TheMadAsshatter

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@beyond visions Haven't even started yet but I think we're about to.

The Topic of Dreams

Even when I'm not running from something in a dream, I'll sometimes experience running in slow motion, or not getting enough power in each footfall.

Oh, and there's another one. When I was younger, I would sometimes have dreams where I would be thrown out of something, or start freefalling for some reason, and everything would slow down, and I wouldn't be able to hear anything except for a dull ringing.

The Topic of Dreams

There were a couple months in High School where I regularly kept a dream journal. I had it under my bed and as soon as I had a dream, I would note the date and start writing in as much detail as possible, sometimes drawing maps and floor plans. I would pretty much do this from the time I woke up to about halfway through my first class. I noticed that I started dreaming more frequently, regularly, and vividly than before, but for whatever reason I stopped the habit and now I pretty much only have a good dream once or twice a week. It was almost daily when I kept the journal.

I've had a lot of dreams; some of which have kind of terrifying implications. For instance, and I don't want to get into too much detail, but at one point during High School I had a dream that I was going on a shooting spree. Yep. Straight up murdering people; mostly people that I saw at school on a regular basis, and not even people I didn't like. I still have no idea what spurred it, and I would never do anything like that in reality. I guess my brain was just not in a good mood that night, or something. It's the only time I've ever had a dream where I was just slaughtering people with no cause or basis.

Likewise, I've had a few dreams where I brought airsoft guns to school, handed them out, and everyone just started going at it. Those were fun. Most of the dreams I had of or at school were either terrifying in some way (either like mentioned above, or of the "go to school naked", or "forget your locker combo" variety), or some goofy parody of usual school shit, and rarely in between. Weird how that shit works.

I've also noticed that the games I play tend to influence my dreams. Like when I got DayZ a few months after it first came out (the mod, not the standalone game) I played the shit out of it. I literally started dreaming that I was playing it. Not that it was real life, but that I was playing it. Like what the fuck brain? Why not go all the way? The same thing has happened with other games. Garry's Mod, Project Reality, Stalker; sometimes where the game is real, and sometimes where I'm just playing it, and sometimes it switches from one to the other. And then when I played Amnesia a lot and downloaded custom stories out the ass... Crazy-ass nightmares were pretty prevalent during that time.

But if my dreams aren't about games, they're usually just kind of random. There's not really a common thread to them, with one exception. A lot of dreams that I have where I'm either running from something, or trying to defend myself from something, I'll find that I'm either not running as fast as I should, or having trouble fighting back. Like, if I have a gun or something, at least half of the time I almost can't pull the trigger without using both hands, even though I'm a seasoned shooter in real life.

Sorry, I'm probably rambling a bit. I feel like it's kinda hard for me to talk about dreams without just vomiting out some of the most noteworthy dreams I've had with little to no organization of my thoughts. However, on the topic of dream journals, would you have a problem with me using this thread as one?

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@Eru Iluvatar sounds good to me, man.

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Happy Thanksgiving, nerds!

Just FYI, I'm visiting my dad for the weekend, so forgive me if I'm inactive until next week.

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Oh man, shit's getting intense.

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Tahlia Spade

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It was a shame that Tahlia wasn't really thinking straight. At the moment, her more pragmatic and sensible side might have actually seen that Rend was playing the game with these aliens right now, and at the moment, despite how much she hated her, he was probably the most experienced diplomat of them all. Of course, she was too preoccupied with how badly he was bullshitting these aliens, and also knew for a fact that he was enjoying being their "king" far too much to really give a shit; and on top of that, calling them liars? To hell with the game; Tahlia was too proud for this horseshit. And too angry. Fuck this guy!

"Let's not omit the fact that you tried to kill me, you fuckstick!" she spat at him. "You think you're fit to be a leader? A real leader doesn't shoot their subordinates for disagreeing with them; not that you were supposed to lead us in the first place! You killed the man who was! What do you have to say to that you piece of shit?" In a final fit of rage, Tahlia decided that it wouldn't be enough to not give him the one-finger salute and bellow a hearty "FUCK YOU!!!" She took a few deep breaths after that. She'd been in a courthouse a couple times, and no matter how slimey the defendant was, she knew very well that acting out was one of the worst things you could do, but it felt good to tear into him a little. But now that that was out of her system, she could start to think straight again.

"Surely you can all see that he's a figurehead, but on top of that he's a snake! He doesn't earn respect, he demands it and crushes anyone who tries to oppose him. He tried to shoot me, and very well could have shot out a window, which could have killed us all! Surely you can see that in the logs?" Her words themselves were sound, sensible, and rational, but her attitude was still very hot. "He was never meant to be our monarch! He paid and wormed his way into the ship to get where he is! He's a tyrant, and I think aside from him everyone of my species in this room can agree with that. Believe what you want, but this man is playing all of you, just like he played us all and smuggled, bought, and murdered his way onto our vessel!"

She figured that was enough of that and try to earn back some points. "I will admit, myself and my king..." she said, gesturing to Owen. "We were not originally meant to be monarchs. The man who sits in that throne himself usurped it from the man who was supposed to lead us." She stopped and thought about what she should say next. "I used to serve in my peoples' military. I was one of the best soldiers in my unit, and was eventually given command over a squad when I became a sergeant. I led them just as well as I had followed my superiors, if not better." She paused and looked at Rend. "Having been a leader myself, I fear to think what would have come of my squad had this man been in charge. I valued all of my soldiers; this man would have sent them to certain death without a second thought while he sits his happy ass at a UAV terminal and watches the slaughter unfold. And then he would have claimed to be the sole survivor to get sympathy points!"

She was going on a tangent. She stopped herself and took a deep breath. "I understand, I may not appear so, but myself and my king are asserting our role as humanity's leaders. I sincerely apologize for any transgressions that we may have made, and am fully willing to cooperate and ensure that any ongoing relations between our species and yours is peaceful and respectful."

God she hoped she made their case. It was very likely that her opening outburst had essentially lost her the game, and unfortunately, Rend did have age going for him, and his diplomatic experience. God dammit, the more she thought about it the more she wished she had just ended him when she had the chance; it would have saved a massive amount of headache. Regardless, he was here now, and her objective at this point was to not get imprisoned, or executed, or who knew what else. And if that was the case, she was taking Rend with her. She'd be damned if she left the crew alone with him.

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@Deserted As was mine.

Also, dibs on the next post.

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Nobody expects it.

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@Eru Iluvatar Sneaky little shit! I don't think your timing could have been more perfect if you tried. Unless you did. In which case, good for you!