Various excerpts and scribbling in a journal that Flynn keeps on his person. He likes to take notes on certain people he deems interesting and even those that he doesn't. There are hundreds of names and analyses inside this notebook that are simply his way of looking at people. He's intrigued by the uniqueness of Caelbury and likes to study the differences in the state of minds of those who are elite and wealthy to those who are not, as well as the oddities within each social group and how these social groups have even come to exist.
He knows a lot about people, even things you really wouldn't want anyone but yourself to know. So, if there is anything in his notebooks that seems too personal for him to know, you really don't want to find out how he figured it out. After all, this man's brain is wired around the human psyche and how it works according to environmental and biological factors in people's lives. He'll actually take various notes and assumptions, since there are a lot of variables when it comes to the human mind, and strike each down once he gets the right amount of evidence required to make such assumptions factual. This is a process that can take a few hours to a few years, depending on the person. He multitasks this and is adept at separating minds and people and connecting them, so that he doesn't lose track of who fits what bill where.
Oedipus Rex:"A face of stone holds the most troubling of minds. With eyes that pierce into the soul comes a power of the psyche unmatched even by the human brain. Such a mind only finds satisfaction in the torment of others."Dribble/Notes: Undeniably the most popular and, frankly, the most loved thing inside this entire school. I feel his plans are of a nefarious purpose and he continues to stare at me with those beady eyes, as if provoking me to take action against him. He continues to assert his dominance over myself via sitting upon my papers and staring deeply into my eyes. I fear his potential and I fear what his intentions are. A sinister being with a propensity to mewl for attention, knowing full well his power over the students of my classroom. His number of mindless, hormonal teenagers are growing; I fear the day his wrath falls upon this earth...
Fools not know the danger of such charm.
Acacia Hawthorne:"Handing people rose colored glasses is a travesty upon humanity. Relishing in their ignorance is a tragedy upon oneself."Dribbling/Sidenotes: Interesting specimen. Eyes are too noticeably pained and vulnerable.
Overbearing brother might be the cause. Further studying shows the need of such a figure in her life. Thus, hypothesis is no longer feasible. Further research shows the amount of children the Hawthorne's have, needs more evidence to connect such distress toward family members. Suicidal tendencies—will bring to brother, Hayden. Digging through interviews and reading through various lines in some of the encounters with her family, I've determined quite a bit about the average Hawthorne life and can safely deduce the reason behind Acacia's currently troubled state. She's having severe identity issues brought on by neglect and lack of approval from very difficult parents. The extreme standards upon which Mr. and Mrs. Hawthorne display has all but demoralized and degraded each of their children in some form or fashion, some simply refused to grow from it, Acacia being one such case and Hayden being the polar opposite. A lot of self-realization and restructuring would be the only form of treatment I can see that would at least attempt to heal the grievous wounds she works hard to hide.
Lili Lafontaine:"To know what one wants is determination. To deny what one needs is despotism."Dribble/Notes: Skips my class. Knows what she wants in life. Does not know what she needs in life. Needs to apply herself more in everything she does. It will earn her more happiness in life and more knowledge. Ignorance isn't something to take pride in.
Jacob Rockwell:"If you follow the stars in such a straight path, you find you burn out much too quickly, falling short of such astronomical goals and standards."Dribble/Notes: Troubled individual. Obvious from how he acts. Straight-laced, well-oriented. Further looking into him, as he avoids my class as best he can—will conclude after further studies—it seems his life has dealt him quite the problematic hand. Might have done him better due to his obvious boost in performance.
Hard to determine; performance has been above par even when hit with what I've determined as depression. Simple diagnosis for a not so simple case. Case has taken a large turn for the worse. Death of friend has brought depression levels higher. Would help him out further, but refuses to fully come into contact with me; counselors seem to have their hands full. Something obviously changed after the summer. Showing signs of what seems to be some psychological disorder. I can't confirm what just yet, but I have my theories.
Bipolar Disorder Symptoms show no sign of manic behavior. Or any manic behavior cannot be attributed to such.
Sociopath Faulty logic. No evidence points remotely toward such a mental handicap. Still trying to determine.
Conclusion has come to PTSD or general anxiety. There are quite a bit signs pointing to something down the anxiety disorder branch, though he seems to be a stickler for rules, I cannot associate that with OCD. But, only because it isn't the cause of this individual's stress, even if he probably does have a slight tendency to be OCD. However, it seems more traumatic than simply anxiety. Data still inconclusive, however; will watch Jacob further.
Roman Zelenka:"The only sin here is mediocrity."Dribble/Notes: An interesting person, altogether, regardless of his apparent mediocrity. It's not simply a person being average because they can't do any better, it's a person being average because they have found an impasse that they cannot traverse. I've seen it in various students, though the reason and outcome are both totally different entities.
The outcome: lost his drive.
The reason: inconclusive/lacks data.
I'm a reserved and quiet individual for the sack of learning and finding more knowledge. His aloofness has other meanings. I, sadly, haven't been exposed to him much. However, I have noticed that this particular individual has done quite a bit of traveling. Why he stopped here, is uncertain; it definitely isn't because this school has had him in its sights. He hasn't done enough hard work or shown enough determination to get accepted on those basis. Confusing, as he seems more than capable of applying himself, though he chooses not to. Unfortunate.
Will find out more as time passes; a year's time is enough to find out exactly what his deal is.
Vladimir Kalkovich:"The past scorns us all."Dribble/Notes: Quite a nice individual. Of course, I don't feel much of it is too genuine. I think the saying, "Those who smile the most carry the biggest sorrows." Or something akin to that. What those sorrows are, I'm uncertain. What I am certain of, is that it was great enough for him to need to hide it. I don't quite know him as much as I would like to, however. Listened to him playing the other day. Was unexpected; obvious outlet for pent up emotions. I'll chalk him up along with the others to make sure I keep an eye out for him.
Rayne McCutcheon:"Severe trauma dictates much of our actions. Growth is denying that trauma any foothold into our lives."Dribble/Notes: Was not expecting this. Many teachers had warned me countless times that this girl was a nuisance simply because she skipped classes. I looked up her records and the only bad remarks are that she skips class, yet they can't necessarily hold that against her: she aces these classes as if they were cake. Now, the unexpected situation that all of this landed me in. She actually attends my class and is rather enthralled by it.
1 Point Flynn.
0 Point Other Teachers.
I'm allowed to laugh sometimes.
This, however unexpected, gave me the opportunities to determine the cause of her habitual truancy. I'm certain it's not her bluntness and apparent lack of appreciation for authority figures. Could be wrong. There are a number of variables that could relate to her rebellious nature and why exactly she chose my class to attend the most. Possibly my lack of prominent authority; I tend to be more underhanded with my powers as a teacher than forward with it. She hasn't given me cause to target her. Exceptional student. But knows of said indirectness of my influence. Possibly takes well to such roundabout ways of dealing with unruly students.
Possible sadism. Doesn't pertain to studies. Further looking into parents: father rather famous/high in influence. Mother isn't really mother. Could point to issues as a whole, due to loss of mother in one way or another. Divorce? Death?
Infidelity...? Unsure of relationship with father. Do not ask. Subject could be touchy.
August. I'll use him to further my research. Sacrifices in the name of science.
James McNamara:"A hot-head hides insecurities as well as a glass box."Dribble/Notes: A few clear designations from cursory observations: needs glasses, needs to realize that glasses aren't associated with negativity, needs to learn what laser eye surgery is,
needs to try contacts. Witnessed the effect of contacts. Should stay away from them. Very much a social person. Though, has some key similarities in the way he acts to another student, Rayne. Could get along, but still have some blaring differences. Isn't astute in much aside from music, of which he has astounding talent for. Explosive anger, both correct and incorrect reactionary queues to certain questions or situations.
Another candidate in which I can use August to further my analysis. Never mind. Concluded that intrusiveness is a dead end. Very guarded about past; main reason for explosive nature. Could relate correlate with his disregard for the well-being of most people and rules as a whole.
Will look further into this when I have the time and the plan to do so.
Nate Dixon:"A heart on a sleeve is well prepared for the heartache it always entails. But what is and what ought to be are different things entirely."Dribble/Notes: Not highly noticeable. Willing to do too much for others without any gain or reward. Odd nature. Could be true the saying, "Those that smile the most have the most sorrow to hide," or something akin to the phrase. Cannot necessarily conclude this, but there's a lack of genuineness in his actions. Not out of malice, but out of distraction. People underestimate how much the eyes are able to subconsciously show such vulnerability and emotion. I guess people don't realize how adept I am at reading people. This is my life. But, I can't hold that against Nate, in particular; he's too kind to bring up my intrusiveness. Easy to take advantage of.
Will get to him later; keep my eye on him.
Julie Scott:"Society asks much of us. The greatest transgression is to fall prey to such forms of 'normalit.'"Dribble/Notes: Very studious. Could cause for unwanted and unneeded stress if leaks into overworking. Can see the effects of this in social life. Too constrained to meeting societal norms. Didn't notice me when I walked into the coffee shop she works at. Food is paid for at Caelbury, as is most everything, should you be given a full-ride as she. Doesn't represent the need for material goods. Conclusion is close. Saw her intermingling with those of supposed higher status; seems aloof from some of the conversation. Could see a deep yearning for involvement. Again, overstudy and overwork should be to blame for this behavior; possible propensity for hard work and determination leaking into social life. One should not need to work hard to find their niche. Looking in the wrong place for friendship, thus furthering her to burning out and becoming overly stressed. Will bring this up to her; seems keen on listening to intellectual inquiries, but will reserve judgment until further notice.
Cole Grimoire:"The world better rewards those who make their own opportunities. Luck gets you so far and is unreliable; the world appreciates the work you do, regardless of the supposed misfortunes that make life dynamic."Dribble/Notes: Cocky. Seems like a womanizer. Don't particularly care for his input in class, but he's a student, so he needs to learn. But, he got here on a lottery ticket, so I don't expect him to integrate well with most of the others, even if that seems a little prejudice. I don't see students other than students, but that's not how this environment works from a social standpoint. Holds something back. Saw him the other day on the ice. Should take advantage of that skill. Wondering why he doesn't. Self-doubt hidden by an overconfident exterior. If he wants to truly find his place in life, he may need to realize what's sitting in front of him, otherwise he'll be stuck in a mediocre, substandard world. Not out of lack of skills or money, but lack of direction in life.
August Marco:"The syndrome and mindset of a teenager is torn between adult expectations and adolescent boundaries. Strains the mind and confuses the soul."Dribblings/Notes: Severe inferiority complex; makes up for it through lying about skills and attributes, as well as unnecessary sarcasm. A smart ass, if I ever knew one. Doesn't yet realize that I find it very, very easy to see through. Amusing, but only for a fraction of a second. Fell asleep in class the other day. Drew a Hitler 'stache and compared his views to the topic of subject, as well as his flaws and his grades. Topic of subject: Totalitarian Mindset and Fascism. Bad day to fall asleep in my class. Vice Principal Hawthorne keeps asking me for his grades. I understand his concern. It's hard to get a bad grade in Intro to Philosophy as it requires few small essays and mainly participation. He lacks the will to fully integrate himself into class discussions; I make it known through both Hayden and my subtle quips directed toward him.
Few of my students understand, but that's understandable: my humor isn't of the average individual. Unnecessary notes.
Pushed his "buttons" one day. Found it was hard to tell me what for without downgrading to faulty insults. I don't find pleasure in making students realize their dilemmas, but I can't say I didn't enjoy watching him squirm angrily. Easy to aggravate, easier to frustrate.
Max Wallenberg:"A need to fill the void that boredom so inevitably brings is a need so undeniably filled by a yearning for the exotic, a constructed condition fitted into those of wealth and power."Dribble/Notes: One would think it odd for someone with such power and wealth be so swayed by his boredom as to mingle with those deemed lowlier than he. Uncertain of the gravity of this situation; does not bode well for future love life. Boredom in life often means boredom in sanctity, which often means unscheduled business trips. Many a man fall prey to the static feel of a stale marriage and find solace in the numerous corner trollops willing to pleasure for pay. His dilemma is no different than those of rich men who go through marriages and divorces like society goes through fashion trends. It's a matter of finding either a wife or husband that keeps his interest indefinitely or a hobby in which he can vent out the staleness of life through healthier means than infidelity.
Enjoys my class to a great degree. Enjoys books even more. It's a matter whether or not he runs through both subjects like he does the girls that toss themselves at his feat. Takes for granted the wealth and opportunities he has; does not know the true meaning of life, especially through eyes of those lower in class than he. A bankrupt father and a scornful mother would be the harshest lesson I can determine. Sometimes harsh lessons are required.
Possible cynicism detected. Oedipus keeps staring at me. Did I feed him today? Mindless drivel...
Wren Sinclair:"So many faces can be the attributed cause to such turmoil and strife."Dribble/Notes: A whole life turned on, you forget just how to turn yourself off. What it's like to feel normal. She has everything materially, but what is she without a name? What is anyone in this school but another person with a name plated in sterling silver and ivory? Seems too easily swayed by the opinions of those that look up to her. Could be attributed to some insecurities of her own. Not the best look on life to have. Further research required to find the perpetuating cause of such logic.
I think she realizes that if she ever tried to turn a paper in late for my class, she'd not sway my adamant policy through the proverbial batting of the eyelashes. I hope she realizes that my students are students, not famous movie stars, not the children of high-class politicians, and not wealth stacked princes/princesses of middle eastern shahs. They are students who want to learn and if they don't want to learn from me, then that's entirely their decision.
I'm reinforcing myself through writing these notes for no apparent reason. What am I reinforcing? Could lead to something I don't know. Mindless.
I've seen her in some of the plays. And I've seen her afterwards. Most actors I've had the pleasure of knowing through the years are more than capable of separating reality from fiction. Catherine is the exact opposite. She seems to delve too deeply, which could thus lead to a few psychological disorders that have been well hidden throughout her life. Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) is an iffy subject throughout the psychological sciences and I cannot base such assumptions on mild instances. I do, however, feel that there might be identity issues hidden deep within her. Further research would definitely be required, but it's nigh possible. The effects of having to keep oneself on in the public scene can have stressful impacts upon the psyche of an individual, especially of one so young with a still developing mind. My results are, so far, inconclusive, but I have a feeling this case is much like that of Acacia Hawthorne. Maybe correlating the two and delving deeper into familial issues and ties could result in further answers and could either prove or disprove my hypotheses.
Brenden Aldrin:"Upon a bed of wildflowers doth grow the sweet nectar of the Gods, tainted by the uninhibited glory of ruth and pity of the sublime human condition."Dribble/Notes: An unorthodox man. Has no place in a society like this; much too humble; much too kind; much too understanding.
Caught Dr. Hawthorne staring. I don't believe in love at first sight, but this is as close as I seem to have witness. Then again, sex is on the mind of all animals, humans especially. Unnecessary observation. Not too noteworthy. Should keep notes professional.
Possible desire in myself to have someone to further take care of. Past seems to repeat itself. Oedipus hissed at me for such furious scribbling. Back to the topic at hand. There isn't much aside from the oddity in which this man has placed himself in. He seems to do too much for too many people. Stretches himself thin when it isn't required of him. Life goes by fast, but to rush through induces a lack of gratitude to the wonderment of life itself. Haven't observed him enough yet to determine anything further. Might be too distracted, but could connect that to a certain Vice Principal. Would be fun to see where that is heading; the idea of romance is a touchy subject and contains many variables of which I may not be able to account for.
I like a challenge.
Hayden Hawthorne:"They say 'Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.' Rings true for a man of equal potential for such ruthlessness; pray he who holds such wrath know the consequences of losing the touch of humanity."Dribble/Notes: I may be the only person on this planet to have witnessed his fury. A teacher a few years back had spoken out against the formation of one his clubs, the LGBT one. I had walked in on it because he asked if he could use my office to accommodate the new students who signed up. Was in the process of gathering my paperwork and lesson plans, as well as Oedipus. He was silent throughout the whole ordeal, as was I, though the male who had opposed had opposed vigorously and extremely boisterously. Hayden handled it adeptly, but failed to hide the obvious flare in his eyes. I hadn't seen a man so angered before and I understood his anger; the man had said some very crass things that more than stepped over the line. He outright threatened to do some very offensive things to Hayden and his tween sister once she skipped another grade into high school. The teacher, I think he was an administrator for the entire board, wasn't heard from again. I'm certain he wasn't just a random face on a billboard; he was important, as evidence from the Valentino suit he wore. What I'm uncertain of was what exactly happened to him. I asked, reluctantly, about it once and got a grunt as a response, but after a few seconds he assured me the man was alive... just not happy to be.
Determining from the story above, Hayden has a nasty meanstreak, which I'm sure most people have. However, I sense a lot of pent up resent and anger inside that very amicable mind of his. Overbearing and overprotective. Could be from past experiences with parents. After delving deeper into Acacia's psyche, I stumbled upon a glorious stash of issues caused by overly neglectful parents and high standards that no real human could or would withstand without being somewhat scarred. Despite Hayden's obvious break from this and his content with his own life, as obvious from his normal demeanor, there's a sense that the man has some issues he more than needs to resolve. Traumatic experiences happen across the board and don't always deal with abusive parents, war zones, or psychotic instances. Psychological abuse is just as hefty as physical, as the mind is a very vulnerable piece of the human body. Hayden, unlike his sister, knows this. I can tell that much. But, a part of him, the overbearing grudge holding part, is wary and often doubts himself. Unfortunate, but a man like Dr. Hawthorne will most undoubtedly come to terms with such astounding flaws.
Flynn Zimmerman:"To know oneself is to be truly knowledgeable of the world around him."Dribble/Notes: Not much input, here. Uh... talking about myself is an iffy subject. I know what I want out of life and I know what gives me the most satisfaction and happiness. But that's not all it takes to know oneself. I guess, as I get older it'll become clearer. Maybe I mentally block my mind from learning its own inner workings. I'm still discovering this things...
Would be nice to have someone there to tell me.
My own subconscious necessities must be telling me something. Is it just a need for someone to take care of? Or is it the opposite? I've known only the special bond with both my cat and my mother, whom I still attempt to care for because... well, she's my mother. I think she knows more, but refuses to tell me out of a supposed confidentiality. She wants me to find out on my own. And I can't quite interrogate Oedipus either.Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop.
Alli Kendrick:"Great feats of strength lie in the smallest of decisions."Dribble/Notes: I was there when she had her turn around. I had joined the same year Hayden did, but I was less noticed—I prefer that—due to Hayden's last name. But, I knew of Ms. Kendrick pretty well from other teachers. I actually toured the Academy the school year prior, understand how it worked and what the students were like.
It's not required, but I wanted to make sure I integrated myself—Needless information. I saw what Alli was like before the school year ended: careless, coddled, loud, and an agitation. I took note of that, if I can find it somewhere in here. Regardless, when she came to me prior to fully starting classes, something seemed to click in her mind. Being reserved and rather quiet, I naturally just nodded and listened. I indirectly helped her, but she somehow found out. Her careless, party going nature really did well to hide her intellect.
I didn't expect her to become a teacher, however. Possibly out of need to repay previously helpful teachers or to help students who found themselves in her situation. Still to be determined.
Eliza Herring:"Unyeilding determination can often be mistaken for blind ambition."Dribble/Notes: By far one of the more interesting
specimens students—made a slip up the other day calling a student a 'specimen' and I got reprimanded by our fair lady Adira. It amused me to no end; she didn't take well to my smirk. Regardless of what moniker I use, Eliza is an incredibly interesting individual. She looks astonishingly like her father and not in regards to features, but in the way she holds herself and expresses very little, except in instances regarding polite consideration she puts up. I've had her in various classes before. She's a good student, no doubt, who appreciates my methods of teaching. It took a while, but I can safely assume I know more about her than most people care to proclaim. There's a deep fire in her eyes. She does well to hide the ferocity of her determination.
Family resembles the Hawthornes in more ways than one. Would say another 'Acacia' case, but along the road, Eliza branched off.
Would care to study such instances to determine where the fork lies and how it came to be. Where that divide was is another matter entirely. Striking similarities with buried differences. Acacia does well to perfect herself for others; Eliza does well to perfect herself for... herself. I would applaud her if that didn't necessarily get me scowls of disapproval from other adults. She isn't a wallflower by any means, but she's just as good at hiding her insecurities—her goals even. Approaching her over the years with school work, her essays and other needless academic formalities, confirmed her distant and distrusting nature. I feel it's among the reasons she is so well entrenched within herself. The key to her inner workings are for her hands only. Which is why I'm glad I myself am so hard to read.
There's resolve in her, one completely opposite of Acacia's but somehow similar, almost indistinguishable. Efficient to a fault. Entirely blind to anything that isn't useful or required to get her to her destination. What that is? Perfection. Perfection not for others, but for herself. To put herself upon her own pedestal. No display case for anyone to see. Her own self-worth and strength that she can rely upon. Undeniably selfish from an average individual's point of view. Terribly sad from my own... to need that much reassurance to become as cold and calculating as that and to have so little faith in others as to only rely and need herself. If anything, her parents should be ashamed. But, I save my pity and sorrows for people who actually need it. Eliza needs nothing in regards to condolences or sympathy and will gladly scoff at anyone who would give her any.
Such an interesting... uh, person. However, notes are still inconclusive. These are all hypotheses that need to be thoroughly tested and with only a year left. Hm, guess I have to start working. Musing over the contents of an unknown shell is one thing, but cracking it is another thing entirely. A fun thing, if I do say so myself.