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4 yrs ago
Death Note.
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4 yrs ago
After a painfully long hiatus...I'm finally back, and hoping to write + meet people again.
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6 yrs ago
Time to go on semi-hiatus. I'll reply once in a while when I can find the motivation, but until then, I need a break.
7 yrs ago
When you finally stand up for yourself but you stutter. Feels bad man.
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8 yrs ago
writing helps with my depression but when I'm depressed I don't have the motivation to write.
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Thank you Siaya Dragalorn for creating the banner/header!


Hey, welcome to my profile. I've been writing since I was a kid, and it's something I'm very passionate about. I'm not sure what else to put here, but don't hesitate to reach out if you think we'd hit it off. BTW, I'm an adult, so I would prefer to write with people closer to my age.


Seeking: Not...sure...
Limits: Romance-wise, nothing explicit. But I'm pretty lenient for everything else (within reason).
Reply status as of 1/13/24: Getting back to a decent pace.

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"You were there?" Kili was astonished -- he could not find it within himself to envision his godmother on the battlefield. She was no doubt capable of handling herself, but the image remained difficult nonetheless. "Were you fighting too?" This was the side of her that he had not yet seen, and he showed great interest in hearing her version of the story.

As Thorin had told everyone to get some sleep, Kili inwardly sighed, though he did move to lie down in order to follow orders. "Thorin never mentioned you being there -- how did you find it? The battle, I mean. Did you come to help?" As best he could, he kept his voice down, but he did not believe it possible to sleep until he heard the story in its entirety.
Unpack orders. Alphabetize the merchandise. Help customers.
It had been the routine for the past three weeks, and so far Ghent had proven himself capable of his latest job.
Working in a small, cluttered bookstore may have sounded mediocre for some, but Ghent considered himself lucky. He knew this part of town well enough. The area was less busy than the neighboring city, and it was neglected. The surrounding shops had seen better days, but he didn’t mind. Some of the best deals came from mom and pop stores, plus the labor wasn't all that difficult.
The day started out like many before. The work was repetitive, but it was familiar, and he'd gotten into a good routine. Ghent made sure to keep himself moving when his boss was present. Frank was a gruff sort of fellow, he was often mumbling, and he had plenty of tattoos in the need of touching up. Rather than man the shop, he was often watching the TV by the window, one that Ghent was certain survived through the 80's.
A mother with two children were the first customers of the day. The trio appeared well off, which was rare for the area. The woman looked around with one child in her arms, the other tagging close behind. This was nothing out of the ordinary, but Ghent slowed when he caught sight of the youngest toddler.
For Ghent, everything seemed to go quiet. He could only stare, his face void of any emotion. This was not the first time this had happened, there were moments in his life when he felt that something was familiar. It was a haunting kind of a feeling, one that he hated to experience, and yet he could not seem to avoid it.
The child looked about five or so – petite, almost doll-like. She had a head of platinum blonde hair, and a red dress better suited for a birthday party. The sight of her struck a long ago memory within his mind, and Ghent found himself wishing to remember why this child would be at all familiar.
“Hey! What’s the matter with you?” A customer had been trying to obtain Ghent's attention, his annoyance evident. “You deaf or something?” In order to test this theory for himself, the man snapped his fingers in Ghent’s face, and that was enough to earn a reaction out of him.
Angered, Ghent pushed his hand away. “What’s your problem?” The child was gone from his line of vision, and instead he was faced with a man who – in his opinion – could have passed for an escaped convict. Until that moment, he’d missed him completely, and he wasn’t all that pleased to have been so rudely approached.
Words were exchanged, and Ghent succeeded in angering the man so much that Frank had to be called out. Trouble brought on by his moments of delusion. Again.

* * *

“Sorry, Ghent. I like ya, I really do. If I had a kid of my own, I’d want ‘em to be just like you. Just less klutzy.” It had come time to close the shop, but Frank called Ghent back into the storage room.
Ghent grimaced, but he did not protest. Sure, he’d broken a few things during his days of employment, but he wasn’t a klutz. He merely underestimated his own strength.
“Frank, come on. I’m the only employee you have. Is this about earlier? Give me another chance – look, you won’t even have to pay me today, or tomorrow. I’ll make up for it.” Pleading was out of character for him, but he was desperate enough to try. Finding a job nearby had proven difficult, and his parents were in need of money.
“It’s not just that. Business has been slow. Can’t afford to keep you on, especially when you're riling customers.” Frank was apologetic, but he couldn’t help but pity the teenager before him. “If you need any references, I’ll vouch on your behalf, alright? No hard feelings, now. You be sure to tell your friends about this place.”
Ghent had seen this coming, but being fired came as a disappointment nonetheless. Working here had plenty of perks – free access to the latest comic books being one of them. “Yeah, I’ll do that,” he retrieved his coat from one of the shelving units, and then paused near the exit. “So…do I still get paid?”
Relieved that there’d been no hard feelings, Frank gave a toothy grin. “Sure y’do. I’ve got something better than money, though.” He knelt down near the shelf and pulled out a large cardboard box. From the looks of it, it had been forgotten until now. “Worth more than your wages, too.”
The weight of the box caught Ghent off guard. With his hands so full, he couldn’t look inside. “You’re paying me in books?"

* * *

The walk home was a long one. Once it started to rain, Ghent sought refuge under the nearest awning. This was where his curiosity got the better of him. The contents of the box remained unknown. Tearing off the yellowed tape, Ghent found that his 'wages' consisted of three comics with faulty covers, and six old, cringe-worthy romance novels from another era. No wonder this had been put into storage. "You're all heart, Frank."
Visibly disgusted, Ghent looked the loot over and settled for taking the comics. The books weren't worth reselling, so he left them to their demise.
At the very bottom of the box, there were several classic novels with spines so weak that the pages were spilling out. Tom Sawyer, Little Women, White Fang . . . Alice in Wonderland. The last came as a rude, unwelcome shock to him. Gasping underneath his breath, Ghent hastily tossed the box aside, his heart beating faster than it had been all morning.
Fifteen minutes passed without the rain showing signs of ceasing. Deciding to head home, Ghent tucked the comics underneath his jacket, disturbed by his own misfortune.
{Also, I am completely fine with that. :D}
Ahh! That was a joy to read! I absolutely love the amount of detail and description you put into your writing; I am already quietly fangirling over the characters. :'3 Please do not apologize! I still haven't edited my character post, after all. I'll be working on that and my first in character post right now. Things are finally starting to slow down here, so I can have a moment to actually think for once. :P
Not only had Kili angered Thorin, but he feared that he may have disappointed his godmother as well. The youngest heir hadn't meant to be cruel; he'd only wished to have some fun, and that had proven a mistake. He knew of orcs, yes, but he'd yet to see one. To joke about them hadn't bothered his conscious any, and to make matters worse, he'd gotten Fili in trouble, too. Why couldn't he keep his mouth shut?

Inwardly, he chastised himself. Thorin would never see potential in him if he acted as a child would. If only he had a way to prove himself useful to their group; perhaps then they would see him in a new light. Kili never felt inadequate around Fili, his brother was often very supportive, but their uncle was another story. What he failed to realize was that Thorin did care about them, but he didn't often show it as much as he should have.

Caught up in his own thoughts, Kili stared intently into the fire, determined not to make the same mistake twice. When he felt a hand make contact with his arm, he looked to Saeril with some reluctance, as if he expected her to scold him too. When he saw her expression, he was relieved to find that she did not seem angry.

Balin had overheard the entire exchange, and he knew Thorin's words had been harsh, though they came from a source of pain. "Don't mind him, laddie. Thorin has more cause than most to hate orcs." The white haired dwarf looked towards their leader, and he could not help but pity him. Thorin had lost much that day -- his grandfather, and his brother, years younger than Kili was now. "After the dragon took the Lonely Mountain, King Thror tried to reclaim the ancient dwarf kingdom of Moria. But our enemy had got there first."

Bilbo listened intently as Balin told the story regarding the Battle of Azanulbizar; never in his life had he heard a tale of such a war, and it amazed him, yet made him realize how very fortunate he was to have lived his days safe in The Shire.

Kili listened too, and he now understood more from his uncle's point of view. Thorin had fought the orcs; they had lost many dwarves due to them, and for him to joke about such a thing had been insensitive. While Kili felt badly, he was also amazed by Thorin's bravery and skill in combat. Even without a weapon, Thorin had prevailed, just long enough to defeat the pale orc.

"But the pale orc? What happened to him?" Bilbo found it within himself to speak up, albeit meekly. The rest of the group was awake by now, for they had overheard the story, and it was not one to be missed.

Thorin turned away from the clearing, his mind in a dark place. "He slunk back into the hole whence he came. That filth died of his wounds long ago." The words were bitter, and he brushed past the hobbit in order to return to his place of sleep. The day had been a long one, and he wished not to speak on past battles any further. "Get some sleep. All of you. There are few hours from now till dawn."
Bilbo should have counted himself fortunate that there had been an extra pony for him. The company had traveled long and far, with little to no breaks in-between. When it was announced by Thorin that they would stop for the night, he breathed a sigh of relief. After they'd eaten, everyone turned in for the night, but he could not sleep. Life on the road was so unlike what he was used to, and he found himself visiting his pony as a result of insomnia. “Hello, girl. That’s a good girl." Bilbo offered her an apple, then pet a hand through her chestnut mane. "It’s our little secret, Myrtle; you must tell no one.”

Kili was wide awake as well, and he was enjoying the company of both his brother and Saeril. The fire kept them comfortably warm, and he took notice of their burglar in the distance. "Suppose he'll want to keep her, once the journey is done," he remarked with some amusement, but then some terrible, unearthly shrieks could be heard from parts unknown.

Bilbo nearly jumped out of his skin, and he looked back to see if the others had heard it too. "What was that?!" So terrified was he that he abandoned Myrtle to regroup with the others, his eyes wide with fear.

Kili was frightened himself, though seeing Bilbo so pale brought out his mischievous side. This was also an opportunity to bring some amusement to his godmother and Fili; he had the tendency to show off when he could. "Orcs," he answered lowly, and that one word was enough to wake Thorin, who had been dozing on the opposite side of the camp.

Bilbo ran a hand through his curly hair, frazzled as ever. "Orcs?" For the hundredth time that day, he regretted his choice to come. The creatures sounded positively awful; he did not wish to witness what came along with the scream.

“They strike in the wee small hours, when everyone’s asleep." Kili was fighting to keep a straight face; he knew this was a bit cruel, but Bilbo was such an easy target. "Quick and quiet; no screams, just lots of blood." Once Bilbo's back was to them, he lost the mask of graveness and instead laughed with his brother.

Thorin approached the four, his disgust evident. "You think that's funny? You think a night raid by orcs is a joke?"

Kili looked to his uncle with a bit of surprise; he hadn't known him to be listening. "We didn’t mean anything by it," he protested quietly, his heart sinking. Losing Thorin's approval was a terrible feeling; one he'd felt more and more as of late. Why could he not seem to impress him?

"No, you didn’t." Thorin turned his back on them, then moved to overlook the valley below. "You know nothing of the world."

Kili fell quiet after that, for he had no way to defend himself nor to argue. It was true, after all. He knew nothing, and he'd only succeeded in showing how young and naive he really was. To hear his uncle so obviously disgusted was crushing, and he dropped his gaze, too embarrassed to look at his godmother or Fili right now. No matter how hard he tried, he never seemed to gain Thorin's approval, and it was a constant source of low self-esteem. Thorin's words were often taken to heart. Perhaps too much.
"Whoa!" Several dwarves stopped their ponies, and all eyes were on Bilbo. Kili felt a surge of hope when the parchment was mentioned, and he cast a light, triumphant grin towards Dwalin. "You were saying?" Kili could be a bit cocky, especially when he believed himself winning. The youngest looked towards his godmother now, and he laughed good naturedly as she spoke of another gamble. "I am not sure I want to bet against that," he teased, taking things lightly as he often did. There was no doubt in his mind that they'd make it alive; he was so very inexperienced to the dangers of Middle Earth, and in his mind, they were practically immortal to have such a team.

Balin took the contract from Bilbo, then gave it a careful look over with the help of his pocket ­glass. With a kindly smile and nod of approval, the older dwarf folded the parchment. “Everything appears to be in order. Welcome, Master Baggins, to the company of Thorin Oakenshield.”

Thorin, however, remained unimpressed. "Give him a pony," he instructed his nephews before leading the way once again. Having Bilbo along did not change his low opinion of him. Bilbo was cowardly, he would be nothing more than a burden and nuisance.

Bilbo was mortified. “No, no, no, no, that - ­­that won’t be necessary, thank you, but I-­­I’m sure I can keep up on foot. She is walking, and so shall I." The hobbit referred to Saeril, and then he started ahead on foot. "I’ve done my fair share of walking holidays, you know." As their new burglar stammered out excuses, Kili smirked to Fili in a silent means of communicating with him. Without delay, he reached down from his pony, and grabbed the still-rambling Bilbo by the shoulder. "I even got as far as Frogmorton once--" with a yelp, Bilbo felt himself lifted from the ground, and he was set right atop the only pony without a rider.

Kili grinned guiltily, he had indeed placed a bet with the others. Saeril knew him too well. "Only a small one," he answered, but Dwalin scoffed a bit from where he'd overheard the two.

"Small? You bet more than half your coin, lad. Lost it, too." The burlier dwarf had no faith in the too-skittish hobbit. Bilbo had turned their offer down, he would not come. Most had bet against him, and for a good reason, in his opinion.

"There is still time for him to come." Kili grimaced lightly, but he knew if Bilbo did not arrive, he would be without much of his coin for the remainder of the journey. Why had he been so foolish? Bofur had tried to talk him out of gambling so much, but he would not listen.

As if on cue, Bilbo approached the clearing, clearly out of breath. "Wait! Wait!" The hobbit clutched his side as he fought to regain his breath, and he held the parchment above his head to show his signature to Saeril and the others. "I signed it!"
For Bilbo, the evening had been nothing but constant stress. He must have wished the dwarves gone half a dozen times underneath his breath, and the chaos had only lessened once Thorin arrived. It was apparent that Thorin could keep them in line, at least somewhat. When night had fallen, Bilbo had retreated to his own room to sleep, and when he woke, he was surprised to find that all was quiet.

Cautiously, he rose out of bed. Bilbo practically tiptoed into the hall, but no one was there. Every room was empty, and every room was clean. How had they managed this? It was as if his 'company' had never stayed at all. The only tell-tale sign of their existence was the broken mirror. Considering all that had happened, a mirror was a small price to pay.

"Well, I suppose I will replace you today." Bilbo turned one of the larger portions of glass over in his hand, and for the first time in a long while, he felt lonesome. As deplorable as those dwarves had been, they had filled his home with more life than it had seen in a long time. Bilbo had been isolated and on his own for quite a few years ever since his mother had passed. Somehow, speaking to a broken mirror wasn't quite the same.

As Bilbo entered his dining room, Gandalf's words seemed to echo in his mind, and then the unsigned contract caught his eye. A strange feeling came over him; he felt daring. Without a word, he rolled up the parchment, snatched his backpack, and quickly packed what belongings he could. Today was the start of an adventure.

* * *

Kili couldn't have been more content; the weather was perfect, and everyone seemed in good spirit. Even Thorin. The only downside was that they hadn't a burglar. Bilbo was greatly interesting to him, and he pitied the hobbit for turning down such an opportunity. "We have an extra pony, are you certain you don't mind walking?" The youngest wondered as he looked to their godmother. At least this way, they were somewhat of equal height.
Even Kili did not feel bold enough to ask what she needed to reform from. What mistakes could she have made? Rather than ask, he nodded slowly to show that he accepted her answer. No more needed to be said; what had happened was in the past. Right now, he wished to appreciate the time he had with someone so very special.

As the others came to join them, Kili listened intently to their song, his gaze fixated to the flames in the fireplace. Tomorrow would be the start of a long, perilous journey, but in that moment he felt warm and safe. Eyelids heavy, Kili started to doze right off. The day had been long; he and Fili had barely a moment's rest on their way to Hobbiton, and so he fell asleep, nestled against his godmother.

The song of the Misty Mountain came to an end, and Thorin turned away from the embers. "It is settled, then...we leave at dawn," he informed the company, and it was here he took notice of his nephew sleeping so soundly. To see him this way was a harsh reminder of how terribly young his nephews were. Fili was mature and often very sensible, but Kili? It had been impossible to bring one without the other, and Thorin could not help but feel a nagging doubt within the back of his mind. Kili should have stayed behind with his mother.
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