest caliber. At this point Lucas was running solely on the power boosts of coffee, splashes of cold water and sheer willpower. If he hadnโ€™t run out of energy drinks and caffeine pills a while ago, those would be on the list as well. The life of a college student was thankless and relentless โ€” exams and essays piling on top of each other with no visible end in sight. Add a heap of responsibility on top of that of checking in with his mother, working as a stage manager at a struggling theater company and juggling an extra part-time job on the side, Lucas was overworked and underpaid. It was alright, human beings donโ€™t need sleep.

The light of the sun brought in splashes of color to the drab apartment, flooding the dull gray hues of the kitchen with illumination far too bright for someone who got less than the recommended hours of sleep. Lucas squinted in the brightness as he swiped a towel through his wet hair, knowing that the effects of an ice cold shower to clear his head and refresh himself was only temporarily effective at keeping the inevitable headache at bay. Unceremoniously, he reached over to draw the curtains, shrouding the room in relative darkness. Lucas could hear his mother chastising him. Something about how soaking up vitamin D important; but the light wasnโ€™t helping Lucas, and it certainly wouldnโ€™t help his roommate.

Speaking of said roommateโ€ฆ At this point, it had become somewhat routine for him to wake Noah up in the mornings (unless Lucas joined Noah in drinking his problems to oblivion). He leaned against the doorframe and rapped his knuckles sharply against Noahโ€™s closed door. โ€œNoah, wake up. We have shit to do.โ€

Hangovers had a way of making even the most mundane and normal sound reverberate like a tortured cry within someoneโ€™s head. The knock on Noahโ€™s door was not just a brief noise, no, it lasted. It echoed as if formed from within a canyon, growing louder and louder with each repetitive clunk of bone and flesh on wood. Then, of course, words had to form. It was only human, right? Speaking, talking, communicating-- only people did that. Well, Noah didnโ€™t feel like much of a person right now. His head hurt too much to even try and force itself awake, and his body was heavy with sweat and full of sick. No, he was not a person.

Today he would be a void.

Endless darkness that continued to swallow itself as those damned words fought through his mind in order to relay his damned roommateโ€™s information. Noah groaned in response, tossing a pillow meekly at the door in an effort to silence Lucas. There was barely a thump as it connected with the floor, and Noah groaned again.

โ€œWhat shit? Shut the fuck up, Lucas.โ€ He slurred.

โ€œGod, are you still drunk?โ€ Lucasโ€™ tone wasnโ€™t as exasperated as it could be, having already become accustomed to this scenario. He thumped the door once more for good measure knowing exactly how it would affect Noah. โ€œItโ€™s Saturday, we have those oh-so-productive meetings today where we watch the slow death of Abracadabra! Cโ€™mon, get your ass out of bed and Iโ€™ll leave you alone.โ€

โ€œStop โ€˜m thumping.โ€ Noah nearly begged, reaching helplessly for the pillow he had thrown before, โ€œFuck. Give me a second, okay?โ€ His quiet voice repeated within his own skull, cold and emotionless as always. Noah held his blankets taunt over his head, counting to ten backwards and forwards until he was able to coherently see the numbers behind his eyes. Five minutes later, Noah was sitting up and forcing his eyes open, forcibly taking in the hideous gray light of morning.

Itโ€™s another five minutes before Noah cracks open the door to glare out at his roommate blankly, โ€œYouโ€™re on thin ice, Olson. Move.โ€ The bedroom door opened fully and he stood dwarfed by Lucas, though that was usually how things went with them. He tried to give the other man a weak shove but thought against it at the last possible moment, opting to just glare and wait for him to take a hint.

โ€œWhen am I not?โ€ Lucasโ€™ prickly personality ensured that when he ventured onto thin ice, he often tactlessly stomped around. With a nonchalant shrug, he obliged Noahโ€™s request and moved out of his way. Stooping down to to his backpack, Lucas swiped his half-empty water bottle from the side pocket and tossed it in Noahโ€™s general direction. It was a small peace offering, though it was callously offered and bluntly delivered.

โ€œYou look like shit, dude.โ€ Lucas commented offhandedly, flipping onto the couch. He knew that he probably didnโ€™t look any better himself, but at least a state of perpetual exhaustion was better than fighting off a bad hangover. Flinging his arm over his tired eyes and splaying his long legs off the end of the couch, Lucas settled in for a brief moment of relaxation until they had to leave.

โ€œWhat a surprise, I was about to tell you the same thing.โ€ Noah hummed, catching the tossed water bottle with only the slightest hint of a fumble. He took a quick swig, washing away some of the unpleasant taste that morning brought, and as he stumbled into the bathroom and set to his usual morning ritual the only thing left reminding him of waking ended up being his headache.

About twenty minutes later, Noah drifted silently out into the living room. The towel around his waist did little to catch the water droplets falling from his soaked hair and chin, though it did hold together what little modesty he had left to offer his prickly roommate. He dragged a steady gaze over the living room, looking for Lucas among the sparse furniture until he finally settled on the lump on their couch. A spark of irritation cut through his usual cloud of dreariness, but he let it simmer for a moment as he turned back to his room to change, slamming his door as a first attempt in waking his roommate up.

His second attempt came as a monotone grumble of, โ€œGet up, moron.โ€ once he had changed into something actually presentable.

With a groan Lucas heaved himself off the couch, his limbs and torso feeling disconnected and far too heavy. After what felt like herculean effort, Lucas got to his feet and stretched until several parts of his body cracked and popped sickeningly, yet satisfyingly. Though his mind was befuddled with sleep and aching with the lack thereof, a quick glance at the ticking clock told him that time was rapidly running out. As petulant and difficult as Lucas was, he was always on time and despised being late.

Stuffing a few last minute items haphazardly into his backpack and stepping into his shoes, Lucas moved with surprising speed for someone so tired. It was all routine โ€” wake up after taking any catnap he could afford, slap some alertness into his face (literally, slapping himself does work), and move onto the next location, the next task, and the next obligation. Patting at his pockets for his keys and turning up empty, Lucas flipped over some of the couch cushions and dug in between them to fish them out. He should really stop sleeping on the couch.

โ€œLetโ€™s go, Auguste. Our chariot awaits.โ€

Noah nodded, far from sated by his rushed morning, though his discomfort was impossible to notice through his thick mask of indifference. He took another few moments of their now-shared time to slip on his sneakers, and soon enough the roommates were out the door.

The car ride was as silent and dreary as the small town they lived in. Only a limited number of pedestrians crossed the streets, but somehow every single one of them appeared to have a deathwish and kept scurrying in front of the car. Lucasโ€™ irritation only mounted with each time he had to step on the brakes to prevent blood splattering over the windshield, and every stoplight that insisted on flashing red every time they approached.

Red. At least it was a splash of color to an otherwise lifeless gray town, and a dull colorless life. Was it really any wonder that their production company was failing when there was no one around to fill the theater?

Pulling into the parking lot with a flawless parking job, Lucas took a moment to sigh and press his forehead against the steering wheel. Sometimes, it took a lot of resolve for Lucas to power through these meetings. A realist to the very core, reassurances that they would somehow pull through made him want to slam his head against the wall. Optimism didnโ€™t suit Lucas, and having to sit through empty promises and false hope was sometimes more than he could bear. If it was up to him, Lucas would tell everyone that if they didnโ€™t all work their asses off they would be shut down by Tuesday.

That explained why Lucas wasnโ€™t in charge, probably.

The roommates walked in the theatre together as they usually did. It seemed that every single time Lucas walked through the worn space he noticed something falling apart that he didnโ€™t before. Today, it was the carpets peeling at the edges, curling and fraying upwards before they met the wall. The magic of a theatre production was that it could still somehow distract from the old creaky auditorium to the point where it didnโ€™t matter anymore. If done right, even the most run-down, shabby stage could be a success.

Was Abracadabra! able to pull that off? It was hard to tell sometimes, but Lucasโ€™ one optimistic thought for the day was that maybe they could.

โ€œLook at what the dog dragged in,โ€ Lucas muttered underneath his breath. It was meant to be a witty comment upon seeing Billyโ€™s dog. There was no bad intention behind it, but as with everything Lucas did, it was twinged with a sarcastic edge sharp enough to cut through the curtains. โ€œEveryoneโ€™s looking rather chipper today.โ€ Lucas said, raising his voice to actually be heard this time. Good mornings werenโ€™t Lucasโ€™ thing. A simple nod was enough for a greeting.

Noah, on the other hand, said nothing to the slow-forming group in the theater, and instead drifted right towards Billyโ€™s dog. He dropped silently down onto his knees and greeted the animal with a soft grunt, scratching expertly behind his ear in their usual greeting. He passed the canineโ€™s owner a single glance, squinting up at Billy through the glare of the house lights. His hangover was faltering ever so slightly, chased away by time, but his exhaustion was still clearly pressed onto his face.

He stood eventually and moved off towards the side, lowering his head to focus entirely on the scuffed toes of his fake-leather boots. He was so incredibly done with this meeting already despite just arriving, and after another few silent moments he began tapping his toe, counting each second with the uneven beat. Perhaps heโ€™ll tap his toe hard enough to destroy the entire theater one day, and perhaps heโ€™ll be lucky enough to get crushed by the rubble. Oh, what a lovely, depressing thought.



collaboration between @Sylph and nightmare eyes
oh this looks interesting. i might make a character! but, uhm, @HushedWhispers your character is interesting but the fact that u r using "OCD" as a personality trait is a bit uncomfortable and not exactly right. anyway! ill see if i can make up an character idea by the end of the day~
Ill try to get a post up either tonight or tomorrow when I am inevitably ignoring my Geo lecture LOL
Im gonna work on a character too probably >:3c
Interested~
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