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@Akayaofthemoon Yeah... one of the big things I've always heard and assumed was true was that the way you know you're in love is when you develop that subtle way of communicating with someone where they just understand you perfectly, so much so that maybe you don't even need words. I think it sounds really sweet but I can live without it. I wish I could say I totally see what you mean but it seems like something you'd have to know from experience.

Also wow, it's extremely late. I should probably be getting the rest of my sleep but more importantly you really need to get all of yours! Maybe I'll be able to talk more on this tomorrow or something.

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@Akayaofthemoon Well, I'm really pleased to hear that things are going so well for you then. All that stuff you just said was like, incredibly heartwarming and sweet. I don't know exactly how to describe it, but I'm really glad you found someone who makes you so happy and have such a great relationship going. I guess it's a little bit corny to say (I guess this group is no stranger to that though, at this point) but it really warms my heart when you guys talk about how happy you are for any reason.

I don't know.... I mean, since we're sharing, I'll say that the only relationship I've ever been in was pretty much a giant 'meh.' It's mostly a blur to me now, but just like literally every other relationship I've had with people my own age, family included, it was ruined by their persistence about using drugs. The last straw for me walking away was when they screamed at me and refused to touch me or look at me for most of a day, literally just because I told them I was done with that life, if that gives you any idea what type of relationship it was. Part of me still cares for the individual because I want them to be okay, but I don't miss that relationship for a second, it doesn't even occur to me to.

I think I agree with you, I guess I'm not really well informed enough yet to say. I don't think I've ever felt actual romantic love before. I can definitely see how you're most likely right on both points though.

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@Akayaofthemoon I can't say how sorry I am that happened to you, but I'm really happy to see that you're moving past it. Absolutely don't take anything he said to heart, I guarantee he didn't see anything in you besides something he could turn into an insecurity he could exploit, because that's what people like that do. Please don't blame yourself either. I know it's hard, I blamed myself for a long time too. I felt like I failed to protect my family from someone who was blatantly taking advantage of us. Some of what you just described was literally me for years, right up to the lying to keep the peace because you genuinely believed that your parent was happy. The truth is that there isn't anything you could have done, the only person to blame in that situation is the person manipulating you.

I don't know, I'm sure you've heard it all before but I felt like you deserved some encouragement, and hell if I can't totally relate to your story.

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@Akayaofthemoon It wasn't weird but now I'm afraid you'll be asleep before I get to say anything back, and I feel like something that you clearly put a lot of thought into deserves a response... I know it was probably more for Loony than for me but eh.... for now just know that I read it. I'm also really, really sorry to hear your mom was with an abusive person, I know that pain all too well.

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@Loony You're great too, and I liked your post! It should be fun responding too, I can't wait to try my hand at socially awkward Chromite. Good night!

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@Akayaofthemoon Definitely! Also good night, get some good rest and stuff!

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@Loony I sincerely hope people in your life are better at balancing things than the people in mine... they probably will be, honestly. In recent years I've learned that I have a real tendency to expose myself to people who use me and kick me to the curb, but it's probably best not to talk about that... this thread is already emo enough as it is. Looking back on it the only one I still feel that I have a right to still be angry about is my mom's abusive boyfriend/husband because I was still just a kid and had no choice in being dragged along for that one, but I've come to understand that it wasn't her fault. I'm sure that growing up in a home like that hasn't exactly given me the best view of relationships, to be honest.

@Akayaofthemoon I guess I'd sort of be like the official RP mortician. I'll get to work on writing some funny Spinel parts, Halloween should be pretty hilarious if I can do it right.

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@Akayaofthemoon -joins hug because why not- It's a little morbid but I could volunteer to write any future character deaths if need be. For what it's worth I Think you did a good job being Howlite for the brief time you had to post as her. Sorry you had to go through that, but I'm sure some happy parts are coming soon too.

Also should anyone but Blood and Aqua be able to warp yet? Aquamrine already gave some okay instructions and said that they were about to take turns warping home in person so I assume I could have warped, but I wanted to get reactions from everyone first.

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If Spinel had ever had a nightmare to know what one was, she could honestly say seeing Bloodstone stand there with Aquamarine's gem, immediately after another one had just been destroyed, was her worst. She was shocked when Bloodstone handed her Aquamrine's gem with no explanation as to why, just orders to go home. "Th-thank you..." she managed to stammer out. It was unsatisfying, but that was all she could think of to say. "I'll pay you back for this, I'm sure you'll need me to someday." Feeling like she didn't owe Bloodstone- or at least that she wouldn't owe him forever- was important right now, as Spinel needed as few things on her mind as possible.

She fought hard to maintain her composure and not get emotional, not now. She found something like a pouch in her clothing and carefully tucked Howlite's shards away, but she kept Aquamarine in her hand. The constant confirmation that Aqua was still there helped keep Spinel together. She walked back to the warp pad, which she had only moved so many paces away from and stood there.

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Just so you know I didn't see Kronshi's post until after I made mine just now.