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Broken Glass [Dark Wind & Blitz]

well i did. and you listened. so… awkward.

ahem. anyways. it is my turn. but… idk what to write. continue the scene or do a time jump, or a combination.

Broken Glass [Dark Wind & Blitz]

Landon's stomach did a backflip when he Kaelyn mentioned Caligo Lake. He had countless memories associated with that place. They nearly overwhelmed him from just hearing the word. But he decided to be cool about it. The past was the past, after all.

"I'm proud of you for making such big changes to your life," Landon replied, addressing the most important thing she had said first.

"I wouldn't mind stopping by ol' Camp Caligo either," he said, flashing her a perhaps overexaggerated smile. "I wonder what's going on there during the winter."

Kaelyn felt like her stomach was in her throat waiting to hear what Landon would say. It relieved her so much to see the smile on his face. She nodded to what he said. They were big changes, but they were the right ones.

"Well, probably not very much. No campers or anything. I wonder if anyone just watches over it. It probably won't be as hot as the summer." Kaelyn said, right before her devilish mind sent a playful smirk to her face.

"In that case we could just heat the place up," She laughed, "Kidding kidding... Maybe." Kaelyn giggled a bit more. "But yeah, I don't know. I just want to see it. Can't really explain it, ya know?"

Landon nodded his head. "No, I get it, I get it," he said. "For... nostalgic reasons, I guess."

"Can we watch the sunset? At our spot..." Kaelyn cut in. "I mean... If that's okay with you."

Landon stopped and raised his eyebrows at her curiously. His heart sped up for a second, and he wasn't sure what he should say to that. He was afraid to go with her. Well, not so much afraid as uncomfortable. But, logically speaking, there couldn't possibly be any harm done going there... Right?

"Well, sure, I guess..." Landon said somewhat reluctantly. "It's certainly been a while since we've watched the sun set there, huh?"

The butterflies stirred all around her stomach, but in a good way. Kaelyn flashed a bright smile at him. She was trying hard to contain her excitement, but asking him had been so nervewracking that when he finally said yes it didn't matter anymore.

"It's been too damn long!" Kaelyn said, "I promise not to be a total bitch this time." Kaelyn rushed her hands to her mouth. She really had a bad habit of letting words fly before thinking about it.

"I mean yeah... Too long," This was a disaster, she really needed to move on to the next topic, "What are you doing for the Winter Ball?"

Landon was confused for a second but grinned as he could see she was nervous. He didn't quite pick up what she had unintetionally hinted at—perhaps it was all the adrenaline flowing—but he didn't really mind.

"Oh nothing really special," Landon said, looking down as he was about to answer what he had silently hoping she wouldn't ask about. "I had actually planned... since a while ago," he wanted to put extra emphasis on the fact that it wasn't recent, "to go with Katrina... You know, just for fun."

Kaelyn was happy that he didn't push it any further and just went with the topic that she threw out there. Her smile dropped, but only slightly when he informed her he was going with Katrina and that they had planned it before.

She couldn't be upset with him or Katrina for that.

"Oh that's cool. I should probably talk to her soon. I mean we texted a bit while I was away. But she is helping me plan the ball and organize it and everything. Uh, anyway. I was going to ask you to go with me, but I think I'll just go all Beyonce Single lady on this one." She laughed.

"Sorry," Landon said quietly. But he knew Kaelyn would have just as much fun going stag, if not more fun. She was just the type of person who knew how to have a good time, even without a date.

"I didn't know you were planning it though," he added quickly to change the subject. "Is that why you want to pursue event planning?"

"Mm, partially. That and I've thrown parties before and I don't know. I just have fun organizing things and seeing it all come together is kinda fun. Hard to explain."

Landon nodded. "I feel ya," he said. He pulled out the last article of clothing from her suitcase, a pair of folded, faded jeans. He handed them to Kaelyn with a sigh. Something still didn't feel quite right between them... But what was it? Finally, Landon thought he found the answer.

"Kaelyn," he said to her. "I'm sorry. About everything."

Before she had time to say another word, he reached forward and hugged her close.

There was a brief silence between them, and then suddenly with Landon's words, a whole bunch of things started pouring into her mind. But, the sudden hug made it all wash away calmly.

His embrace was warm. Kaelyn let herself wrap her arms around him. She put her head into his shoulder.

"Thank you... I'm sorry too."

He continued to hold her in his arms for a few more seconds until he pulled away slowly. For a moment, their entire relationship flashed through his mind. It all seemed like a big psychological and emotional mess. He didn't want to remember it in that way...

She hoped he would remember for little things like this hug, or moments where they were just quiet, side by side watching sunsets as clouds slowly drifted by. Kaelyn didn't want Landon to remember as the girl who had put him through hell and back.

"Um..." Kaelyn started, "I want to go to Caligo because..." she almost started to choke up, "Because I don't want you to remember me as some bitch... but for moments... moments like this one right now."

Landon was stunned. He could see she was on the verge of tears, real tears. For a moment, he couldn't find the right words to say.

"Kaelyn, I... I won't remember you as just some bitch..." he said, feeling himself coming close to tears too. "You're so much more than that to me..."

Kaelyn looked up at him, those words meant so much. "Do you mean that?"

Landon nodded shakily. He knew if he spoke his voice would crack from emotion. But, he had to get something else out...

"Don't ever forget that," he said in a soft voice, raising his hand to her cheek. "Whether as a girlfriend, a friend, a stranger... You'll always mean the world to me..."

She broke out into tears and buried her face in his shoulder, not wanting him to see her like this. It took her a moment to gather herself before looking up at him again. Kaelyn wiped the tears as much as she could.

"You're the closest friend I've ever had... I... I don't even know how to express... you're more than just a friend... more than a word."

"Don't be ashamed of crying," he told her. His voice was firm, but tears were silently dripping from his chin as well. He looked at her and remembered the words of her mother; how she was like broken glass on the inside. Scattered. Confused. Now, it seemed she had gathered all of the shards and has slowly, piece by piece, been building a new life for her self, with a special foundation inside her mother, and in him.

He reached up and wiped the stream of tears from his face.

"And it's okay. Sometimes... actions speak louder than words."

Broken Glass [Dark Wind & Blitz]

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ok, maybe a little more than that. but soon. soonish? yeah we'll see

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i can tonight as well, at least right now lol. can u wait for 20-30 mins?

Modern Feminism

Magic Magnum said
Now in terms of words like Gay and Fag I have seen two totally different opinions and cultures on this, both from LGBT communities.The first one was from the LGBT club at my High School.They outright shunned the words Gay from being used as an insult, and the use of the word Fag period.To the point they even had a protest (Which I admit to being apart of at the time) where they cut their shirt each time the word was used in such a sense.In a way to stand up for LGBT people who were bullied for it.The other culture was the Pride Club at College.Completely different opinion/approach to it.

I don't like the term fag, and I don't use it. I actually do agree that gay has taken all sorts of different meanings that it probably isn't as much of a factor. After thinking more on it, I probably agree more with Jorick of late. It's about usage. The only reason I'm on the fence is because language psychology is something I take into account. And I just don't know enough about it to have a clear stance.

Magic Magnum said I've really heard them use the term Gay outside of the "Man attracted to a man" meaning. But words like Fag weren't shunned. During my first few weeks with them as a straight ally I strongly tried avoiding the use of the word cause of what the High School club taught me. The other's in the College club would have to use the word and fill in the blanks when I would pause lost as for another word to use. Basically telling me that they were fine with the words being used, they weren't sensitive people who were going to be offended by it or anything.

To be clear, I am not asking to shun words. I'd only like to make people understand the different things attached to a word, and how they might have effects that were not intended. I'm for free speech. Say what you want. Although there is a difference between bullying and free speech.

Anyways, I do understand all these perspectives. I'm normally just careful with my words depending on the company I'm in.

Magic Magnum said Honestly though, the people in the High School were still High Schoolers. Growing, learning, and were full of people who only started talking to me cause I was in the club, and slowly stopped when other things in my life took over at the time. While the college club was largely grown ups and people who I knew and had gotten along with for a while before first joining the club even. So maybe I'm a bit bias in how I read this, but in my mind even the LGBT community is showing to be more practical with the use of such words, not taking them as homophobic remarks or anything but rather just words.

Again, as to what Jorick was saying, I can understand this. It is more to look at it from a usage standpoint, and the certain tone of voice in which words are used. Tone of voice and intention, but most of the time those things go hand in hand.

Magic Magnum said As for nigger?That... has taken an interesting and hypocritical turn.People in the black community use it with each other all the time no problem, but the second anyone else does it's racist.That's just messed up logic in my opinion, and I tend to avoid people who think or act with such a lack of logic anyways.

Not necessarily nigger. There is a difference between using the word nigger and nigga. That's a culture thing. The word nigga is clearly used in a form of camaraderie, and anyone would know that if they've hung out with a group of black people.

The reason it's taken as racist is because, well, in black circles in inner cities there just are not a lot of white people. And when a white person says it, there is a different connotation. It's built in because a history of racism. And some white people have said it and not been called racist, probably not a majority, but there are cases.

Regardless, there's a lot of work we need to do in the racial relations department of the world.

Magic Magnum said Basically what Jorick said on the issue.When someone says they're offended on a topic, what they're basically saying is "I don't agree with it, and I don't want to hear things that disagree with me".Or they have a problem where they take everything they hear personally rather than what they actually mean.Either way, what needs to be done here is for those people to learn to be tolerant of different viewpoints, and to not let what people say insult them so easily.They're the one's creating the problems by getting negative about, society and his rational expansion shouldn't be hindered or held back cause of it.

Not always. It's okay to be offended. It's like going somewhere and saying something racist to a black man, he says he's offended, and you say that he shouldn't be offended and he's just being sensitive. Granted, I know that's not what you're trying to say. But, that's how it comes off.

And, this is really where I'm coming from on a language confusion and language psychology stand point. People will take things personally because there are too many meanings attached to words, and when that happens, there will be people who have had so many negative experiences with specific words those words will be internalized within that person and they will lash out defensively. Rightfully so, I might add. It's not that they're being oversensitive.

Again, I understand and mostly agree with the wide range of meanings and the differences in usage. We should be tolerant of different viewpoints, but that doesn't mean different viewpoints are immune from scathing criticism.

Magic Magnum said 1) I agree in that Modeling is a career choice for a woman. Not all Models may be doing it to harm woman. But as a half-intelligent and aware human being, when you're a model you should be well aware of if the Jobs you take are or are not harming the image of your gender in any way. Even if your reasons for being a model are innocent, if you choose to continue in a certain model shoot that you know will have backlashes against women fighting for equality, then you're being a vulture.But I do also agree, the root of this problem isn't the problems but what the Media pushes on the models. The Models simply agree or disagree to model for it. If we're to deal with this issue we need to attack and change the media's idea of beauty, not the models themselves.

No models are doing it to harm women. At least, I doubt it. I really disagree that a model should be aware of what job does what. But, this is really just a minor disagreement here. The focus should be the odd standards of beauty.

Magic Magnum said 2) I think Media's just blind to the potential market they have here honestly.I mean, I've seen girls with pictures of boys posted all over their locker, room and staring at boys online far more often than I've seen guys posting girls up on their wall and starting at girls online.There is definitely a demand for more male models to appeal to woman if they tapped into the Market.

Eh. Guys all over the place have posters of half-naked women in their rooms. Not that girls don't have posters of guys or pictures of guys. There could be a demand for more male models, sure.

But, women consume women products at great rates. They buy those fashion and beauty magazines. It kind of caters to both sexes in an interesting way.

Bullying Discussion

I don't understand this view that some here have stated about "never" being able to solve or get rid of something. It's like saying we can never achieve a said goal, however, history shows us that when there is a claim that such and such a goal can never be accomplished, it ends up getting accomplished.

It's far more realistic to look at something and just say "I don't know."

Can bullying ever be fully eliminated? I don't know.

However, can it be limited significantly? I believe it can.

Broken Glass [Dark Wind & Blitz]

you weren't here. i can sigh all i want.

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sigh

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I didn't. you down tonight?