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Lucien could not help but chuckle at the man's words. They were ironic, because he found the man to be anything but transparent, at least in certain things. Surely he was only transparent on the things he wanted to be known. He simply gestured his approval as the magician asked to see it. The Ringleader tended to practice when he had some time to spare, but it had been quite a few days since he had last played either instrument, he had been too busy handling their financial situation.

"It's a fascinating instrument." It allowed him to express so much with such little words, though he supposed music did that for him in general.

At his comment, the Ringleader let out a laugh. "No, no, of course not. My hat is not nearly as convenient as your suitcase. It's covered and very well kept at the Big Top, since it's mostly where it's played. I prefer not to move it around too much once we've settled in town, instruments can be quite fragile." Considering they were on the road all the time, he liked to leave as little room for error as possible when it came to that piano. It had been a very expensive purchase, but not one he ever regretted. Both instruments had been with him a long time, as he would often play for Illy and Aurel when they were younger, and Faolan as well. It was.. nostalgic.
At Faolan's response, Lucien's hands began to move again, though much quicker than before as he changed into his suit, letting silence drift over for a moment. It was only then that he turned around to face him. There were still.. so many things he wanted to say to him. Despite everything.. Lucien was incredibly relieved and happy to see Faolan here again. It was like a heavy weight that had been lifted off his chest, knowing that he was safe, to see that he had come back in the end.. but there were still things he wanted to know, but he stopped himself from asking the barrage of questions he wanted to ask.

Lucien had always been a selfless person, and Faolan's well-being had always been important to him. He wasn't going to be angry with him for wanting some time to himself, but it made him worry about what that time had done for him. He had returned.. so did that mean he had figured things out? He was unsure of that was a good or a bad thing.. but he was willing to accept whatever answer Faolan would give him at this point, if it meant he could save their friendship.

"Did that help?" He asked, doing his best to not sound upset. He genuinely, truly hope that it did, because it had done the complete opposite for him. These last two months on his own had been filled with nothing but anxiousness and paranoia over what happened between them, worrying over how this might have affected their friendship. if Faolan had left for this reason, then he sincerely hoped that the Irishman had fared better than he. He was beginning to suspect that Faolan's first instinct when things became too complicated was to run away, but he really wished he had stayed and that they could have talked things out before he had gone, but there was no point in lingering on that anymore. Faolan was here now, so maybe now he'd have that chance.
For a moment it was easy to forget the anguish he had felt these past two months during Faolan's absence. Just having him here standing in front of him right now.. it was so relieving he didn't even know how to express it. He felt himself relax, just a little. He had.. really began to think that maybe he wouldn't come back, but he was glad he had decided to stay.. to wait for him. There was a hint of a smile at Faolan's lips, but it was gone just as quickly as he had seen it. He couldn't even be sure whether he had imagined it or not, but he didn't care. Faolan was here. He was back.

"I can see that..." He said, considering the man's current state. It didn't really seem like Faolan had seen civilization in well.. since he had left. It had been many years since he had seen the man like this. At a first glance, it didn't seem like he had been hurt in any way, even if there were a few cuts and tears in his clothes. Once he was completely sure the man was fine, he finally brought himself to move toward his door. It was best they didn't continue to linger in the hallway. Quickly he made his way to his door and unlocked it, motioning the Irishman inside. There were.. a lot of things running through his head right, now that he had registered the fact Faolan was back. There were so many things he wanted to do.. wrap his arms around him, demand to know why it had taken so long to return.. and most of all, want to know whether it had been because of what happened.. there had been too many things he had been worried about while the man was gone, but he wasn't sure now was the time to bombard him with questions, not when he had to head out to his next shift soon.

He walked into the room, one that had been intended for two people from the very beginning. He hadn't thought Faolan would take so long to come back, so he had gotten this one with the intention of having it ready for his return. He hadn't seen the point in changing to a room with a single bed, just in case the Irishman had decided to come back at any moment.. and well, here he was. Half the room was occupied with some of the things he had brought from the trailer. In his time here he had spent much more time in the room than back then. It was still tidy, but the table that would usually be used to have breakfast had a variety of books on top of them, ones he had grabbed from the bookstore. There were also two bottles of whiskey, one that had already been half consumed. There were even a couple books on the nightstand next to his bed and the lamp that was placed there. Lucien had found any way to keep himself busy while he was home, and he know seemed more weary than he used to, not really having been getting as much sleep as he should have. He didn't like allowing his thoughts to wander.

"Well.. I'm glad you're back. I brought a couple changes of clothing on your behalf when I first got this room, so feel free to go wash up and change.. your key is on the table.." He said, before heading over to his bed, having already had the next set of clothes he'd be changing into on top. When working with Marcel, since it was a more fancy establishment, he was usually made to wear a suit. That wasn't really something he had a reason to do often, so it had certainly been a bit of a change of pace. As he began to unbutton his shirt, facing away from the Irishman, he slowed his movements, his eyebrows furrowing. There was no way he couldn't just leave without knowing.

"Why.. did it take so long? I.. was worried.. I thought something had happened to you.. For a time I thought maybe you weren't going to come back.." He said quietly, knowing the Irishman would hear him.
Clearly Cora was going to look at this in the most positive manner she could, but it was obvious Illyana disagreed with her, and she did to. Whatever it was that Geralt wanted, that was definitely not it, Ivory was sure of it. She supposed whatever time they would be forced to spend together would be a good opportunity to get more of a read on him after all. Deciding it was best they dropped this conversation before Geralt returned, Ivory reached out and took a card from Aurel, dropping the set as she had formed a pair.

"Well, enough about that, shall we continue playing?" Ivory asked.

"Ah.. yes.. we should." Aurel spoke up, glad to change the subject. He glanced around the table, reluctant to take from Akane considering her earlier reaction to Geralt, and decided to take from Cora instead, managing a pair.

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Lucien raised an eyebrow. "Well, I'm glad you are not worried, but I do appreciate you letting me know of your intentions." He was definitely not the type of man who would just sit by and let Ivory push him around, and it was the same for the dhampir as well. He'd simply have to see how it went.

"I am not surprised to hear you sound so confident. One of your many traits I'm sure." He said a little amusingly, before contemplating his question. For a moment he considered keeping his performance to himself, but then he decided there was no point. He didn't want to go out of his way to make the man any more curious about him by not answering his question. There was no need for mysteries on his end.

He chuckled. "Well it's not really a secret, so I don't mind telling you. Cora and I open the show. Last time we were here I accompanied her singing with my violin, but this time I shall be playing the piano, for a bit of variety." He said. Lucien had been careful in how he planned the order of the show. Since they had lost their acrobats a lot of their acts were more entertainment and music focused, which were fine for now. Cora's voice was beautiful, and it was a good way to put the crowd at ease. He actually quite enjoyed accompanying her singing as well. Prior to her joining the circus he hadn't really found a need to perform himself. He was fine with throwing more of the attention toward his performers, but considering their current situation he did what he could, and it ended up working out. Plus, it gave him a reason to play his instruments aside from the times he used them as... stress relief.
Lucien didn't speak, golden eyes only following the Irishman as he made his way over to his bed. His eyebrows furrowed as he spoke, but he couldn't bring himself to argue with him. Not about this, that was something that had been established long ago. He never complained when Faolan said it was time for him to go, he had promised he'd never let anything like that happen again and he had abided by it. Even if he didn't want him to leave right now, there was nothing he could to do stop him, but he still couldn't help the nervousness he felt as he asked him to make sure they would still be meeting up. He just.. didn't like leaving things like this. The Irishman's response had provided him with a bit of reassurance, but it hadn't really lasted very long.

He had made a head start of his own, seeing no need to remain in this town any longer. He had made short stops in other towns before he had finally made his way to Green Bay. There was an anxiousness in the back of his mind that he could not ignore through his entire journey. The fact that he couldn't talk to Faolan about what happened had been bothering him this entire time, worried about Faolan possibly getting wrong idea or coming to his own conclusions.. but there was nothing he could do now except wait for him to return.

Upon arrival, it didn't take long for Lucien to adjust. It was normal for him to adjust to new cities fairly quickly. His personality made it easy for him to find a job or places to help out. As the days went by, he had found that the longer he remained unoccupied, the more often his thoughts would trail back to Faolan. Since he had realized how he felt about him.. he found himself missing him more and more as the days went by, especially when his absence hit the three week mark. Lately Faolan had been better about coming back earlier but.. this time was different. He couldn't help but think it might have been because of what happened... and his anxiousness only grew. The fact that there was nothing he could do except wait was nerve-wracking. To keep himself occupied, Lucien began to take on double shifts, having gotten a job at a Bookstore during the day and then working at the bar at night. It was the best thing he could do to try get the Irishman off his mind.

During one of his late night shifts, he happened to encounter another Frenchman at the bar, a fugitive from the war. After his shift was over, they had engaged in conversation, since it had been a while since he had last encountered someone who had just recently been in his homeland. His name was Marcel. His family had owned quite the large vineyard for wine, but it had been trashed by the Germans during the war. They had salvaged whatever they had and left France before things got any worse. It had been truly a shame to hear about, but Lucien had been glad to hear that no harm had come to his family. He had opened a fancy wine bar in town, and had asked him if he wanted to work there as a sommelier. Unfortunately Lucien turned him down, telling him that he wasn't knowledgeable enough for the job. This had resulted in a conversation that involved Lucien vaguely explaining his upbringing and lack of knowledge of such things. However, he was more than willing to learn.

Marcel decided to do his best in training him for the job. This included explaining everything in regards to the productions of wine, how it was made, and some other facts about the different tastes, flavors, and the etiquette the other Frenchman had not been as familiar with. He was glad to have received this knowledge, and had ended up agreeing to take up his offer of work. Considering how long ago it had been since he had left France.. there was a nostalgia he felt about being able to talk about it again, and even get to learn more about it. They had actually become good friends during his stay, something that usually Lucien had never gotten to achieve because he and Faolan had never lingered in a town enough to do so. Faolan had always said it was much harder to move on when you made such connections.. but what could he do? By the time it had hit a one month mark, Lucien wasn't even sure of what course of action to take. Move on? Stay? They hadn't agreed on a back up destination.. and even though Faolan had always found his way back to him, no matter where he had gone, part of him didn't want to risk leaving, not this time.

And so the Frenchman waited. The more days passed however, even with the lessons Marcel would give him, he could still feel his worry for Faolan tugging at the back of his mind. Working more no longer helped him, and it had even began to distract him at times. What if something had happened? He couldn't imagine anyone really being able to hurt the Irishman but.. what he if got himself into trouble? Or had simply decided to not return? He couldn't but begin to regret the fact that he hadn't pushed that conversation they never got to have.. to make sure of how Faolan felt about the situation.. to reassure him everything was fine. He had never imagined anything could really ruin their friendship, the trust they had built up to this point.. but maybe he had been wrong. These thoughts began to haunt him. Thinking that everything they had gone through together could go down the drain just because he decided he wanted to try a drink with him.. it was heart-wrenching.

It was during one of the nights he had been consumed with these thoughts that Lucien returned home with a bottle of whiskey. Water of life, as Faolan had called it. The drink that flowed through his veins. It was a thought he still found to be poetic.. and despite the strong taste, it made him feel like he was closer to the Irishman who still had not returned halfway through the second month. He had found himself drinking it a little too often.. but it was during one of the harsh mornings he realized he had overdone it that he discovered his healing ability could help cleanse the effects of drunkenness. A dangerous discovery, but one that helped build up the Frenchman's tolerance to alcohol. Occasionally he and Marcel would go out to drink after his bar closed, and the other Frenchman would comment on how impressed he was with how well he had now come to hold his drink. Another random skill the Frenchman had obtained.

Lucien's days had practically become a routine. Bookstore during the day, working with Marcel at night. His knowledge of wine had become vast, but that wasn't the only thing he did there anymore. Once Marcel learned of his talents with instruments, on occasion he would have him play the piano to set the mood. This was something he had learned long ago, when he lived with the church. He was glad to have been able to put that talent to use again. The Frenchman did not get too much sleep in between, but that was okay with him. Life on the road had gotten him accustomed to such things. If anything it felt weird to just.. settle down in a town for so long.

The nephilim was snapped out of his thoughts as he had almost ran into someone on the streets, quickly apologizing as he made his way to the boarding house. He had just gotten off from the Bookstore, and was on the way to change his clothes and head to Marcel's. As he entered the 'lobby' for the home, the landlord called out to him.

"Lucien, someone stopped by to see you." He called out, causing the Frenchman to pause.

"Who was it?" He asked. It wasn't common for people to really come looking for him at his home.

"Not sure, said' he was a friend of yours. Big Irish man. He might be waitin' outside your room. It's not gonna cause any problems is it?" He asked.

At this, Lucien slightly narrowed his eyes. "No, not at all." His words left his mouth very quickly as he wasted no time in almost running past the landlord to head up to his room. Faolan was back? It had been two months since he left, and he hadn't heard anything from him all this time. As he entered the hallway he saw him there, standing next to his door, leaning against the wall. He almost froze in place, for a moment almost doubting what he was seeing.. but no, it was him.

"Faolan.." He called out, before finally bringing himself to move. "Where... where have you been? Are you okay? Did anything happen?" His words were rushed, his expression a mixture of worry and relief at finally being able to see the Irishman again.

Lucien let out a heavy sigh at Faolan's response. That wasn't what he had asked for at all. It was fine if he didn't want to have a conversation, but he just wanted him to stop avoiding glancing in his direction or even looking him in the eye. It was a little frustrating, in all honesty. He was the one who had.. initiated that kiss. If he was going to act like this then why did he do it? Had it simply been the alcohol? Did he think it so horrible that he didn't even want to think about it? He just didn't know anymore. Even he was having a hard time reading the Irishman in his moment, and he was sure Faolan was doing that on purpose. He set his fork down, having lost his appetite.

"I wasn't asking to talk, it's clear you don't want to. I just wanted you to stop avoiding my gaze." He muttered. It was all he could really say at this point.
"Yes, of course!" Akane replied to Cora, her usual bright smile forming at her lips again.

Aurel glanced between all the women as they spoke. He hadn't really expected the conversation to take such a turn.. but he was at least relieved to know that Akane and Cora would be a little more careful from now on. It at put his mind a little more at ease. He at least knew that if the two women became aware of danger, they would defend themselves accordingly.

"We can all look out for each other, it's what we do." He said, pausing for a moment. "And Lucien too." He added.

"I agree. He still has his eyes on him." Ivory muttered, causing Akane to glance over at her.

"I know what you said earlier about Geralt's.. intentions with Lucien, but why are you so concerned? Isn't Lucien more than capable of defending himself?" Akane asked. She had seen what the ringleader could do for herself. He was an intelligent man, and he was also very strong and quick on his feet. She wasn't sure where the worry was coming from.

At this, Aurel glanced at Illy, unsure of what to say. There were many reasons for them personally to want Geralt nowhere near Lucien, they knew that the ringleader had someone else on his mind. He was just worried that it would somehow end up with Lucien getting hurt emotionally. He was a very kind individual, but his politeness could easily get him into trouble. Over the years he had seen how much Faolan's lack of return had affected him. He was unsure of Geralt showing these kinds of intentions with him would end up stirring anything in him after all this time. It was hard to know for sure, and he didn't really want to bring it up to him if he didn't have to, especially considering the full moon was about a week away.

--

It wasn't surprising that Geralt would have expected this, Ivory clearly disliked him after all. Normally one would try to keep the problem children away from each other, but that was not the case here. He trusted Ivory would do what she had to, while also not allowing the man to get away with too much. Despite her dislike of him, he believed in her capability to maintain a balance, for the good of the show.

"That is not something you will have to worry about. Ivory would never give a half-assed show. If the end goal is the same, I'm sure you two will be able to work it out. She might be a little sharp-tongued, she does not personally have anything against you. You simply.. aggravate a general bias in her that she has a hard time keeping in check. This practice time can be used for her to get to know you a little better, this is only your first day after all. There's a long road ahead." He said.

Despite the fact Geralt didn't seem like he'd want to start anything, he knew the moment Ivory gave him that opening it would become a series of back and forths between them, he had already seen it for himself. He was hoping the conversation he had with the dhampir would help things go a little more smoothly between them. He'd just have to see.

Lucien was snapped out of his thoughts by Faolan's return. The man had wasted no time in making his way to the table and beginning to eat. The Frenchman made his way over to the table and sat across from the man, taking note of how keen he was on eating his food.

"Thank you." He said before he began to eat as well. There were too many thoughts swirling through his mind to focus much on the taste of his food. Usually they held some small form of conversation while in the process of eating their food, but that was clearly not the case this time. This awkwardness was beginning to bother him. He understood if Faolan didn't want to talk about it, but could he not even bear to look in his direction? Did he regret things that much? It was that train of thought that finally brought him to speak up.

"Faolan." He spoke up. "Look at me." His tone wasn't harsh, but it he couldn't help himself.

"I understand if you don't wish to talk about it, but please don't avoid me." He said, eyebrows furrowing a little.
Lucien noticed Faolan's lack of eye contact almost immediately. In fact.. it seemed like he was avoiding looking at him completely, and there was something about it that made him a lot more anxious, but he really couldn't bring himself to argue with him. He supposed he was right.. considering their current throbbing headaches.

"If you say so..." He said, attempting to hide his disappointment. The Irishman wasted no time in leaving after that, and the Frenchman finally brought himself to stand. He wanted to bathe and change into fresh clothing, but he decided he would just wait for Faolan to go to do that, and simply buttoned up his shirt once more to make himself more presentable.

He couldn't help but worry about the composure Faolan was showing. Things were.. awkward, and he didn't like it. It had been a really long time since Lucien had felt it hard to talk to Faolan about something.. but at the same time.. what should he say? He knew he wanted to know how Faolan felt about it.. but it seemed to him just based off of the attitude he was showing that he most likely regretted it. It hurt to think that, and it made him conflicted about the whole thing. It was a little unfair of him.. to do this and then want to pretend it never happened without considering his feelings. He shook his head, but quickly realized what a mistake that was as the throbbing hit him harder. It was definitely going to be a long morning.
Aurel lifted his gaze to look at Illy, comforted by her smile and actions, and it allowed him to relax a little. Honestly not having his snakes with him was difficult. Even if he was walking across the grounds, he never felt like he was alone. They helped make him feel safer, but not having them around was a little nerve-wracking. It had certainly been a while.. but having Lucien and Illy around helped with that. The others too, really. Over the years he had been able to become a bit more comfortable with people, but this situation with Geralt made him feel wary again, though it wasn't his own safety that concerned him in this instance.

Akane had continued to be silent as everyone shared their opinions on the situation. It was after Cora spoke that she had finally decided to voice her opinion. "I agree with Cora. I think I might understand where your snakes are coming from, Aurel. When I first shook Geralt's hand.. it sent a shudder up my spine. It was like.. my instinct was telling me to get away. It was a little scary, yes.. but I don't want to judge the man too harshly. It's possible to be blind to the goodness in people just as much as it is the bad, is it not? I think he deserves a chance. Isn't that why Lucien founded this circus? To give people like us second chances?" The kitsune questioned.

Ivory could not deny being a little surprised by both Cora and Akane's words. She knew the two women were intelligent, but she hadn't expected them to respond in this way. As much as she didn't want to admit it, their arguments were sound. That was Lucien's purpose behind this whole operation.. and she more than anyone appreciated being given that chance despite the thing she had done, and what she was. Who knows what would have awaited her if Lucien and Illyana had not found her? She didn't want to think about it. With that, she let out a heavy sigh. It seems they had underestimated the two women.

"I understand where you two are coming from. We.. will all be able to form appropriate opinions of him with time, one way or another. All I ask is that you be vigilant. I'm just.. worried." The dhampir trailed off as she spoke, not used to being so open about such things.

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Lucien had been left to his thoughts once Ivory took her leave. He wondered whether their talk would change the way the dhampir treated the magician, but honestly he wasn't sure. He couldn't force her to, and he wouldn't either, but he hoped that she would take some of his advice. It would probably be easier to figure him out of she was slightly less hostile toward him. He supposed he would just have to see.

Eyes trailed toward the door as he heard a quick knock, though he wasn't really given much of a chance to respond as Geralt had quickly made his way inside.

"Ah, yes.. Please take a seat." He said, waiting for the man to do so before speaking up again.

"You've already got the gist of how things work around here, but I never really mentioned the last day to you, I figured it was a good chance to do that." He said, straightening up a little on his chair.

"On our last day here, our shows run a little differently. Instead of the usual single performances, we actually do all of them in succession, and people have a chance to see everyone's shows in a sequence, even I partake." He explained. "This of course, requires a bit of practice in making the transitions between each act go as smoothly as possible. I feel yours would be a good closer, which would mean you would be performing after Ivory. This of course.. would require you two to take some time to practice before the big day." Lucien's tone was calm, showing no reflection of his previous worry of how the dhampir would react to this decision.

"I assume this won't be a problem?" He asked. Unlike with Ivory, there wasn't really any room for argument in his tone. He knew that there was no way Geralt would not agree to this, considering the behavior he had shown so far, but he also wanted to make sure he wouldn't be causing any of the problems, having noticed his tendency to like to test Ivory's patience.

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