Jax watched her smile. The blooms of all those flowers floating in the moonlight faded against her sudden relaxed smile. And as if that wasn’t enough she leaned against and close her eyes. There was a softness in her face and the way her hair touched his neck, that made him hold his breath a few seconds. He pulled his arm around her and watched her fall asleep.
Then he cursed himself, the moon, and the smell of all those mocking flowers. What was he doing? How could he let this happen? He never thought she would just fall asleep in his arms. He never thought he would tumble into that smile so completely. Cold water tits! He let his eyes roll to the moon. How could his lady moon let this happen?
Men and women can not be friends. Jax knew this. Every guy would take that closeness and find his way under that skirt. Or, ok, pants, in this case pants. He was trying to be nice and look what happens. She falls asleep and he has to sit there touching her, smelling her, thinking about her. She sleeps. He suffers.
Didn’t he tell himself to stay away from the sea witches? Yet as soon as he sat beside her in that Inn something smacked his silly head with ideas of being friendly, nice, kind. What was he thinking! He wanted her to see the flowers. He really did. He was looking forward to seeing her face. He really was. Jax just had no idea her smile would stir him and twist everything all around. He didn’t know the feel of her beside him, all soft and relaxed, would stiffen him up so painfully hard he was sure he would never sleep. He knew he would remember the simple feel of her even back in his hammock on the ship. He would be there with a book in his hands and he would think of her.
Damn! How did he let this happen?
Well he could just jump up and run. He could leave her here. She was a big independent bad ass sea witch after all. Practical tactical. She would shrug him off and find her way home just fine. No doubt about that.
But Jax realized he didn’t want to leave her. No, he wanted to hold her and suffer, dumb ass that he was turning into. Yes, this was his lesson. He would pretend he slept. Pretend there was nothing to this night beside this confusing, pant wearing commander whom he should not even be with. Simple, dimple, nothing doing, just a night sitting by the Night Blooms. Sure, sure, how did he let this happen?
And when the sun finally did chase the night away Jax didn’t stir at all. He listened to the birds and watched the night blooms close their scented petals. He didn't lean over and kiss the top of her hair. He didn’t stare at her rough fingers or the stretch of her legs. Well, he did, but not as much as he wanted. No, no, Jax fought his urges for one of the first times of his life. And damn it, he didn't like it at all!
As she stirred he found himself hoping she would smile again. Please smile again. But then maybe she shouldn’t. Either way when her eyes fluttered open he tilted his head and smiled to her.
“I have to piss.” He lifted his arm, sure she would find him disgusting all over again. That might make it easier. But, damn, Jax knew it wouldn’t. Instead of just pushing her off he gently unwrapped his arm.
As he stood and walked into the sugar cane, he called back to her, as if now that he wasn’t beside her, now that he couldn’t see her, now he could be the fool she expected, “You were great!" He shouted back as he leaned into this stream. "Not that you remember.But then again, neither do I.”