TlalocOh wow, you told her?? :D Good for you!! Man, that must have been tough to psych yourself up to go through with it, I'm way impressed and really happy for you! So she already knew, just like you suspected x) That's awesome. Phew, so does it feel good to get that off your shoulders? Do you think it will change anything between you two?
Heh, the camp was actually religious x) A liberal, christian camp. I liked it, even though I'm not very religious now. That is, I believe in God but I don't go to church every sunday. Anywayyys lol, there was a lot of singing, and yes you could go canoeing AND kayaking xD We had bunk beds and arts and crafts, which I loved, and best of all were the "All Camp Games" where the entire camp would get together and play capture the flag, or color wars, or gold rush, etc. Those were the absolute highlights of the week for me. Best memories x)
Yeah! I remember you telling me about wanting to be a novelist! I say just keep writing and going for it. Even if it doesn't become your main job/source of income, you do it as a hobby and then get something published somewhere down the line. Doesn't that happen to a lot of authors? They have their day job, but they also write on the side and just keep trying publishers until something happens?
Unfortunately I didn't see it happen! *sigh* xD I knew about it right after it happened because someone in my class got a text from someone in that class, and she told everyone immediately x) Oh high school drama, sometimes I weirdly miss you.
Phew, I'm glad the queen has my back, I'll take all your suggestions :D I love Perks of Being a Wallflower, I think we talked about that one! The book is one of my absolute favorites. I've never seen Silver Linings Playbook but I've hears good things about it. I don't know why I haven't seen it yet, I mean, it has Jennifer Lawrence in it, who I'm totally in love with. Lego Movie, yes! Still haven't seen that yet. I'll have to check out To.Get.Her, I've never heard of it. Thanks dude, I'm glad we share similar good tastes in movies x)
Hah, phew, yeah I can't imagine dancing to that on a stage in a costume like that. Maybe after a few drinks...? Nope, still can't picture it xD But I'm sure the dance is awesome! The song is great.
Self harm? :( You don't do that anymore right? Sorry, I'm being nosy again and feeling more soap box urges x) Cuz I like you too much for you to casually mention something like that without me feeling uneasy about it. I've never talked to counselor before, I've just used my friends as therapists lol. I think it would be hard to really open up to a counselor. I'd just talk about surface things to her. Or if I did talk about deep stuff, I'd probably do something stupid like fall in love with her x)
When you mentioned your mom grabbing your hand and smiling at you, as if she expected you to come out right then, I had to laugh because that is SO something my mom would do haha xD It would become a 'big moment,' she's way too dramatic to let it be anything but x) Ahhh, I'll wait a little longer for that. But yeah, I really don't like the stigma against bisexuals, since if I had to pick a label, which I don't want to do, it would probably be bisexual. What I don't like about having a label is that it makes it seem like you are stuck in one category and I don't think sexuality is like that. It's fluid, it's on a continuum, it evolves over time. Even if someone is completely straight, their sexuality is different when they're a teenager, vs when they're a young adult, vs middle age and so on. That this natural fluidity could stretch to being attracted to someone of the same gender does not seem outrageous or abnormal to me.
Friendship threesome are great, aren't they?? I reference Harry Potter as evidence!! But there's real life evidence too x) It's never awkward with the three of us, and when I'm with someone again, hopefully it won't be awkward for him to be around the two of us either. I have been in an awkward third wheel situation before with a friend and her boyfriend when I was in high school though x) It was actually a double date, and a blind date for me, which I swear I will never, ever do again. So it was her and her boyfriend and me and this random dude that she knew and the two of them were all lovey dovey the whole night and the two of us were like kill me now. xD It was not funny then though, just painful. The thing is, both of us put in valiant effort lol. We tried really hard to get a good conversation going but there was just no spark.
Speaking of Harry Potter, I really want to go the Harry Potter land in Florida. I've been once, but they added a new section to the park :D
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Ahh yeahhh, get it gurl x) Nice job!
A camp counselor sounds like a great summer job! How old would the kids be? My brother and I used to go to a week long summer camp up in Michigan every summer with our friends who lived up there, from when I was in elementary school all the way through middle school. It was fun times x) I remember the week feeling like a reeeaalllyyy long time haha.
Yeah it's a really good feeling to have someone read your writing, enjoy it, and actually want more x) I've never had any aspirations to be an author or a journalist or anything, but I really do love writing as a hobby. And then to find someone who's willing to read what I write and send me a beautiful, well-written reply, just for me?? That's pretty amazing :D Writing helps my design process too. A lot of times, before I start a design/art project, I do a free writing exercise just to get all my initial thoughts down and start organizing them. I do that sometimes when I feel upset about something too, but I do that on scrap pieces of paper and not in a journal or anything since I can never reread what I wrote without cringing later haha.
Well phew, that's good that you don't feel unsafe or anything at school. I'm trying to think if we had any kind of incident like that at our school. I don't think anyone was ever caught with a weapon or anything, but I do remember that there was this huge fight and some girl got really angry and punched a window outside one of the classrooms and it shattered and freaked everyone out inside x)
Alright, I'll try the Grudge... *gulp* If I have to... x) And you don't have to think of a really scary one. You could just keep giving me nice, relatively easy going ones x)
Ok so one of my best friends, Simon, and I are pretty much the only ones in our group of design friends who are staying here in Raleigh for the summer. We've been hanging out a bunch already and I've been telling him oh I need to watch the Shining, and then Ringu, and now I need to watch the Grudge, lol (without telling him there's this Horror Queen who has somehow convinced me to scare myself to death) and so we've decided to have two movie nights a week this whole summer and watch as many good movies as we can. The idea is I show him two that he hasn't seen, then he shows me two I haven't seen. This week is Fatal Attraction and A Beautiful Mind. I'm trying to get more movie ideas, so far I have those last two, The King's Speech, The Patriot, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Amelie, Mary and Max, 12 Angry Men, and Life is Beautiful. I have a bunch of other all time favorite movies but he's seen them: Inception, Gladiator, The Others, Avatar, Slumdog Millionaire, Spirited Away, Forrest Gump, The Shawshank Redemption, Memento. What are like your top five movies?
I must have listened to that song you suggested, Fitzpleasure, a dozen times. I had never listened to Alt J and now I'm look up all the songs x) Heh, yeah I can imagine a solo to that song maybe being a little too much for your competition. Must be 18yrs or older x) I keep forgetting your age because you write so well and sound so mature.
It doesn't sound dumb at all to want to get that stuff off your chest. I bet your counselor would be really cool about it and maybe she could give you better advice than I could. But you can talk about it as much as you want, and I'll probably relate to it x) I mean, I can definitely relate to having debates with myself and to feeling like an asshole/pervert when I finally did become aware of how I felt and feeling guilty too. The hardest thing for me is that back and forth between being cool with it and slipping into partial denial, even now after I've admitted it to myself. Someone I admire, like one of my parents makes a somewhat derisive comment about gay rights in the US and I think, I can't be, I just can't, this won't work, I can't deal with this. They're not bad people, and they joke to get reactions out of their super PC kids (my brother groans at these jokes too, which makes me soooo happy. I've never told him, but I'm almost positive he knows). They would never disown me or anything crazy and they would be supportive. I don't ever go back to "I'm not attracted to girls." But I do go back to "I may be attracted, but only my friends can ever know, no one else."
So awfully amazing, yes. It seems cruel now, but when it was happening, I didn't want it to stop. I do think it's really good that we're separated by colleges now though. I don't think that was a positive influence on me :( No one like that at the moment though, yay! I'm totally obsessed with this bromance with Simon. He, his girlfriend (who's a total sweetheart) and I have become pretty close this year.
A camp counselor sounds like a great summer job! How old would the kids be? My brother and I used to go to a week long summer camp up in Michigan every summer with our friends who lived up there, from when I was in elementary school all the way through middle school. It was fun times x) I remember the week feeling like a reeeaalllyyy long time haha.
Yeah it's a really good feeling to have someone read your writing, enjoy it, and actually want more x) I've never had any aspirations to be an author or a journalist or anything, but I really do love writing as a hobby. And then to find someone who's willing to read what I write and send me a beautiful, well-written reply, just for me?? That's pretty amazing :D Writing helps my design process too. A lot of times, before I start a design/art project, I do a free writing exercise just to get all my initial thoughts down and start organizing them. I do that sometimes when I feel upset about something too, but I do that on scrap pieces of paper and not in a journal or anything since I can never reread what I wrote without cringing later haha.
Well phew, that's good that you don't feel unsafe or anything at school. I'm trying to think if we had any kind of incident like that at our school. I don't think anyone was ever caught with a weapon or anything, but I do remember that there was this huge fight and some girl got really angry and punched a window outside one of the classrooms and it shattered and freaked everyone out inside x)
Alright, I'll try the Grudge... *gulp* If I have to... x) And you don't have to think of a really scary one. You could just keep giving me nice, relatively easy going ones x)
Ok so one of my best friends, Simon, and I are pretty much the only ones in our group of design friends who are staying here in Raleigh for the summer. We've been hanging out a bunch already and I've been telling him oh I need to watch the Shining, and then Ringu, and now I need to watch the Grudge, lol (without telling him there's this Horror Queen who has somehow convinced me to scare myself to death) and so we've decided to have two movie nights a week this whole summer and watch as many good movies as we can. The idea is I show him two that he hasn't seen, then he shows me two I haven't seen. This week is Fatal Attraction and A Beautiful Mind. I'm trying to get more movie ideas, so far I have those last two, The King's Speech, The Patriot, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Amelie, Mary and Max, 12 Angry Men, and Life is Beautiful. I have a bunch of other all time favorite movies but he's seen them: Inception, Gladiator, The Others, Avatar, Slumdog Millionaire, Spirited Away, Forrest Gump, The Shawshank Redemption, Memento. What are like your top five movies?
I must have listened to that song you suggested, Fitzpleasure, a dozen times. I had never listened to Alt J and now I'm look up all the songs x) Heh, yeah I can imagine a solo to that song maybe being a little too much for your competition. Must be 18yrs or older x) I keep forgetting your age because you write so well and sound so mature.
It doesn't sound dumb at all to want to get that stuff off your chest. I bet your counselor would be really cool about it and maybe she could give you better advice than I could. But you can talk about it as much as you want, and I'll probably relate to it x) I mean, I can definitely relate to having debates with myself and to feeling like an asshole/pervert when I finally did become aware of how I felt and feeling guilty too. The hardest thing for me is that back and forth between being cool with it and slipping into partial denial, even now after I've admitted it to myself. Someone I admire, like one of my parents makes a somewhat derisive comment about gay rights in the US and I think, I can't be, I just can't, this won't work, I can't deal with this. They're not bad people, and they joke to get reactions out of their super PC kids (my brother groans at these jokes too, which makes me soooo happy. I've never told him, but I'm almost positive he knows). They would never disown me or anything crazy and they would be supportive. I don't ever go back to "I'm not attracted to girls." But I do go back to "I may be attracted, but only my friends can ever know, no one else."
So awfully amazing, yes. It seems cruel now, but when it was happening, I didn't want it to stop. I do think it's really good that we're separated by colleges now though. I don't think that was a positive influence on me :( No one like that at the moment though, yay! I'm totally obsessed with this bromance with Simon. He, his girlfriend (who's a total sweetheart) and I have become pretty close this year.
‘There has to be a way out of this...’
Mila’s eyes flickered back and forth between Booker and Lisette, her hands partially raised, her muscles tense, her teeth sharp and glistening. The initial anguish in her expression was replaced now with cold calculation as she thought of every possible move, trying to figure out how she was going to get Charlie some place safe. Meanwhile, the two lecherous villains in front of her were slowly inching their way closer and closer by the second. She noticed that Booker hung back a little, gleefully surveying the entire situation with that revolting grin of his. Both of them looked like they’d hit the jackpot at some perverse game. The eagerness in their eyes made Mila’s stomach turn.
She could sense that Char had pressed herself up against the brick wall, trying to put as much distance as possible between herself and the two vampires. Three vampires. Don’t touch me! Mila had winced at the girl’s words and the scowl she had given her, despite knowing they were both well deserved. She hadn’t been stupid enough to think Charlie would be at all pleased to see her would-be-killer again, and yet, the way she’d flinched at her touch, the way she instinctively shrunk away still cut at the vampire, even if it was to be expected. Some small part of Mila secretly rejoiced to see Char again, even now, even as she wished the girl was some place far away from this horrific mess. Mila had spent the last few days coping with the thought of never seeing her again, as well as more profound misgivings about her unearthly existence. She wished with all her being that she hadn’t brought more wretchedness into Char’s life, but she still couldn’t help the flutter in her chest at seeing her again…
“Nobody has claimed me,” she heard Charlie say in disgust.
’…Good thing I know just how to break the ice again, Mila thought bitterly to herself, inwardly groaning at her own words. Worse still, they hadn’t seemed to have any effect on Booker or Lisette, who still leered at her no matter how she tried to appeal to their sick sense of propriety. Lisette seemed to be too wrapped up in staring at Charlie to even pay attention. Mila felt a sudden stab of revulsion as she watched the other vampire lock eyes with Char. She hated the way Lisette was looking at Charlie. She hated it with an intensity that almost startled herself.
“Lisette,” she snarled, wanting her attention just to break the eye contact.
“Mila, you should have just told us, there really is no need for all of this... unpleasantness.”
Mila blinked at her falsely reassuring tone, immediately on guard.
“We would have understood, you've never really taken to our way of life like you should. We could help you.”
“Help me,” she repeated contemptuously, resisting the urge to roll her eyes. “Right.”
“And you can even keep that one for awhile, it really would be a shame to loose something so beautiful so quickly.”
Mila clenched her jaw as the other vampire inhaled deeply, and matched her steady gaze with an unflinching glare.
“She smells delectable, no wonder you're so smitten.”
“Don’t do that,” Mila snapped, as Lisette winked at Charlie, feeling a sudden flare of irritation. She narrowed her eyes at her. “And I’m not-.. that’s not why I-.. She isn’t a meal to me,” she added, becoming slightly flustered as she stumbled to find the right words. She felt another flash of aggression as Lisette stepped forward again, seemingly unperturbed by the older vampire’s warning growl. She was too close now, and Mila had turned to face her directly, ready to tear her apart if she made just one wrong move. She was so focused on the other woman, that she didn’t realize she’d left too big of a gap on one side as she’d turned. Not until it was too late. Booker, who had been pretending to stand idly in the background, took advantage of the opening immediately. He snatched Charlie by her arm and pulled her into a tight embrace so that her back was pressed uncomfortably close to his chest.
“Look what I got~!” he sang maliciously, swaying a little as he adjusted his grip on the girl. “Ah, ah, Mila. Take care,” he added suddenly, staggering backward with his prize as Mila leapt at him. He nuzzled the side of his face against Charlie’s cheek and opened his mouth with a smile, revealing two sharp teeth that were ready to pierce her skin at any moment. “Relaaax, I’m not going to take her if she belongs to you. I’m not an animal,” he said, laughing at his own joke. His voice dropped to a low, husky murmur and his lips brushed across Charlie’s ear and into her hair. “I just…” he inhaled rapturously, “…want to play with her a little, that’s all.”
He had one arm around her shoulders and the other around her middle, pinning her arms to her sides. One of his large hands found the soft spot above her hip and he gave her playful squeeze, just as his teeth scraped the shell of her ear.
“Booker,” Mila wheezed desperately, staggering forward.
“Did I hear you say you’re not a pet?” he whispered to Charlie, smirking against her skin, and stepping backward with her again out of Mila’s reach. “Not like any pet I’ve had, anyway. You haven’t fallen in love with the bite yet, have you? No, not yet. Otherwise you’d be begging for it right now.” He touched his teeth to her skin again.
“Booker, I’m begging you, please don’t-..!”
“Ugh, will you stop,” he interrupted with an exasperated sigh. “It’s unseemly to see you beg.” He released Charlie, giving her a slight shove in Mila’s direction.
“Like Lisette said, you can keep her, I don’t care. She won’t last long. She’s so small, isn’t she.” He grinned wickedly and shared a look with Lisette. “We still haven’t finished hunting yet, and I have at least one more round in me. How about we take her along with us?” Booker was staring at Charlie with a lazy, sinister smile. “It’s her turn, you know.” He gestured to Mila. “She might not be ‘in the mood’ as she puts it, but she’s hungry, you can tell. Maybe we’ll find one for her,” he said with feigned generosity.
Mila’s eyes flickered back and forth between Booker and Lisette, her hands partially raised, her muscles tense, her teeth sharp and glistening. The initial anguish in her expression was replaced now with cold calculation as she thought of every possible move, trying to figure out how she was going to get Charlie some place safe. Meanwhile, the two lecherous villains in front of her were slowly inching their way closer and closer by the second. She noticed that Booker hung back a little, gleefully surveying the entire situation with that revolting grin of his. Both of them looked like they’d hit the jackpot at some perverse game. The eagerness in their eyes made Mila’s stomach turn.
She could sense that Char had pressed herself up against the brick wall, trying to put as much distance as possible between herself and the two vampires. Three vampires. Don’t touch me! Mila had winced at the girl’s words and the scowl she had given her, despite knowing they were both well deserved. She hadn’t been stupid enough to think Charlie would be at all pleased to see her would-be-killer again, and yet, the way she’d flinched at her touch, the way she instinctively shrunk away still cut at the vampire, even if it was to be expected. Some small part of Mila secretly rejoiced to see Char again, even now, even as she wished the girl was some place far away from this horrific mess. Mila had spent the last few days coping with the thought of never seeing her again, as well as more profound misgivings about her unearthly existence. She wished with all her being that she hadn’t brought more wretchedness into Char’s life, but she still couldn’t help the flutter in her chest at seeing her again…
“Nobody has claimed me,” she heard Charlie say in disgust.
’…Good thing I know just how to break the ice again, Mila thought bitterly to herself, inwardly groaning at her own words. Worse still, they hadn’t seemed to have any effect on Booker or Lisette, who still leered at her no matter how she tried to appeal to their sick sense of propriety. Lisette seemed to be too wrapped up in staring at Charlie to even pay attention. Mila felt a sudden stab of revulsion as she watched the other vampire lock eyes with Char. She hated the way Lisette was looking at Charlie. She hated it with an intensity that almost startled herself.
“Lisette,” she snarled, wanting her attention just to break the eye contact.
“Mila, you should have just told us, there really is no need for all of this... unpleasantness.”
Mila blinked at her falsely reassuring tone, immediately on guard.
“We would have understood, you've never really taken to our way of life like you should. We could help you.”
“Help me,” she repeated contemptuously, resisting the urge to roll her eyes. “Right.”
“And you can even keep that one for awhile, it really would be a shame to loose something so beautiful so quickly.”
Mila clenched her jaw as the other vampire inhaled deeply, and matched her steady gaze with an unflinching glare.
“She smells delectable, no wonder you're so smitten.”
“Don’t do that,” Mila snapped, as Lisette winked at Charlie, feeling a sudden flare of irritation. She narrowed her eyes at her. “And I’m not-.. that’s not why I-.. She isn’t a meal to me,” she added, becoming slightly flustered as she stumbled to find the right words. She felt another flash of aggression as Lisette stepped forward again, seemingly unperturbed by the older vampire’s warning growl. She was too close now, and Mila had turned to face her directly, ready to tear her apart if she made just one wrong move. She was so focused on the other woman, that she didn’t realize she’d left too big of a gap on one side as she’d turned. Not until it was too late. Booker, who had been pretending to stand idly in the background, took advantage of the opening immediately. He snatched Charlie by her arm and pulled her into a tight embrace so that her back was pressed uncomfortably close to his chest.
“Look what I got~!” he sang maliciously, swaying a little as he adjusted his grip on the girl. “Ah, ah, Mila. Take care,” he added suddenly, staggering backward with his prize as Mila leapt at him. He nuzzled the side of his face against Charlie’s cheek and opened his mouth with a smile, revealing two sharp teeth that were ready to pierce her skin at any moment. “Relaaax, I’m not going to take her if she belongs to you. I’m not an animal,” he said, laughing at his own joke. His voice dropped to a low, husky murmur and his lips brushed across Charlie’s ear and into her hair. “I just…” he inhaled rapturously, “…want to play with her a little, that’s all.”
He had one arm around her shoulders and the other around her middle, pinning her arms to her sides. One of his large hands found the soft spot above her hip and he gave her playful squeeze, just as his teeth scraped the shell of her ear.
“Booker,” Mila wheezed desperately, staggering forward.
“Did I hear you say you’re not a pet?” he whispered to Charlie, smirking against her skin, and stepping backward with her again out of Mila’s reach. “Not like any pet I’ve had, anyway. You haven’t fallen in love with the bite yet, have you? No, not yet. Otherwise you’d be begging for it right now.” He touched his teeth to her skin again.
“Booker, I’m begging you, please don’t-..!”
“Ugh, will you stop,” he interrupted with an exasperated sigh. “It’s unseemly to see you beg.” He released Charlie, giving her a slight shove in Mila’s direction.
“Like Lisette said, you can keep her, I don’t care. She won’t last long. She’s so small, isn’t she.” He grinned wickedly and shared a look with Lisette. “We still haven’t finished hunting yet, and I have at least one more round in me. How about we take her along with us?” Booker was staring at Charlie with a lazy, sinister smile. “It’s her turn, you know.” He gestured to Mila. “She might not be ‘in the mood’ as she puts it, but she’s hungry, you can tell. Maybe we’ll find one for her,” he said with feigned generosity.
Really loved your last post by the way. I feel like I say it every time x)
How'd your test go? And hey, you can be an afford to be a little cocky every once in while ;D Anatomy though, phew. I have a friend in a college Anatomy class and she's says it's not too bad, but there's sooooo much to memorize that it's pretty overwhelming.
He just reviewed a select few, because there was no way he would have time to sit down to everyone's. So I 'm really glad he decided to ask me if I wanted a review. As if I'd be like "no" anyways hahaha xD The other reviewers also had positive feedback for me! One of them was my TA and the other was a guest designer, an architect from Raleigh. He was pretty cool and we also had a long conversation. Unfortunately I didn't talk to any hiring graphic designers lol x)
Oh I hear ya, writing is a great stress relief for me. Cuz like, it's a creative outlet but there isn't a lot of judgement and there aren't hard and fast deadlines to turn it in. But at the same time, you do have someone waiting for you to reply and you do want to hopefully impress them, so there's that push to write something compelling. Our rp has been great for me, just saying! I feel like it was my muse for my last few final projects x) Oh btw! I do want to show you my video if you're not sick of me asking for praise yet xD I still need to figure out the most convenient way to show it to you.
LOL I say tomato "like a normal person," that made me laugh xD But oh I see, it's interchangeable like the "u's." Oh my god, someone brought a KNIFE to your school?? D: D: D: Jeeeez! Emmy, don't get stabbed or anything D: Did he get expelled? My school had it's fair share of southern redneck fundamentalist crazies. There was a pretty big difference between middle/upper middle class kids and very low income family kids. Socioeconomic status certainly didn't determine how they behaved, since there were some pretty shitty rich kids, but there did tend to be a divide and some anonymity between the two halves.
Ah man, I still haven't watched the Game of Thrones episodes yet x) I need to do that tomorrow night. I've been trying to hang out with everyone before we all go our separate ways for the summer. But I did watch Ringu!! xD We didn't end up watching any movies at our end of the year hang out (which was awesome), but I did watch it with one of my friends and not alone. It was super creepy x) But I liked the story! And I was actually feeling super nostalgic for Japan haha! I actually thought it was less scary than The Shining! So now I'm feeling pretty brave and can probably handle whatever's next, oh Queen of Horror x) Just try me.
Wow, how do you find such perfect songs?? I Know I'm a Wolf by Young Heretics is so perfect for Mila, I can't believe it. I'm glad you liked the Digital Daggers songs, you angsty teenager. They are pretty catchy x) And yeah, they do inspire me into some kind of writing mood too lol. Oh yeah, that one song, You Leave Me Cold by Jill Tracy.. just woah x) Really lurid is right. Her voice is amazing.
I'm doing this out of order lol,
I don't mind you ranting at all, anytime!! We can both rant, it feels good. I had almost the exact same experience where I went for the longest time, secretly knowing I had this attraction to girls and somehow keeping that completely separate from everything else. It was there, but I wouldn't let myself acknowledge it. I actually knew something was "off" when I was in middle school and I was head over heels for one of my friends. But I didn't even really know what gay and straight were, not really. I think middle schoolers now probably have a better idea than even a few years ago. Anyway, it wasn't until I was at the end of my freshman year in high school when I started letting myself think, ok I like this girl (different girl now lol) but I've also liked these boys, so these few girls that I've liked - they must just be flukes...x) So basically I acknowledged that I liked a couple girls, but I was still adamant about thinking of myself as completely straight. And the rationalizations kept getting weaker and weaker until I finally had to just had to admit that I would probably always be attracted to girls, forever, can't change it, do I want to change it? Yes...No...I don't know. Oh man, what a rough time. It's still a source of doubt sometimes. But the doubt comes from people who would treat me differently for it. I'm lucky being in design classes where everyone is really open-minded. I also fit in with the not so girly girls who play soccer x) I can "pass" though, no one would look at me and say oh, she's not straight. That makes some things easier and some more difficult. I'm not an expert at this. I'm still working on being more open about it. When I've actually been with someone, it's been so much easier.
That's rough about your religious friend :/ Maybe she'd be more cool about it than you think? Or no? And your best friend, the sort of crush, she's had girlfriends in the past? And you think she sort of knows about how you feel? Something like that happened to me, only the friend I had a crush on is completely straight. I swear I was so careful to keep it hidden because I knew she was just not interested in me like that, even though we were pretty close. She had a very teasing personality, more so than mine even. I knew she knew how I felt because she would do things to tease me that were terrible but sort of wonderful too, and it was really confusing x/ She's at a different college now.
EDIT: The length of our OCC posts have been increasing more and more haha x)
How'd your test go? And hey, you can be an afford to be a little cocky every once in while ;D Anatomy though, phew. I have a friend in a college Anatomy class and she's says it's not too bad, but there's sooooo much to memorize that it's pretty overwhelming.
He just reviewed a select few, because there was no way he would have time to sit down to everyone's. So I 'm really glad he decided to ask me if I wanted a review. As if I'd be like "no" anyways hahaha xD The other reviewers also had positive feedback for me! One of them was my TA and the other was a guest designer, an architect from Raleigh. He was pretty cool and we also had a long conversation. Unfortunately I didn't talk to any hiring graphic designers lol x)
Oh I hear ya, writing is a great stress relief for me. Cuz like, it's a creative outlet but there isn't a lot of judgement and there aren't hard and fast deadlines to turn it in. But at the same time, you do have someone waiting for you to reply and you do want to hopefully impress them, so there's that push to write something compelling. Our rp has been great for me, just saying! I feel like it was my muse for my last few final projects x) Oh btw! I do want to show you my video if you're not sick of me asking for praise yet xD I still need to figure out the most convenient way to show it to you.
LOL I say tomato "like a normal person," that made me laugh xD But oh I see, it's interchangeable like the "u's." Oh my god, someone brought a KNIFE to your school?? D: D: D: Jeeeez! Emmy, don't get stabbed or anything D: Did he get expelled? My school had it's fair share of southern redneck fundamentalist crazies. There was a pretty big difference between middle/upper middle class kids and very low income family kids. Socioeconomic status certainly didn't determine how they behaved, since there were some pretty shitty rich kids, but there did tend to be a divide and some anonymity between the two halves.
Ah man, I still haven't watched the Game of Thrones episodes yet x) I need to do that tomorrow night. I've been trying to hang out with everyone before we all go our separate ways for the summer. But I did watch Ringu!! xD We didn't end up watching any movies at our end of the year hang out (which was awesome), but I did watch it with one of my friends and not alone. It was super creepy x) But I liked the story! And I was actually feeling super nostalgic for Japan haha! I actually thought it was less scary than The Shining! So now I'm feeling pretty brave and can probably handle whatever's next, oh Queen of Horror x) Just try me.
Wow, how do you find such perfect songs?? I Know I'm a Wolf by Young Heretics is so perfect for Mila, I can't believe it. I'm glad you liked the Digital Daggers songs, you angsty teenager. They are pretty catchy x) And yeah, they do inspire me into some kind of writing mood too lol. Oh yeah, that one song, You Leave Me Cold by Jill Tracy.. just woah x) Really lurid is right. Her voice is amazing.
I'm doing this out of order lol,
I don't mind you ranting at all, anytime!! We can both rant, it feels good. I had almost the exact same experience where I went for the longest time, secretly knowing I had this attraction to girls and somehow keeping that completely separate from everything else. It was there, but I wouldn't let myself acknowledge it. I actually knew something was "off" when I was in middle school and I was head over heels for one of my friends. But I didn't even really know what gay and straight were, not really. I think middle schoolers now probably have a better idea than even a few years ago. Anyway, it wasn't until I was at the end of my freshman year in high school when I started letting myself think, ok I like this girl (different girl now lol) but I've also liked these boys, so these few girls that I've liked - they must just be flukes...x) So basically I acknowledged that I liked a couple girls, but I was still adamant about thinking of myself as completely straight. And the rationalizations kept getting weaker and weaker until I finally had to just had to admit that I would probably always be attracted to girls, forever, can't change it, do I want to change it? Yes...No...I don't know. Oh man, what a rough time. It's still a source of doubt sometimes. But the doubt comes from people who would treat me differently for it. I'm lucky being in design classes where everyone is really open-minded. I also fit in with the not so girly girls who play soccer x) I can "pass" though, no one would look at me and say oh, she's not straight. That makes some things easier and some more difficult. I'm not an expert at this. I'm still working on being more open about it. When I've actually been with someone, it's been so much easier.
That's rough about your religious friend :/ Maybe she'd be more cool about it than you think? Or no? And your best friend, the sort of crush, she's had girlfriends in the past? And you think she sort of knows about how you feel? Something like that happened to me, only the friend I had a crush on is completely straight. I swear I was so careful to keep it hidden because I knew she was just not interested in me like that, even though we were pretty close. She had a very teasing personality, more so than mine even. I knew she knew how I felt because she would do things to tease me that were terrible but sort of wonderful too, and it was really confusing x/ She's at a different college now.
EDIT: The length of our OCC posts have been increasing more and more haha x)
‘Be calm, be calm…’
Mila met Lisette’s questioning stare with a mask of absolute composure. She looked perfectly at ease, as if she were confident that there was no reason why she shouldn’t have her way on such an insignificant matter. But inwardly, her thoughts were racing to come up with her next move, in case the other vampire spotted the trace of tension in her jaw or the subtle hint of desperation in her eyes. She could feel Lisette’s eyes boring into her own, trying to find any excuse to be suspicious. They stared at each other like two territorial animals, waiting for the other to step down. The tension was almost unbearable. ’Maybe she knows. She’s playing with me. She's-..
All of a sudden Lisette threw up her hands.
“I say we let her go, Bookie.”
And just like that, the tension was gone. Mila released an inaudible sigh of relief, her features relaxing completely now. She straightened her posture a little, drawing herself up to her full height, and gave a slow, appreciative nod – though, there was a suggestion of triumph in the way she lifted her chin a little higher and looked at Lisette with satisfaction.
“Good,” she replied easily, as if the younger vampire had pleased her by answering correctly, rather than actually granting her anything.
“Poor girl wants her alone time. We can go find some fun ourselves.”
“Undoubtedly. Go on, I’ll find you when I’m finished.” Her words were almost imperious, and it might have been as if she were the one dismissing them. If she was going to subject herself to the company of these two, she had better start off on a better foot by asserting some level of authority from this point on. If Lisette thought she would be allowing the older vampire to do anything, she was sorely mistaken.
Booker had a curious look on his handsome face as he gazed from Mila to the girl and back again. But he eventually met Lisette’s gaze with a shrug of his own. “Whatever suits her, I don’t care. I could go for another round right now anyway.”
“Do you want to go halfsies?”
“Do you half to ask?” he drawled, a lethargic smirk on his face as he let her tug him along.
“Don't forget to give us the gritty details,” Lisette was saying, as Mila stood and watched them head down the street, wanting to make sure they were out of sight and earshot before-..
”Mila…?”
The relief that she had finally let ease into her expression slowly vanished, just as Lisette’s words gradually faded away. There was a beat of silence and then all of the dread that Mila had thought she had overcome came rushing back suddenly, loud and horrific and paralyzing. She saw Lisette whip her head around and knew she could see the dead giveaway shock on her face. Mila gave an anguished cry as the other vampire pushed past her and she turned to grab at her, thinking she was about to throw herself at Charlie. But Lisette was only staring at the girl with a grim expression, looking not too pleased to have had the wool almost pulled over her eyes.
”It knows your name.”
Now she was circling slowly and dangerously around Mila, like some sort of predatory cat, while the older vampire stared down the street at Charlie with a pained look on her face. The girl’s hands were over her mouth. She had dropped her guitar case. Mila knew with an awful pang of guilt that she didn’t even know the half of it. She must have recognized her old roommate’s silhouette and had obviously reacted with unpleasant shock. She didn’t know to fear Booker and Lisette. Not yet. Mila squeezed her eyes shut, no longer concerned with hiding the agonized look on her face. She’d killed her as soon as she’d entered her life, and it hadn’t mattered that she’d tried to leave.
Her eyes flew open as Lisette’s voice came purring into her ear, soft and deadly.
“Mila, Mila, Mila.”
‘Powerless’ was not a word to describe the immaculate, aristocratic vampire, who had seen more than three hundred years in her lifetime, had devoured more souls than she could count, had the ability to ensnare her prey with just a look. But now as she stared at Charlie and felt Lisette’s fingers on her cheek, her cool breath on her neck, Mila felt an unpleasant shiver down her spine and realized that she had backed herself into a corner.
“Care for one more race?”
“No, w-wait-…” she whispered in a small voice, suppressing another shudder as Lisette caressed her jaw. “Charlie!” She called her name suddenly, loud enough for the girl to hear.
”Winner takes all.”
Mila didn’t wait for the other vampire to pull her hand away before she was off like shot at an astounding speed. She was by Charlie’s side in the blink of an eye, one hand on her shoulder, the other clutching her arm. “Charlie…!” she said again, looking at her with uncharacteristically wide, melancholy eyes. “Oh, Char…” But then she suddenly let go of her again as if she’d touched something hot. “I-I’m sorry, I-…” There wasn’t time to explain everything. Mila grabbed her arm with her vice-like grip and swiftly pulled her to one side of the alley, placing her so that her back was against the wall. She stood just a few feet in front of her in a protective stance, her teeth sharp and glistening threateningly in the direction of her former companions.
She suspected that the time for reasoning was over, but she said anyway, “Not this one.” Her voice was low and intimidating. “She’s… I’ve already claimed her.” She winced at the words as soon as she’d said them, knowing how vile they would sound to the girl. They sounded awful to her, herself. But she had to use the kind of language that Booker and Lisette could understand. ‘I have an emotional connection to her,’ was not going to cut it. In fact, it was laughable.
Booker was already laughing. He sauntered over slowly to stand at a healthy distance from Mila and the human, his face lit up with curiosity and amusement. “You’re kidding me…” he laughed again, running a hand through his dark, tousled hair and grinning at the pair of them as if they’d just finished a comedy skit. “You know, I told Lisette that you were acting funny, but I never could have guessed… But Mila,” he chuckled, appealing to her almost good naturedly, “Can you be serious? Then again, you always were on the possessive side, weren’t you. A little too fond of pets, are we?”
She glared at him with narrowed eyes that shifted between he and Lisette, watching both of them carefully. “Nothing’s changed. I’ll go with you, but you have to leave her to me.”
Mila met Lisette’s questioning stare with a mask of absolute composure. She looked perfectly at ease, as if she were confident that there was no reason why she shouldn’t have her way on such an insignificant matter. But inwardly, her thoughts were racing to come up with her next move, in case the other vampire spotted the trace of tension in her jaw or the subtle hint of desperation in her eyes. She could feel Lisette’s eyes boring into her own, trying to find any excuse to be suspicious. They stared at each other like two territorial animals, waiting for the other to step down. The tension was almost unbearable. ’Maybe she knows. She’s playing with me. She's-..
All of a sudden Lisette threw up her hands.
“I say we let her go, Bookie.”
And just like that, the tension was gone. Mila released an inaudible sigh of relief, her features relaxing completely now. She straightened her posture a little, drawing herself up to her full height, and gave a slow, appreciative nod – though, there was a suggestion of triumph in the way she lifted her chin a little higher and looked at Lisette with satisfaction.
“Good,” she replied easily, as if the younger vampire had pleased her by answering correctly, rather than actually granting her anything.
“Poor girl wants her alone time. We can go find some fun ourselves.”
“Undoubtedly. Go on, I’ll find you when I’m finished.” Her words were almost imperious, and it might have been as if she were the one dismissing them. If she was going to subject herself to the company of these two, she had better start off on a better foot by asserting some level of authority from this point on. If Lisette thought she would be allowing the older vampire to do anything, she was sorely mistaken.
Booker had a curious look on his handsome face as he gazed from Mila to the girl and back again. But he eventually met Lisette’s gaze with a shrug of his own. “Whatever suits her, I don’t care. I could go for another round right now anyway.”
“Do you want to go halfsies?”
“Do you half to ask?” he drawled, a lethargic smirk on his face as he let her tug him along.
“Don't forget to give us the gritty details,” Lisette was saying, as Mila stood and watched them head down the street, wanting to make sure they were out of sight and earshot before-..
”Mila…?”
The relief that she had finally let ease into her expression slowly vanished, just as Lisette’s words gradually faded away. There was a beat of silence and then all of the dread that Mila had thought she had overcome came rushing back suddenly, loud and horrific and paralyzing. She saw Lisette whip her head around and knew she could see the dead giveaway shock on her face. Mila gave an anguished cry as the other vampire pushed past her and she turned to grab at her, thinking she was about to throw herself at Charlie. But Lisette was only staring at the girl with a grim expression, looking not too pleased to have had the wool almost pulled over her eyes.
”It knows your name.”
Now she was circling slowly and dangerously around Mila, like some sort of predatory cat, while the older vampire stared down the street at Charlie with a pained look on her face. The girl’s hands were over her mouth. She had dropped her guitar case. Mila knew with an awful pang of guilt that she didn’t even know the half of it. She must have recognized her old roommate’s silhouette and had obviously reacted with unpleasant shock. She didn’t know to fear Booker and Lisette. Not yet. Mila squeezed her eyes shut, no longer concerned with hiding the agonized look on her face. She’d killed her as soon as she’d entered her life, and it hadn’t mattered that she’d tried to leave.
Her eyes flew open as Lisette’s voice came purring into her ear, soft and deadly.
“Mila, Mila, Mila.”
‘Powerless’ was not a word to describe the immaculate, aristocratic vampire, who had seen more than three hundred years in her lifetime, had devoured more souls than she could count, had the ability to ensnare her prey with just a look. But now as she stared at Charlie and felt Lisette’s fingers on her cheek, her cool breath on her neck, Mila felt an unpleasant shiver down her spine and realized that she had backed herself into a corner.
“Care for one more race?”
“No, w-wait-…” she whispered in a small voice, suppressing another shudder as Lisette caressed her jaw. “Charlie!” She called her name suddenly, loud enough for the girl to hear.
”Winner takes all.”
Mila didn’t wait for the other vampire to pull her hand away before she was off like shot at an astounding speed. She was by Charlie’s side in the blink of an eye, one hand on her shoulder, the other clutching her arm. “Charlie…!” she said again, looking at her with uncharacteristically wide, melancholy eyes. “Oh, Char…” But then she suddenly let go of her again as if she’d touched something hot. “I-I’m sorry, I-…” There wasn’t time to explain everything. Mila grabbed her arm with her vice-like grip and swiftly pulled her to one side of the alley, placing her so that her back was against the wall. She stood just a few feet in front of her in a protective stance, her teeth sharp and glistening threateningly in the direction of her former companions.
She suspected that the time for reasoning was over, but she said anyway, “Not this one.” Her voice was low and intimidating. “She’s… I’ve already claimed her.” She winced at the words as soon as she’d said them, knowing how vile they would sound to the girl. They sounded awful to her, herself. But she had to use the kind of language that Booker and Lisette could understand. ‘I have an emotional connection to her,’ was not going to cut it. In fact, it was laughable.
Booker was already laughing. He sauntered over slowly to stand at a healthy distance from Mila and the human, his face lit up with curiosity and amusement. “You’re kidding me…” he laughed again, running a hand through his dark, tousled hair and grinning at the pair of them as if they’d just finished a comedy skit. “You know, I told Lisette that you were acting funny, but I never could have guessed… But Mila,” he chuckled, appealing to her almost good naturedly, “Can you be serious? Then again, you always were on the possessive side, weren’t you. A little too fond of pets, are we?”
She glared at him with narrowed eyes that shifted between he and Lisette, watching both of them carefully. “Nothing’s changed. I’ll go with you, but you have to leave her to me.”
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Not done forever no, I'll be back to the old grind next year and the year after that x) I worked for a while after high school, which is why I'm a couple years older than some of my classmates. But it's all good, it doesn't make that much of a difference really, and there a lot of other people who are older, some my age and one girl who's 23. But aw, I love my studio classes and my most of good friends are all with me in class so I'll miss it when I am done forever ;_; Good luck with your test!! You can do it <3 What subject is it in?
It really was the best experience x) If the room wasn't filled with people I wanted to impress, I probably would have rolled around on the floor from all the emotions haha xD The cool thing was, the Dean was my first reviewer, and we were supposed to have three. So after talking to him, I was super pumped and the other two reviews were a piece of cake! ;) But yeah! I'll upload the pics I took on my phone and show you. I still need to take to the photo lab and take some better, more professional looking photos.
Woah, you wrote that in class? Pretty impressive x) When I'm writing I'm like, everyone leave me alone I'm concentrating xD I have to be off by myself. Kind of weird I guess :P
That's crazy, I didn't know that! Zed. I think I read somewhere that Americans changed it to zee for the song and then just kept saying it. I never say zed. Do you switch between toMAYto and toMAHto then too? Hey we had an exchange student from China too in high school. He didn't say much either lol, but he seemed sweet. And then we had a girl from Ecuador who was totally gorgeous and spoke English really well.
Alright, your Majesty. x) I'll watch it if you say so. But just so you know, I'm going to come crying to you when I can't sleep at night. You better comfort me. Haha, but yeah the game is so funny especially with a big group. You've never played Apples to Apples?? It's the best game ever!! You gotta play it sometime. Basically everyone gets seven cards with nouns on them, and they can be anything: Sharks, A Romantic Date, My Family, The President (or Prime Minister :P), and then each person takes turns selecting an adjective from the deck (also can be anything: slimy, sexy, delicious, horrifying) and placing it in the middle of the table. The rest of the players choose a noun from the seven in their hand that "best fits" the adjective. Of course, people often try to be funny and pair hilarious things together xD The person who put the adjective down picks the "best" noun, which is super subjective haha, and that person gets a point. Cards Against Humanity takes the same concept, but with phrases and the players fill in a blank. Also it has more risqué/naughty combination possibilities heh. I'm sure will get some creative combinations.
Haha, I told you! I told it messed up! XD Nah, we were just messing around. Really... xD I don't think I learned that much that day. Except that pig organs are apparently eerily similar to human organs. Going to med school to dissect dead bodies huh? Hm, I make a fetal pig talk, but I wonder if I would have the stomach to do that..
Yeah, I totally understand the feeling. And you're right, its natural to develop feelings that go a little beyond friendship when you're really close to someone, and it doesn't even have to be a romantic kind of thing at all. It's easy to confuse it I think. Or maybe it is slightly romantic but that's ok too. I don't think you have to be in a rush to tell her anything. Some people will say, you have to tell everyone right away or you're not being authentic!! But I don't think that way. It's your own thing to share if you want, when you want, to whom you choose, etc. If you think it might put tension on this great friendship you have and you don't want to risk it, then it's fine to hold off for as long as you want, or you don't have to tell her at all. I'd love to talk more about it and my own experience, but I don't want you to be like, yeah ok, stop preaching at me haha x) Just let me know. One last thing though, I found it easy to mention it to other people when I was already with someone. So it was like, hey this is my girlfriend, not omg I have to tell you a big secret I'm not totally straight...and probably get an awkward reply x) Also I you don't have to label yourself, and you don't have to "pick a side." Once someone I know was like "whaaat you can't say that" when I mentioned some dude being hot. Uh yes I can lol xD I can be attracted to both. It's not exactly something you can control. Ok, I'm getting off the soap box now, promise. x)
Gahhhh, I should watch them tonight, shouldn't I?? Now that I'm freeee. I talked to one of my friends at work and he said that the last episode had a major change from the book and he said it freaked some people out lol. I did see the episode where Joffrey died, that little bastard. I wish it had been more painful and humiliating. ...Uh but I don't mean to sound so evil about it xD He was just so terrible and he went so quick! It did look pretty painful though. I wonder who did it... I have guesses but apparently they're not even close, according to work friend x)
Oh, yeah I guess you're right. Maybe a song about her would be State of Seduction by Digital Daggers (singing to Booker), or Where the Lonely Roams (for Mila).
And Mila's song would be Razor's Edge, or that one you mentioned before, what was it again? Charlie's could be Still Here. I've been listening to Digital Daggers recently. Don't laugh at me - the songs are a bit angsty teenagerish, pretty different than what I usually listen to, but I don't care! xD
Beautiful porcelain skin huh x) Glow in the dark skin. My brother actually tans a little faster than I do, so I'm jealous of him. But summer's just started so I have time ;] Yeah it was nice! It was almost meditative.
EDIT: Charlie's could also be Surrender, the piano version. I'm way too into this x)
It really was the best experience x) If the room wasn't filled with people I wanted to impress, I probably would have rolled around on the floor from all the emotions haha xD The cool thing was, the Dean was my first reviewer, and we were supposed to have three. So after talking to him, I was super pumped and the other two reviews were a piece of cake! ;) But yeah! I'll upload the pics I took on my phone and show you. I still need to take to the photo lab and take some better, more professional looking photos.
Woah, you wrote that in class? Pretty impressive x) When I'm writing I'm like, everyone leave me alone I'm concentrating xD I have to be off by myself. Kind of weird I guess :P
That's crazy, I didn't know that! Zed. I think I read somewhere that Americans changed it to zee for the song and then just kept saying it. I never say zed. Do you switch between toMAYto and toMAHto then too? Hey we had an exchange student from China too in high school. He didn't say much either lol, but he seemed sweet. And then we had a girl from Ecuador who was totally gorgeous and spoke English really well.
Alright, your Majesty. x) I'll watch it if you say so. But just so you know, I'm going to come crying to you when I can't sleep at night. You better comfort me. Haha, but yeah the game is so funny especially with a big group. You've never played Apples to Apples?? It's the best game ever!! You gotta play it sometime. Basically everyone gets seven cards with nouns on them, and they can be anything: Sharks, A Romantic Date, My Family, The President (or Prime Minister :P), and then each person takes turns selecting an adjective from the deck (also can be anything: slimy, sexy, delicious, horrifying) and placing it in the middle of the table. The rest of the players choose a noun from the seven in their hand that "best fits" the adjective. Of course, people often try to be funny and pair hilarious things together xD The person who put the adjective down picks the "best" noun, which is super subjective haha, and that person gets a point. Cards Against Humanity takes the same concept, but with phrases and the players fill in a blank. Also it has more risqué/naughty combination possibilities heh. I'm sure will get some creative combinations.
Haha, I told you! I told it messed up! XD Nah, we were just messing around. Really... xD I don't think I learned that much that day. Except that pig organs are apparently eerily similar to human organs. Going to med school to dissect dead bodies huh? Hm, I make a fetal pig talk, but I wonder if I would have the stomach to do that..
Yeah, I totally understand the feeling. And you're right, its natural to develop feelings that go a little beyond friendship when you're really close to someone, and it doesn't even have to be a romantic kind of thing at all. It's easy to confuse it I think. Or maybe it is slightly romantic but that's ok too. I don't think you have to be in a rush to tell her anything. Some people will say, you have to tell everyone right away or you're not being authentic!! But I don't think that way. It's your own thing to share if you want, when you want, to whom you choose, etc. If you think it might put tension on this great friendship you have and you don't want to risk it, then it's fine to hold off for as long as you want, or you don't have to tell her at all. I'd love to talk more about it and my own experience, but I don't want you to be like, yeah ok, stop preaching at me haha x) Just let me know. One last thing though, I found it easy to mention it to other people when I was already with someone. So it was like, hey this is my girlfriend, not omg I have to tell you a big secret I'm not totally straight...and probably get an awkward reply x) Also I you don't have to label yourself, and you don't have to "pick a side." Once someone I know was like "whaaat you can't say that" when I mentioned some dude being hot. Uh yes I can lol xD I can be attracted to both. It's not exactly something you can control. Ok, I'm getting off the soap box now, promise. x)
Gahhhh, I should watch them tonight, shouldn't I?? Now that I'm freeee. I talked to one of my friends at work and he said that the last episode had a major change from the book and he said it freaked some people out lol. I did see the episode where Joffrey died, that little bastard. I wish it had been more painful and humiliating. ...Uh but I don't mean to sound so evil about it xD He was just so terrible and he went so quick! It did look pretty painful though. I wonder who did it... I have guesses but apparently they're not even close, according to work friend x)
Oh, yeah I guess you're right. Maybe a song about her would be State of Seduction by Digital Daggers (singing to Booker), or Where the Lonely Roams (for Mila).
And Mila's song would be Razor's Edge, or that one you mentioned before, what was it again? Charlie's could be Still Here. I've been listening to Digital Daggers recently. Don't laugh at me - the songs are a bit angsty teenagerish, pretty different than what I usually listen to, but I don't care! xD
Beautiful porcelain skin huh x) Glow in the dark skin. My brother actually tans a little faster than I do, so I'm jealous of him. But summer's just started so I have time ;] Yeah it was nice! It was almost meditative.
EDIT: Charlie's could also be Surrender, the piano version. I'm way too into this x)
OH MAN IM DONE WITH SCHOOL FOR THE YEAR YAY. So happyyyyyy. And a little dead xD I pulled my last all nighter Monday night and turned in my biggest final design thinking project Tuesday morning. I've had three all nighters this past week, but luckily not in a row x) And actually I did sleep an hour Monday night so I could at least think straight.
But OMG the BEST thing happened the day of the final. We had a "salon style" critique, which meant they had all the teaching assistants, the professor of the class, a few guest designers from Raleigh and the Dean (aka god) walking around and stopping by our desks where each of us sat with our projects and our "manifestos" lol, which described our thought process, design process, personal characters, aspirations for the future - very personal stuff. I wrote a sort of poem for mine. We also had to make a 3d thought model that people could interact with. So for my project, I made a 18x18in square tray out of wood, white pine, with a smaller tray in the center and around the edges were small colored wooden cubes, that I painted with acrylic, and the idea was that the colored cubes are like past experiences, observations, emotions, studies, precedents from other artists, ideas, etc, that I've collected consciously and subconsciously over time. I draw from that pool to create art and design, so everything I make is a like a mosaic of this eclectic collection. The tray can be accessed from all four sides, so I can invite other people to sit down and add to the design or we can create something great together. So yeah, there I was sitting at my studio desk with my project and THE DEAN comes over to me and says, would you like a review of your project and I say, yes of course! He's incredible. He's the most well-spoken, influential, imaginative, clever, accomplished person I've ever had a class with (he and the professor took turns doing the lectures for the class), and now the pleasure of talking to. So he sat down and read my manifesto and then smiled and then said ok talk. And I'd already practiced how I would explain my project so many times that the words just flowed and I was able to express everything I wanted. He talked to me about the design process in general, about having filters for what comes in and what you choose to pull out to create things and it was a really interesting discussion. Then at the end he said I should be proud, I did a beautiful job, my craftsmanship was excellent, my ideas were clear and that what I had made had inspired a great conversation between us. He called great. I said thank you and had a huge smile I'm sure and on the inside I was thinking oh my god, I talked to the dean and he like my project, I can die happy now. And some of my classmates across the room were trying to catch my eye to see my reaction because they're all just as star struck by the dean as I am. I did like a fist-pump in the air and pretended to shout hooray and they laughed xD I was so happy. And now I'm done and can sleep again thank goodness. Phew. Wow, I didn't mean to write so much oops xD Anyways, can I send you a picture of my final project?? After getting praised by the dean, my ego has swollen to twice its size and I just want to show off now x) jk! ..well sort of xD
Thanks!! I'm telling you, I always look forward to your posts and don't ever want them to end either haha. I really liked that exchange between Charlie and Mitch. The part where you talked about him forever hitting on the next young pretty thing, about being doomed to that bar and that night, like Charlie, and like Mila - that was great, very poignant.
What! Well maybe she'll come around once you actually start dissecting. We attached something to Wilbur's jaw and made him talk :D
Yeah, guess our charming personalities will just have to be enough x) Oh man, I watched that Molson Canadian beer commercial on youtube, late Tuesday night while I was working on my project, and it was hilarious!! I sent it to my roommate (Hey you're Canadian, do you know her? lol) and she loved it XD the beaver is a truly proud and noble animal xD but wait! Do you really say zed and not zee?? I didn't recognize what he said a couch and a hat were lol. Haha, you said some exchange students in your class read the rant too? xD That is too funny. Where are they from?
Uh yes, same here. Creepy children must go x) Aw jeez, the Ring?? The Japanese version?? Do I have to?? x) Ok, ok, I'll see if my friends want to watch it tomorrow night, when we have that get together I told you about. We'll see lol. Somebody's bringing the game Cards Against Humanity, which is like a hilarious and slightly very inappropriate version of Apples to Apples x) I can't wait.
A little jealous of you hanging out with his girlfriend? haha xD That's funny. I would to tease him to no end if I was in that kind of position heh heh >D Do you have slight crush on her? x) You don't have to say, I don't mean to be nosy, it's just that that's happened to me haha. But her boyfriend wasn't the jealous type and it wasn't a major crush, just a "wow I would totally date you if I could" kind of thing lol. Woo Game of Thrones! That reminds me, I still need to watch the last two episodes, I've been too busy to catch up.
I loved that song I Wanna Be Evil by the way! I went and listened to it and thought of Lisette.
*receives the dirtiest look ever with surprise and mischievous delight* Hm~? You mean you don't want me to complain about how toasty warm it is outside or the sun tan I got yesterday afternoon after finals? I have my air conditioning on high. I'm just dying of heat over here >) lol it was actually really beautiful yesterday, but I woke up this morning to a downpour outside. It's still raining here right now. But since I'm done with school and don't work today, I don't mind spending a lazy day inside x) I did sit on my porch for like an hour earlier to listen to the rain, as cheesy as that sounds xD it was very relaxing! A good way to de-stress after final projects.
But OMG the BEST thing happened the day of the final. We had a "salon style" critique, which meant they had all the teaching assistants, the professor of the class, a few guest designers from Raleigh and the Dean (aka god) walking around and stopping by our desks where each of us sat with our projects and our "manifestos" lol, which described our thought process, design process, personal characters, aspirations for the future - very personal stuff. I wrote a sort of poem for mine. We also had to make a 3d thought model that people could interact with. So for my project, I made a 18x18in square tray out of wood, white pine, with a smaller tray in the center and around the edges were small colored wooden cubes, that I painted with acrylic, and the idea was that the colored cubes are like past experiences, observations, emotions, studies, precedents from other artists, ideas, etc, that I've collected consciously and subconsciously over time. I draw from that pool to create art and design, so everything I make is a like a mosaic of this eclectic collection. The tray can be accessed from all four sides, so I can invite other people to sit down and add to the design or we can create something great together. So yeah, there I was sitting at my studio desk with my project and THE DEAN comes over to me and says, would you like a review of your project and I say, yes of course! He's incredible. He's the most well-spoken, influential, imaginative, clever, accomplished person I've ever had a class with (he and the professor took turns doing the lectures for the class), and now the pleasure of talking to. So he sat down and read my manifesto and then smiled and then said ok talk. And I'd already practiced how I would explain my project so many times that the words just flowed and I was able to express everything I wanted. He talked to me about the design process in general, about having filters for what comes in and what you choose to pull out to create things and it was a really interesting discussion. Then at the end he said I should be proud, I did a beautiful job, my craftsmanship was excellent, my ideas were clear and that what I had made had inspired a great conversation between us. He called great. I said thank you and had a huge smile I'm sure and on the inside I was thinking oh my god, I talked to the dean and he like my project, I can die happy now. And some of my classmates across the room were trying to catch my eye to see my reaction because they're all just as star struck by the dean as I am. I did like a fist-pump in the air and pretended to shout hooray and they laughed xD I was so happy. And now I'm done and can sleep again thank goodness. Phew. Wow, I didn't mean to write so much oops xD Anyways, can I send you a picture of my final project?? After getting praised by the dean, my ego has swollen to twice its size and I just want to show off now x) jk! ..well sort of xD
Thanks!! I'm telling you, I always look forward to your posts and don't ever want them to end either haha. I really liked that exchange between Charlie and Mitch. The part where you talked about him forever hitting on the next young pretty thing, about being doomed to that bar and that night, like Charlie, and like Mila - that was great, very poignant.
What! Well maybe she'll come around once you actually start dissecting. We attached something to Wilbur's jaw and made him talk :D
Yeah, guess our charming personalities will just have to be enough x) Oh man, I watched that Molson Canadian beer commercial on youtube, late Tuesday night while I was working on my project, and it was hilarious!! I sent it to my roommate (Hey you're Canadian, do you know her? lol) and she loved it XD the beaver is a truly proud and noble animal xD but wait! Do you really say zed and not zee?? I didn't recognize what he said a couch and a hat were lol. Haha, you said some exchange students in your class read the rant too? xD That is too funny. Where are they from?
Uh yes, same here. Creepy children must go x) Aw jeez, the Ring?? The Japanese version?? Do I have to?? x) Ok, ok, I'll see if my friends want to watch it tomorrow night, when we have that get together I told you about. We'll see lol. Somebody's bringing the game Cards Against Humanity, which is like a hilarious and slightly very inappropriate version of Apples to Apples x) I can't wait.
A little jealous of you hanging out with his girlfriend? haha xD That's funny. I would to tease him to no end if I was in that kind of position heh heh >D Do you have slight crush on her? x) You don't have to say, I don't mean to be nosy, it's just that that's happened to me haha. But her boyfriend wasn't the jealous type and it wasn't a major crush, just a "wow I would totally date you if I could" kind of thing lol. Woo Game of Thrones! That reminds me, I still need to watch the last two episodes, I've been too busy to catch up.
I loved that song I Wanna Be Evil by the way! I went and listened to it and thought of Lisette.
*receives the dirtiest look ever with surprise and mischievous delight* Hm~? You mean you don't want me to complain about how toasty warm it is outside or the sun tan I got yesterday afternoon after finals? I have my air conditioning on high. I'm just dying of heat over here >) lol it was actually really beautiful yesterday, but I woke up this morning to a downpour outside. It's still raining here right now. But since I'm done with school and don't work today, I don't mind spending a lazy day inside x) I did sit on my porch for like an hour earlier to listen to the rain, as cheesy as that sounds xD it was very relaxing! A good way to de-stress after final projects.
“So did I hear Booker mention pets?”
Mila didn’t look at Lisette as the other vampire moved in close again. She gazed past her instead, trying to appear disinterested. But her body was tense. She’d felt better right after that last snack, but it hadn’t been nearly enough and the hunger was quickly creeping up again. The ache did nothing to help her ignore Lisette’s taunts. If anything, Mila felt more belligerent than usual.
“Mila that is so five decades ago! No wonder you’re so weak, poor thing. I guess you really did need us.”
She looked sharply at the hand that was condescendingly patting her shoulder and then flicked her eyes dangerously at Lisette, as if to ask if she wanted to keep that hand. Booker had finished at this point and Lisette withdrew before Mila felt the need to remove it for her. But before long, the younger vampire’s soft voice was purring in her ear again.
“And don’t be afraid to go for it all this time, honey. We can clean up the mess.”
She had to admit…that sounded good to her. She hated how good that sounded. Lisette had always been aware of Mila’s subtle resistance to these kinds of barbaric feeding frenzies and was deliberately coaxing her to give in to the temptation anyway. Even if it felt like she was being manipulated, it also felt exhilarating and wildly pleasurable to imagine giving in and abandoning the last traces of humanity she had left. No guilt or uneasiness necessary. No damaged pride, no having to endure sneers from her comrades for her pathetic sympathy. Just the sensation of having her fill, and having it any which way she wanted. Even as she walked briskly ahead of her companions and told herself over and over that she wasn’t a monster, there was still that lingering temptation in the back of her mind. It would probably always be there, both repulsive and alluring, taking the shape of Lisette licking her fingers and winking.
“Oh, Bookie.”
Booker had a smug look on his face as he watched Mila turn away. He met Lisette’s gaze and sauntered over to her, still licking at his lips and hands with obvious satisfaction.
”You have a little something right there.”
He paused to let her wipe at his scruffy chin, and felt her calculating eyes search his features. His own gaze was on her bloody fingers as they pulled away from him.
“Do you think she’ll stay?”
“It’s hard to tell,” he replied thoughtfully, taking her hand and lifting it to his mouth as if to kiss it. He pursed his lips to the spot of blood on the backs of her fingertips and licked it clean. There was something casual and routine in the way he did it, rather than sensual. “If she knows what’s good for her, she will. Something’s happened to her though. I can’t quite put my finger on it. It’s not just us that’s got in her in a mood. She’s distracted.” He finished with her hand and then let it go. “If we could figure out what it is, we might be able to get her to see reason.”
When Mila addressed the two of them about hearing a new target, Booker strained his ears along with Lisette in the direction that the eldest vampire had indicated. …There was nothing. He looked quizzically at her.
“I don’t hear anyone...”
“I don’t either,” he chimed in.
And then he did hear a voice, sweet and clear, and coming from the opposite direction. He turned to look at Lisette in surprised amusement, just as she turned to grin smugly at him.
”Oh. Well…”
“Indeed.”
“Mila, sweetheart, are you sure it wasn’t that way you meant?”
Mila had stopped walking, but still stood with her back to them, so they couldn’t see her expression. It was shock. She was wide-eyed, like a deer in headlights, her gaze frozen on a single spot in the distance as she frantically tried to calculate her next move. She had to turn around. She had to say something before-..
“Let’s go see who it is...”
“Lisette,” Mila said suddenly, whirling around. She couldn’t believe this was happening. In the distance she could still see Charlie’s slender form walking down the street away from them, completely oblivious to the impending danger. Mila felt another painful ache, but instead of it being in her throat in was in her chest. It felt like an icy grip was forcing all the air out of her lungs. Her head was spinning.
“Hold on, I-…I hear it too,” she began again, grasping for the right words. It took everything to keep the desperation out of her voice, though her expression was a little strained. She was moving slowly, trying to place herself between Charlie and the two other vampires. Her eyes were glued to them, keenly aware of their slightest movements, their shifting, smirking faces. She heard the girl’s singing voice start up again and felt another dreadful sinking sensation in her gut. The singing wasn’t loud, but it was just loud enough for their unnaturally sharp senses to pick it up.
“…I’ll take this one. It’s my turn, after all.” She was still inching between them. “I did hear something over that other direction though. It must have moved out of range. Why don’t you check it out? There’s no need for us to go one by one. You don’t have to wait for me. I’ll finish with this one and meet you over there.”
Why had she let them come this way. Why hadn’t she changed their course earlier in the night to some other part of the city. She hadn’t known Charlie would even be in this part of town, but still she might have, she c-could have…
They would kill her. Booker and Lisette weren’t stupid. They would recognize that there had been some kind of connection between she and Charlie, however damaged it was now, and they would make sure this little game ended with the girl dead – if not to just to mess with her, then to squash the faint glow of human feeling that Charlie had coaxed out of her again. Mila would have trembled if she weren’t so entirely focused on keeping her composure. She felt like she was going to be sick. Still she tried to reason with her two companions and to keep up the pretense of not recognizing the girl as convincingly as she could muster.
“If I’m going to join you two,” she added suddenly and looking pointedly at them, knowing it was something they wanted, “I’ll want to know you can give me the luxury of feeding alone sometimes. It’s a…a habit of mine. From being on my own for so long.” She would do it too, join them if it meant they would turn around and walk away from this. It would mean at least a few decades of being harassed by the both of them, dealing with whatever weird tension there was between she and Lisette, and probably being changed for the worse, but at that moment she would have done anything to keep the two wretched demons from getting anywhere near Charlie.
“You can grant me that at least, can’t you?” She hated that it almost sounded like begging, but she said it anyway.
Mila didn’t look at Lisette as the other vampire moved in close again. She gazed past her instead, trying to appear disinterested. But her body was tense. She’d felt better right after that last snack, but it hadn’t been nearly enough and the hunger was quickly creeping up again. The ache did nothing to help her ignore Lisette’s taunts. If anything, Mila felt more belligerent than usual.
“Mila that is so five decades ago! No wonder you’re so weak, poor thing. I guess you really did need us.”
She looked sharply at the hand that was condescendingly patting her shoulder and then flicked her eyes dangerously at Lisette, as if to ask if she wanted to keep that hand. Booker had finished at this point and Lisette withdrew before Mila felt the need to remove it for her. But before long, the younger vampire’s soft voice was purring in her ear again.
“And don’t be afraid to go for it all this time, honey. We can clean up the mess.”
She had to admit…that sounded good to her. She hated how good that sounded. Lisette had always been aware of Mila’s subtle resistance to these kinds of barbaric feeding frenzies and was deliberately coaxing her to give in to the temptation anyway. Even if it felt like she was being manipulated, it also felt exhilarating and wildly pleasurable to imagine giving in and abandoning the last traces of humanity she had left. No guilt or uneasiness necessary. No damaged pride, no having to endure sneers from her comrades for her pathetic sympathy. Just the sensation of having her fill, and having it any which way she wanted. Even as she walked briskly ahead of her companions and told herself over and over that she wasn’t a monster, there was still that lingering temptation in the back of her mind. It would probably always be there, both repulsive and alluring, taking the shape of Lisette licking her fingers and winking.
“Oh, Bookie.”
Booker had a smug look on his face as he watched Mila turn away. He met Lisette’s gaze and sauntered over to her, still licking at his lips and hands with obvious satisfaction.
”You have a little something right there.”
He paused to let her wipe at his scruffy chin, and felt her calculating eyes search his features. His own gaze was on her bloody fingers as they pulled away from him.
“Do you think she’ll stay?”
“It’s hard to tell,” he replied thoughtfully, taking her hand and lifting it to his mouth as if to kiss it. He pursed his lips to the spot of blood on the backs of her fingertips and licked it clean. There was something casual and routine in the way he did it, rather than sensual. “If she knows what’s good for her, she will. Something’s happened to her though. I can’t quite put my finger on it. It’s not just us that’s got in her in a mood. She’s distracted.” He finished with her hand and then let it go. “If we could figure out what it is, we might be able to get her to see reason.”
When Mila addressed the two of them about hearing a new target, Booker strained his ears along with Lisette in the direction that the eldest vampire had indicated. …There was nothing. He looked quizzically at her.
“I don’t hear anyone...”
“I don’t either,” he chimed in.
And then he did hear a voice, sweet and clear, and coming from the opposite direction. He turned to look at Lisette in surprised amusement, just as she turned to grin smugly at him.
”Oh. Well…”
“Indeed.”
“Mila, sweetheart, are you sure it wasn’t that way you meant?”
Mila had stopped walking, but still stood with her back to them, so they couldn’t see her expression. It was shock. She was wide-eyed, like a deer in headlights, her gaze frozen on a single spot in the distance as she frantically tried to calculate her next move. She had to turn around. She had to say something before-..
“Let’s go see who it is...”
“Lisette,” Mila said suddenly, whirling around. She couldn’t believe this was happening. In the distance she could still see Charlie’s slender form walking down the street away from them, completely oblivious to the impending danger. Mila felt another painful ache, but instead of it being in her throat in was in her chest. It felt like an icy grip was forcing all the air out of her lungs. Her head was spinning.
“Hold on, I-…I hear it too,” she began again, grasping for the right words. It took everything to keep the desperation out of her voice, though her expression was a little strained. She was moving slowly, trying to place herself between Charlie and the two other vampires. Her eyes were glued to them, keenly aware of their slightest movements, their shifting, smirking faces. She heard the girl’s singing voice start up again and felt another dreadful sinking sensation in her gut. The singing wasn’t loud, but it was just loud enough for their unnaturally sharp senses to pick it up.
“…I’ll take this one. It’s my turn, after all.” She was still inching between them. “I did hear something over that other direction though. It must have moved out of range. Why don’t you check it out? There’s no need for us to go one by one. You don’t have to wait for me. I’ll finish with this one and meet you over there.”
Why had she let them come this way. Why hadn’t she changed their course earlier in the night to some other part of the city. She hadn’t known Charlie would even be in this part of town, but still she might have, she c-could have…
They would kill her. Booker and Lisette weren’t stupid. They would recognize that there had been some kind of connection between she and Charlie, however damaged it was now, and they would make sure this little game ended with the girl dead – if not to just to mess with her, then to squash the faint glow of human feeling that Charlie had coaxed out of her again. Mila would have trembled if she weren’t so entirely focused on keeping her composure. She felt like she was going to be sick. Still she tried to reason with her two companions and to keep up the pretense of not recognizing the girl as convincingly as she could muster.
“If I’m going to join you two,” she added suddenly and looking pointedly at them, knowing it was something they wanted, “I’ll want to know you can give me the luxury of feeding alone sometimes. It’s a…a habit of mine. From being on my own for so long.” She would do it too, join them if it meant they would turn around and walk away from this. It would mean at least a few decades of being harassed by the both of them, dealing with whatever weird tension there was between she and Lisette, and probably being changed for the worse, but at that moment she would have done anything to keep the two wretched demons from getting anywhere near Charlie.
“You can grant me that at least, can’t you?” She hated that it almost sounded like begging, but she said it anyway.
Ahh, I did that! I dissected a fetal pig! My lab partner and I named him Wilbur, which is pretty messed up now that I look back on it.. We actually had a third lab partner, but she refused to get anywhere near it hahaha xD Have fun with that! You'll carry the smell of latex and formaldehyde with you the rest of the day.
No, I wish I was bilingual ;_; That would be really really awesome. I would become a US foreign diplomat and translate stuff and travel all the time, it would be great. I was actually wondering if you were. My old roommate is French Canadian and speaks French fluently. Did I already tell you about how pissed she would get at her French professors here who would tell her she had to get rid of her Quebec accent and acquire a real French accent? Oh that made her so mad x) As I can imagine! She told me that French from France sounds "snootier," compared to Canadian French. I asked if French Canadians kind of admire it anyway, like Americans drool over English accents, but no that is most definitely not the case she says xD But anyway, we had to take a foreign language in high school and I took Spanish, but I didn't keep up with it and I've forgotten most of it :/
Your Majesty, I watched the Shining and now all those disturbing images are in my brain forever D: I actually thought it was really good and went and read about it online afterward x) But holy hell, I almost gave up when I heard that little boy talking creepily with his finger movement omgjdsjkskjsfss and that happens right away. Jack Nicholson though, what a guy. He's so perfectly disingenuous when he smiles and compliments, and his eyebrows by themselves could make anyone look like a possessed murderer, and he just has the scariest smile I have ever seen. No wonder he played the Joker in the old Batman movie. Oh god, but the bathroom scene with the woman whyyyyy. And Redrum. And those two twins. The blatant racism. It was weird because I already knew the lines "Wendy, I'm home!" and "Here's Johnny!" without having seen the actual scenes xD I must have seen parodies, and also it's classic and I'm like the last one to be seeing this movie x) Summary: I liked it and was disturbed, so check. I think I need to watch some happy things before I move to the next one. And I'm sort of worried the next one will be a huge jump...
Aw, that's cool about your family getting together to watch the storm :) Sounds like good memories.
Thank you :P Even though I'm definitely buying it, that means a lot to me.
How was your hang out/shopping trip?? I guess her boyfriend must be pretty bummed out too that she may be gone for a while :/
Too cute to be evil, haha xD Aw. Start channeling Lisette.
What?? Elmo!! xD That's actually super creepy D: I'll watch out for those. Yeah I'm sure there a few places in New York we don't want to wander into. Luckily my dad's really experienced when it comes to traveling since he has to do it so often for his job. He'll plan everything out. Hopefully leave some room for some spontaneous discoveries though. Giant Forever 21 store yesssss, I will never leave. And I love Cake Boss!! The cannolis look like they are to die for.
Hey lying by the pool doesn't sound all that bad at all. I wish I'd been swimming today, it was hotttttt, like 85 or something, blegh.
No, I wish I was bilingual ;_; That would be really really awesome. I would become a US foreign diplomat and translate stuff and travel all the time, it would be great. I was actually wondering if you were. My old roommate is French Canadian and speaks French fluently. Did I already tell you about how pissed she would get at her French professors here who would tell her she had to get rid of her Quebec accent and acquire a real French accent? Oh that made her so mad x) As I can imagine! She told me that French from France sounds "snootier," compared to Canadian French. I asked if French Canadians kind of admire it anyway, like Americans drool over English accents, but no that is most definitely not the case she says xD But anyway, we had to take a foreign language in high school and I took Spanish, but I didn't keep up with it and I've forgotten most of it :/
Your Majesty, I watched the Shining and now all those disturbing images are in my brain forever D: I actually thought it was really good and went and read about it online afterward x) But holy hell, I almost gave up when I heard that little boy talking creepily with his finger movement omgjdsjkskjsfss and that happens right away. Jack Nicholson though, what a guy. He's so perfectly disingenuous when he smiles and compliments, and his eyebrows by themselves could make anyone look like a possessed murderer, and he just has the scariest smile I have ever seen. No wonder he played the Joker in the old Batman movie. Oh god, but the bathroom scene with the woman whyyyyy. And Redrum. And those two twins. The blatant racism. It was weird because I already knew the lines "Wendy, I'm home!" and "Here's Johnny!" without having seen the actual scenes xD I must have seen parodies, and also it's classic and I'm like the last one to be seeing this movie x) Summary: I liked it and was disturbed, so check. I think I need to watch some happy things before I move to the next one. And I'm sort of worried the next one will be a huge jump...
Aw, that's cool about your family getting together to watch the storm :) Sounds like good memories.
Thank you :P Even though I'm definitely buying it, that means a lot to me.
How was your hang out/shopping trip?? I guess her boyfriend must be pretty bummed out too that she may be gone for a while :/
Too cute to be evil, haha xD Aw. Start channeling Lisette.
What?? Elmo!! xD That's actually super creepy D: I'll watch out for those. Yeah I'm sure there a few places in New York we don't want to wander into. Luckily my dad's really experienced when it comes to traveling since he has to do it so often for his job. He'll plan everything out. Hopefully leave some room for some spontaneous discoveries though. Giant Forever 21 store yesssss, I will never leave. And I love Cake Boss!! The cannolis look like they are to die for.
Hey lying by the pool doesn't sound all that bad at all. I wish I'd been swimming today, it was hotttttt, like 85 or something, blegh.
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