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"When a human's tears finally dry up they transform into a monster. They dry up themselves. So laugh, laugh with pride and arrogance, just as always."
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31.December.2036
Evening


Hazumi's eyes scanned the room prepared for today's ball. It was New Year and Lily had explained that they should make a grand celebration as a symbol of “turning the page” and “starting clean”. Hazumi really doubted the new page would be any different than the last twenty and honestly considered it a little hypocritical to even claim it was, given that the children attending the Academy for the past 3 months were given extensive combat training.

The ballroom was all set up, cocktail tables littering the space around what Hazumi would call an arena and Lily – a dance- floor. There was champagne and tinsel and glitter and mistletoe and little prawn cocktails and white serviettes and people in formal-looking dresses. There was even a pianist on a little podium on the far end of the room, and of course, a harp and violin to complete the image. The whole scene looked like a joke to Hazumi who had wrinkled her nose in disgust the first time she'd heard the requirements of her presence. And the requirements for her presence.

She didn't want to be here. She didn't need to be here. This place was so removed from reality it was painful. The hum for blood in her bones was also painful – the itch to rip something apart and feast on it's insides. She scratched her hand absent-mindedly – a gesture resembling making a fist except for the long birdlike nails scraping along dry skin. She wasn't given a choice. And while back in Judas' hand she'd happily followed orders, now things were different. Nobody here deserved her power and the only reason she obeyed Lily was because Luciana had asked her to. She even obeyed the order to be fully clothed and presentable for the evening. She was given a black jumpsuit and a pair of high-heeled shoes she struggled putting on but at least appreciated the open back. Now that she was back in her human guise her wings were more sensitive than ever and needed enough room to breathe.

Her lips twisted in a smirk at the image of spreading them open at some point during the festivities and blowing the whole charade away.

They were a pitiful bunch, those “promising new pupils”. She could count them on the fingers of one hand. Well, as a baratice she could. They had thirty fingers on each hand. A big difference from the armies she and Judas had commanded a mere four months ago.

The room grew quieter as people began to notice Hazumi’s presence. Judas’ right hand. The one he used for smiting his enemies. Though 4 months ago, she failed him. Everyone stared at her, some faces had the expression of vile just from witnessing her, while others were blank, expectant faces. They knew she would be here tonight, but silently hoped she would miss out. Hoping that the very thing that empowered Judas Iscariot would simply disappear.

In spite her expression was that of pride. She moved to the place at a table nearby and took it, giving everyone staring a daring look.

“Quit that and behave.” A voice on her left scolded her. Hazumi turned, not so much to see who it is, but to give them a irked look. “The point of you coming was to make yourself more likeable, not less.” Hazumi scoffed but Lily’s expression remained calm and unbothered.

“So what am I supposed to do? I don’t have much experience in making myself likeable.” She smirked. “Just desirable.”

“And we made sure none of our current staff appreciates your specific type of charm.” Lily smiled sweetly. Hazumi laughed loudly. “Ok, that was a good one. Point for you.”

Hazumi would feel another individual enter the room. One she recognized. The very essence she called for when she was in need of him, but he left her behind 22 years ago, and very essence that slayed her master in the most brutal and sadistic manner 4 months ago.

Solus walked cautiously into the room, he didn’t exactly dress formally for this occasion, since he wasn’t one for parties. His signature black leather trench coat that was tied around him with 3 large belts at his abdomen, was what he wore. Really, he didn’t have any other clothes than the trench coat and what was underneath. His strides were heavy and booming, and perhaps made him more noticeable than Hazumi had been earlier.

His green flaming eyes scanned the room, surveying the guests like they were suspicious individuals. His old paranoia hasn’t yet left him, and the war didn’t help in that matter. He felt like celebrating was an early call. Judas’ followers were still out there, and anyone could take his place. The time for victory parties hadn’t yet arrived.

Solus was an old, yet Legendary bounty hunter. And his appearance stated it clearly. A Chimeric being, he was a hybrid between an Angel, Demon and Human, with his human soul having consumed the other two. His face was that of a skull and his eye sockets, nostrils, and jigsaw shaped mouth, burned with a smokeless green flame. He stood at a menacing 6 foot 2. And his sudden appearance brought silence to the room. They may have expected Hazumi, but they did not expect him.

“What the heck’s he doing here?” Hazumi asked puzzled but Lily was no longer by her side to answer. Instead she’d approached Solus and reached her hand out for him to shake.

“It’s an honour to have you, Master Grim. I’m glad you could make it.”

“Not exactly sure if this is all even necessary…” Solus took her hand and shook it. “But I promised to make it nonetheless.”

“Nothing that mends people’s hearts is unnecessary, don’t you think?” Lily smiled and gestured around the room. “Most of our students are still preparing for the festivities, but please feel free to look around and feel yourself at home. After all, this academy is as much your legacy as it is mine.”

He never planned for an Academy or even created this one. Lily calling this his legacy felt wrong to him. If kids were their idea of preventing future wars, then he wasn’t impressed. “The reason I’m here is to make sure the guest of honour won’t kill everybody and plays nice. I don’t plan to stick around on Surface for long, since I have some things that need taking care of. But I will be here a short time to oversee her progress.”

Lily’s expression darkened but then a glint of danger appeared in her smiling eyes.

“And I appreciate that. You’re not the only one who has their doubts about her but you can rest assured I know how to handle.. rebellious individuals. She should pose no danger.”

“You have no idea how wrong you are. As the Essence of the World, all she has to do is think to turn you into dust. Don’t let your cockiness underestimate her. She is a walking God. Remember that.” Solus corrected her. He knew exactly what Hazumi was, and he wasn’t going to let some fool fuck things up. All Lily Quarin needed to do was give Hazumi a single reason, and it would be the War all over again.

Anger crossed Lily’s features and her voice was low when she spoke. “She is no God. She is a tool. And we will now bow as tool. Now, if you’ll excuse me.”

“You are going to eat your fucking words when she rips you apart…” Solus said to her as she turned her back to him.

Lily just looked over her shoulder, without turning. “She’s already tried.” With that she walked away to attend to another guest.

Solus let out an audible growl. He really didn’t want to be here. It felt wrong. And so did the tingling at the back of his neck. Someone was staring at him and it wasn’t hard to guess who it could be.

Hazumi hadn’t budged from where Lily had left her, elbows rested on the table and her back arching slightly. She was taking absent-minded sips of a glass of water, eyes locked on Solus. As he looked her way, thought, she looked away, pretending to find something else in the room more interesting.

And of course Solus noticed. He approached quickly and sat at her table, right across from her. “What are you staring at?” The anger in his voice was evident.

“I was wondering what the hell you’re doing here.” Hazumi shot back, her manners matching his.

“Making sure you are being as nice as you possibly can to these… lovely guests.” Solus answered.

“And how do you intend to do that exactly?” She challenged.

Solus smiled. “You remember how Judas died... right…?” Solus asked rhetorically. “You’re going to get far worse.”

“Charming.” Hazumi took a sip of her water and looked away, considering the conversation finished and waiting for Solus to go away.

“What’s your problem exactly? Miss you pathetic little master already? He was worthless weasel of man. He wasted your worth.” Solus said.

Hazumi scoffed. “And you were much better. The man who could have had the power for himself but chose not to. Now he stands in front of me and barks against events long past, pretending he made the right choices all along.” Hazumi pierced his eyes with her and leaned forward on the table. “Let me tell you that, master Grim. There is true power in this world and it takes balls to take it. The rest of you can bark all you want but it doesn’t change the facts.”

Solus’ smile widened, and suddenly his hand shot up towards her neck and grabbed it tightly enough that it caused her pain, and pulled her head down hard, hitting it against the table and pressing her face against it. The sudden violence, grinding the entire party to halt as all the bystanders watched in shock. “Oh, I have the balls to take you right here, bitch.” He put more pressure on her head. “I have all the power I would ever need. But you, you are worthless to me. A brainless cow like you, who can’t even think for herself can’t understand that.” He spat at her.

“Reality check, you stupid cunt. You say that you need balls to take power. Yet you don’t have the fucking balls to take it yourself. Try giving orders, instead of taking them like the little bitch you are.” He threw her head back, the momentum setting her in an upright position again.

“Think about that for a while, if you even have the brains to think at all. Enjoy the party.” Solus stood up from his seat, satisfied with the outcome. As he passed Lily towards the door out, he said. “Don’t worry, I’ll see myself out.” With that, he left.

Hazumi was dumbfounded. The sheer insolence of the man petrified her body, confused between the urge to rip him apart and the sudden pain that shook it. She wasn't used to pain, not as a human was, and in this new body it was still something sharp and shocking. Where before her instincts would have been triggered at the touch of a finger, now it took them what seemed an eternity, until they provided her with the opportunity to retaliate.

By the time she understood what was going on, the man was halfway through the room. In a blind fury Hazumi got to her feet and moved to catch up with the man, her intentions obvious in her elongating claws. She had almost caught up with him, arm rising to deliver death, when Lily's small frame appeared between them. Her eyes were steel and so was her grip as she took hold of Hazumi's hand. She didn't say anything and for a few long moments the two women were just staring at each other, each refusing to back down. Hazumi's rage was made visible in the smoke that was rising from her body, her clothes literally starting to smother.

Finally, Hazumi broke away and turned on her heel, stomping out of the ballroom. A trail of wet footprints of molten plastic and burning leather littered her path until her shoes were completely burned down.

Lily Quarin sighed, thankful that not all the students had witnessed the embarrassment and went to get the janitor.

Credit: Synthorian & Wind Wild
Look out to the IC, it's incoming~ :3
Fallen, I speak for myself but to me your opinion matters not because I want to cause any drama but because I want to avoid it. Me and a small group of others have been getting really impatient with this tempo and are ready to split off - something I want to avoid and would like to thus discuss with everyone so it doesn't look like anyone's betraying anybody else. Saying that, I can't keep them waiting forever either so I'll have to act if I don't get any response from anyone in the next few days. Lucious, I know what you mean. Non-investment is what I want to avoid because it leads to apathy eventually.
Ok guys and girls, time for a serious message. In the past few months this RP has stagnated a lot. There's hardly any activity in the IC and this is causing friction between two groups of players – those who want a faster tempo and those, who are content with this one. We are all different individuals and we have different ways of incorporating roleplaying in our busy everyday lives, *however* the whole premise of RPing is that it makes you happy. As those of you who log into skype know, I am from the ones who are not happy with thing as they currently are. There's an array of reasons why that is, but the first and foremost is that I'm expecting to severely cut back on RPing or stopping it entirely since September this year. Thus I not only don't feel compelled to, but also can't afford to commit to an RP that will be going on for years. The reason I'm saying this is following: the slow speed is killing my interest and has been doing so for the past 2 months. I know the same applies to some other players. That's what leads me to raise the issue with all of you. As it is, I can see two ways this problem can be solved. 1- We try to have some acceptable deadlines for this season that work for all of us and some of you speed up while some of us settle for a more lax tempo, or 2- Me and the other players break off and continue the RP from where it is now, but with a faster tempo. The reason why I only raised this now is because personally I consider it disgraceful to have to split the RP apart and put people against each other. This is not my aim, nor my desire – I love you all as players and respect you as people and don't want RP problems to come between us as people. Even if we do have to part ways, we can still have cross-overs and you'll still have capable GMs to lead you here. So.... this is a call for you to express your opinions on how things should change so that we're all happy. I'm accepting other ideas if you have any, and would love to hear your alls opinions. Last, but not least, sorry that it had to come to this. Again, it's nothing personal, just a matter of preference.
Heheh very cool idea with Aura's abilities and fragment. A bit out of the ordinary but no reason for it not to work. She might not know it but the main creature in her fragment seems to be a Miracle angel which are good at buffing, and possibly some humans and a demon. This may have an impact later on or it can not have any – up to you. Also she might not realise it but the thing you listed as an ability is probably her instrument's influence on her. (which means that when separated she might lose it) Another option is that she's very easily influenced by other species, which has all kinds of implications. Little correction – I know it doesn't seem it but in it's current state Master Melody's only been open for 3 months. I apologize for the confusion, I should have stated that earlier. Also due to it making things more interesting, we will have some non-human children studying there and the instruments will be taking the shape of weapons – either occasionally and at will, or randomly or permanently. Lastly, the first students, which you are, will be called Masters. :) Sorry for the late response. I'll be starting the IC soon.
![enter image description here](http://fc04.deviantart.net/fs70/f/2010/312/f/1/ivan_by_shibue-d32h2qc.jpg "enter image title here") **Name:** Jason Stonebow **Operational Code name:** None yet. **Virtue:** Vision/Hope **Vice:** Despair **Appearance:** I wish I’d had the chance to get some more rebellious clothes to fit my new image, like those fingerless gloves or the pagan hoody of the other kid at Eden had. At least that way I could have symbolically ended my old life as the sugarcube of the flock. Instead I’m stuck with the only dark clothes I could find in my closet – a plain v-neck T-shirt and a grey collared jacket, way too elegant for this. My formal shoes could almost make me laugh but I had nothing else. I wish I could at least have dyed my hair – it's still blonde and makes me look too young. Of course, I'm no longer as pristine as I used to be. Eden has left its harsh imprint on me and Alex both and I think you can tell we've been through a bit and not just by our tattered clothes and shabby shoes. **Age:** 19 **Biography:** I was born in Mirria, a small town in the deep Texan south-west. We were cut off from civilization and I don't think it was entirely by accident either. Our town was a highly religious patriarchal society where the word of the church is law. Beating up your children was a good thing – after all it teaches them to take a beating and they'll need to know that when they come face to face with all the monsters. That's what the True Faith is all about, at the core of it – discipline and ways to ward of the evil that lurks in the dark. A beautiful concept on the surface. I bought into it at first too – I advocated it and brought so many rebellious young people around. After all, I was young myself and the preacher's perfect son and that made it ever so easy to inspire trust in a small town like that. It took something drastic to open my eyes. It was a break-in – an assault you might say. Silly thing was, the thug didn't have a firearm. Those were rare in our town anyway – only a few had them and were very protective of them. So the guy broke through our porch window in the middle of the night, armed with nothing more than a knife and some sharp words. My father didn't have much trouble dealing with him, he had a gun after all. I was fifteen at the time and when they started talking, weapons pointed at each other, I still believed my father will bring the guy around and convince him he's being stupid, then forgive and bless him and send him on his way. It didn't turn out quite like that – the guy was rambling about the “outside world” and called our faith fake and I don't remember my father being angry but he did pull the trigger despite. The guy went silent in an instant – all that remained was the ringing of the shot and his voice in my ears. I'm sure now that my father had recognised him as Lucas, one of our flock. I'm sure he didn't give a shit when he shot him. Actually, maybe he did. He ordered mom to start cleaning up the mess and searched his body. He found a notebook there, full of pictures and scribbles of Lucas' blasphemous ideas. The fireplace was handy – it was on as well – but my father didn't toss the book there. He tossed it to me – said Lucas must have friends in our flock and that I need to identify them and straighten them up. Or he would. I had the Sunday school at my disposal to do that. And I did, in a way. I found our who they were but by that time I had read too much of the book myself. My father was blissfully unaware that I wasn't working to root the blasphemy out – I was preaching it now. I shouldn't have. People died because of me. Next thing we were in “Eden”, Alex and I. It's one of the madhouses built to control us blasphemers. As you can tell by the name, they don't see it that way. It's a holy place for them, somewhere where we find out beliefs again and get reintegrated into society. I can tell you what they do to reintegrate us. I can, but I won't. I'd rather forget. **What was their first encounter with monsters:** I think it was the initiation. I can't quite remember. **Skills:** I used to be good at inspiring people and giving them hope. Now look where that got them. **Equipment and Resources:** None. **Edges:** I've had some experience with the old revolver my father had so I know I have a good aim but I'm yet to perfect my skills in that regard. **Endowments:** I'm good at the Benedictions of the True Faith – although Issac claims they're originally from Malleus Malificarum, whatever that is. **Mortal tie:** Everyone at Mirria. Part of me still naively thinks I can save them. They are my flock, I owe them that. ------------- ![Alex Qinn](http://i62.tinypic.com/2vlpncz.jpg) **Name:** Alex Qinn **Operational Code name:** Sieg [Zeeg] **Virtue:** Temperance **Vice:** Ruthlessness **General appearance:** I don’t care about my looks anymore. I put on whatever I have at hand and don’t even bother combing my hair. I used to look like a little doll but now I don’t. Now I probably look like the ghost of a doll that should have collapsed long ago. I feel drained most of the time due to the worries and lack of sleep and I’m sure if shows on my passive face and in the shadows under my eyes. **Age:** 17 **Biography: ** To talk about my history seems rather pointless as it was mostly the history of everyone else in this town. I was brought up believing in something foul, something that said it’s right to punish your own children for enjoying what life they were bestowed with. I was a good girl and my dad was proud of me so he only beat me up rarely. My mom must have also been proud as after each one she would smile brightly at me and braid my hair – she was proud I was realizing my mistakes and atoning for them, surely. And I was happy. Can you believe that, to be happy to get a beating after coming home late only because a storm caught you with no umbrella at hand? Well, now I can see it was crazy to believe that to be parental care and affection. The person who showed me actual kindness was Jason. I first met him in church, during one of the services when we both sensed something unusual about each other. He was the son of the preacher and I’ve always gotten a weird vibe off of him but I was unsure what it was until that day. It’s when he was handling out the leaflets with the new songs that he looked at me and his look lingered for a second too long before moving on. I knew there was a secret hidden behind those eyelids and I was right. It was night and I was alone in my room when I finally got the courage to open the leaflet and see what he had undoubtedly scribbled inside. It wasn’t much but it was enough. It was a simple “come”. It was right under the information about the Sunday school. The Sunday school his father had recently entrusted to him. But… it wasn’t a Sunday school. Or maybe it was, because it was so much holier than anything the True Faith had to offer. It was simply the Truth. The truth about human connections, about real relationships, real love, real friendship. About the world outside Mirria. Jason was very cautious who he shared his secret with – we were a small group of seven who were carefully selected by him after long observation and consideration. He didn’t force us to believe what he said but we had no doubt that he was indeed telling the truth. Our hearts knew it and our scars confirmed. We were… we were relieved from the True Faith. Saved, I dare say. I cried like a baby that time, I remember. Everyone thought I was cute and fragile after, though that’s not true. They just thought so because I was so relieved and they mistook it for something else. They were all so kind to me after that, like a real family should be. We became really close and what bond us together, more than anything, was Jason. Because he was our Faith, our Hope. He was the one who believed, more than any of us, that there was salvation, not just for us, but for everyone. He believed that Mirria could be saved. But he was broken. His faith and hope were broken that day, when he publicly announced in front of everyone in the Sunday service, that the True Faith was fake. That it should disappear. We… we tried to stop him. We knew his father would kill him, so we jumped on our feet and went to shield him. I can’t forget the looks on everyone’s faces as we did. The shock growing to burning hatred still haunts me at night. As do the screams that followed – the screams of the only people I ever truly cared about. We were quickly overpowered, captured, sent to different camps… Kevin wasn’t so lucky. His death… This event changed us. It broke our faith and our hope. It broke Jason. He’s not the same anymore, he keeps blaming himself and grew cold and distant, even to me. I’m sure he’s keeping me at a distance because he’s afraid he’s only going to get me in more trouble, but this distance is killing me. His empty stare is killing me. I’m sure it’s no coincidence that we’re the only ones from our little group who got set up in the same camp. I’m sure it’s his father’s doing because he knows me being here will be the worst punishment for Jason, because he knows I’m not going to give up on him, even if he already has given up on himself. Whether us being freed from there was a coincidence or not, I'm not so sure. One thing I do know, though, and that is that I'll get Jason through project Tallow, even if I have to push him forward with a dagger in hand. Sometimes you can only achieve your goal by hurting others and I’m ready to hurt my friend as much as I need to, but I will get him back. **When they first came in contact with monsters:** I couldn't tell you how young I was, but I was young, that much I remember. My mother made my hair and put makeup on my face and looked really proud – I thought it was something like a birthday. I suppose in some sense it was – it was an initiation (a word I didn't know back then). Apparently all the kids in town went through it at some point. It was supposed to be safe too – the pastor blessed me and drove me to the old dairy factory. It's been abandoned for years and we all know it's haunted but it's never been demolished as it was still useful to some. I was supposed to make it out and go back home safe., by myself. I think the spirits enjoyed this tradition too because they didn't manifest until the car drove off. And after... Well, they had to come get me the evening of the next day. I'd done all I could to get out but the factory just wouldn't let me. That's how I failed my initiation. My father beat me up that night (it hurt more than what the spirits managed to inflict) and I had to repeat the ceremony later that year. **Skills:** Pretending and playing the part. I can assume any role and play it well while never losing track of my goals or herself. That makes me a good spy and sometimes a pretty unnerving ally. **Equipment and Resources:** None. My wits are all I've ever had, and Jason's support, if that accounts to anything. **Edges:** I'm good at being Slasher-bait. Or any bait, really, as long as the target is sentient. **Endowments:** Toxins. I've been taught how to mix herbs and enhance my hearing or sight, as well as to heal wounds or infections. Talismans. Did you know certain gemstones and metals have properties you can utilise? I do – my mother taught me. I'm not the expert she is, of course, but maybe I've had some practice and with time I'm sure I can get better. **Mortal tie: ** My friends back in Eden. And Jason. I want to help them both but I don't know if it's possible. I'm also starting to think I'll burn myself out before either of them is saved. **Other:** I don’t sleep much. Not only because I have nightmares but also because I worry about Jason. I fear that if I let my eyes off him for too long he’ll do something horrible to himself.
Weeee, stuffs to read~ That's much appreciated given that my vampire book is super mediocre and boring and I don't even feel like finishing it.
Oh that! Well yeah, that is creepy but it's not their fault. They find it creepy too. The part of them that's not used to it lol.
Looking forward to it too, Robotica!
###**Reunion**### ######_(Collab Rtron and Wind)_###### *Early morning,* *Loom’s outskirts* A sleepless night and a frantic mind had given her an excuse to act where she previously hadn’t had one. It hadn’t been hard to find him. All she had to do was appear as soon as he paused for a rest or a kill. That’s how easy it’s ever been. It had been years since Hazumi last saw Lucien. In fact, precisely two-hundred years. Yet he hadn’t changed, not one bit, and neither had she. Two beings stuck in the loop of time. No one could tell that time left an imprint on them. All their wounds were on the inside. For over a hundred years she had been observing that weird creature, one she never properly understood until it was too late and there was no going back. For over a hundred years she had been both hoping and dreading the moment Fate would bring them together again, thinking, wondering how to apologize for what she’d been and how to accuse him of what he’d done. “You should have told me what to do then.” She often thought but knew in her heart that wouldn’t have prevented the disaster but just caused another. So many questions remained, so many alternative paths Fate could have taken should any of them have behaved even the slightest bit differently. Yet… the past was the past and not even the Gods could change it. Now, the future… that was more malleable. And even moreso was the present. She was staring at him with the same unblinking gaze, unable to find the right words to say once again, like so many years ago. It almost seemed like time really hadn’t fazed them, even though it really had. And it was exactly because she had changed that she found it even more difficult now to speak to him, than she had before. Now she could actually reevaluate what had happened, seen it differently, realise the alternatives… And she had oh so many questions… Uncertainly she made another awkward step forward and raised her hand with an open palm. “Hi.” She said simply. She looked older, while on the outside he hadn’t changed. Some part of his mind noted this distantly, while the rest of his mind was effectively shut down by the appearance of Hazumi. Lucien stared at her, just barely keeping his jaw from dropping, unmoving. He had survived the Great War. He had been sealed in Onyx for thousands of years. He had been released and fought in a war that some were calling the Second Great War. He had slain Lords of Hell, and most of the last surviving Archangel Council members. He had watched Heaven burn down around him, and explored most of the Surface world, hunting the Cowards. He had thought that he was beyond being surprised. Evidently, he was wrong. It wasn’t just the fact that her wings were gone and there was a transparent aura of essence that even he, with his ability to sense essence completely gone, could feel. It wasn’t even the fact that she looked older. She was, or had been, a Surface Angel. They aged. They weren’t immortal like their ancestors were. No, it was for something far more…unbelievable. When she finally spoke, he unfroze. He took two steps towards her, and then stopped, remembering that she wouldn’t appreciate being hugged by him. Especially since his armor was filthy, covered in gore and the Gods only knew what else. So, he settled for gripping his sword tighter (he had long since lost his sheath), and speaking. “You’re supposed to be dead.” Not exactly a warm and touching way to begin a reunion, but it was a start. “I watched you become the Essence. I wielded the sword you had become. I lost you to the mad Human Judas, and then I watched as Luciana spread her essence and the Essence across the Human race, effectively destroying you both.” He stopped for a moment and coughed, violently, into his gauntleted hand. Black liquid spewed into it, and he quickly hid it. He wasn’t going to get into that right now. He wouldn’t discuss it ever, preferably. “So, what happened? I know you became the Essence, and I know Luciana spread it across the Human race. I’ve seen a handful of people come back after most of us thought that they were long dead and gone, but none from quite as an impossible certain death scenario as you.” He didn’t relax, even while he spoke. He hadn’t survived this long as a ‘Renegade’, as the rest of the world titled him, without being always ready for an attack, even when he thought he was safe. This scenario, no matter how shocking, was no different. He expected an attack from anything, and would have been pleasantly surprised if nothing tried to kill him. A warm smile spread over her face despite that there was no need for one, and for a moment she thought she felt tears well up in her eyes. Something about this angel made her feel like a little girl again and it wasn't only because she had known him for ages as Chime, as his daughter, as his battle companions. No, it was also the emotions of Hazumi stirring, the feelings of the angel he once knew and showed great and true kindness to that she simply rejected. But through his words, through his simple words, she understood that despite everything he had become the closest thing she'd ever had to a father and a mentor. Yet he had changed in a way he shouldn't have. Not all the wounds he had suffered through the millennia had healed.. and some never would. He didn't have to hide the black mucous from her just because she could see it cruising inside of him the moment she laid eyes on him. His own essence was so corroded by the deadly rust that they might already be inseparable, threatened him with a fate worse than death. Something hot stung her cheek and her hand jerked to feel it. It took her a moment for her puzzled fingers to realise it had been just a tear. She didn't hide it but didn't hide her smile either. Instead she made a step forward and wrapped her arms around Lucien. She didn’t care if her sky-blue dress would start resembling the canvas of the Grat War or even if Lucien added her blood to the rest. "I can't die, Lucien. Not for as long as the worlds stand. Aaurus created the Gates and Gatekeepers to be eternal, and whatever parts of them remain in me, are keeping me here." She explained in his ear. "Only he and the void can destroy us for sure. Until then, I will keep watch over you." She enjoyed the embrace for one more moment before pulling away and forcing the emotions out of her face. "Lucien," she started, "I came here to apologise. To apologise for what you once knew as Hazumi, for having been what I was... I apologise for making only one decision back then and it being wrong and bringing death and destruction. I want to thank you for shaking my belief at that time, asking me to stand for my own, even though I couldn't have, and for forcing the Sword down and creating Zi. I wish... no matter. I'd like to think that I've changed, that I've listened. We established the Academy and gave the Essence to the humans and even though it will never be over, our battle for now has ceased. And you, you have made it happen. Thank you, Lucien." She let the smile protrude again for he both endeared and saddened her. He was no saint and she wouldn't entrust the Essence to him, but he was the closest thing she knew to one and he didn't even want it. Lucien was surprised to see her crying. He was even more surprised to when she hugged him. Was this really the same child he had known two hundred years ago? The proud, so sure of her faith in the Cowards that she was willing to kill him for them, child? The one whose very foundation was shook when he scorned her blind faith? The one who was willing to take in a demon? When she hugged him, he stiffened in surprise. He very nearly stabbed her with his sword, out of reflex. Two hundred years of not being touched except when someone was trying to kill him hasn’t exactly made him ready and willing to be hugged. But he checked himself before he even came close, and after a moment of awkwardly standing there, hugged her back. With one arm of course. He wasn’t about to start letting go of his sword any time soon. “I’ve missed you.” He whispered into her hair, before she explained how she couldn’t die to him. Well, that was a relief. Now, he didn’t have to worry about protecting her. Or rather…them. It’s best not to actually think about it, he decided. When she pulled away, and began to talk, he raised an eyebrow. When she was done he replied, “ One wrong decision bringing death and destruction? Once knew as Hazumi? Who is Zi? We? I made it happen? Two hundred years have passed, and I haven’t been paying that much attention to modern events. Perhaps I’ve forgotten recent events in favor of remembering old ones, but none of what you just said makes any sense to me. Explaining would help immensely.” Hunting down the last of the Cowards hadn’t left much time for him to ponder the meaning of what had happened during the War against Judas. A realization hit him and he nearly winced. If Hazumi was going to keep watch over him, assuming she hadn’t been already, she would likely be watching him be attacked by other Angels, Demons, and students of the Academy sent after him. And she would likely watch him kill both of the Cowards. It was almost enough to make him wince. But not quite. She wouldn’t understand. Few beings would. Most view him as a maniacal murderer. And he didn’t blame them, nor did he expect them to understand. What he was doing was for vengeance, nothing more, nothing less. And it would be done, no matter who was watching, or who tried to stop him. “I hope you know what I’ll be doing while you’re watching me.” It was only when Lucien pointed it out, that Hazumi realised there might still be things he was just left guessing at and couldn’t have known for certain. After all, the story of her existence wasn’t a straight-forward one, nor was the nature of her. But there seemed to be another thing on his mind. “I hope you know what I’ll be doing while you’re watching me.” “I know.” A sad smile crossed her face and was gone in an instant. “I’ve seen.” So she sat down on a rock and she started explaining. She started with the Great War and explained what had happened to Chime and the Violin and how not all the fallen’s bodies nourished the soil and the demons, how some had been prevented from joining the natural cycle of death and instead been trapped in a living prison, the bars of which was the Gatekeeper’s own heart. She explained all of this with a matter-of-factly tone, ignoring the pain and torture she remembered well, seething out the facts. She told him how the Fleshshaper’s experiment was near completion when the fallen angel Kristine approached him and offered to carry it on on the surface, to raise a child to fool the Council and everyone around. She told him how through years and years of careful “nurturing” she had forgotten how to be anything else but a Battle, had truly considered herself a mere angel, dutifully bound to the only woman who was there to guide her. She told him how it was apparently always guidance she was looking for in everyone she met and how she had needed that from him or Azel as well, and how they had thought she should make her own choices. “But I was just a tool back then, Lucien, I couldn’t imagine being anything else. I knew, some part of me, knew that the world’s fate was on my shoulders but I couldn’t carry it alone – I needed a mentor, a player. I assume at the time the Violin part of me had been brought to the surface and free will was a concept I couldn’t grasp. I know that was the Fleshshaper and Kristine’s plan. To bring up a servant, shunned by everyone else and only embraced by them. They knew they were creating a powerful artifact and they wanted to be the only ones capable of wielding it. But Kristine underestimated the affection that grew to my childhood friend, Jed and didn’t realize that would change the Gate’s affinity as well. She couldn’t fathom that someone could have more power over it than her. Well, she was wrong… And the Fleshshaper, he was wrong as well. He didn’t know, or didn’t care, about you and Azel. But in my life you had existed, and you had played a part, and even though I couldn’t do what you expected me to do, I did listen and the Gate did too. So as I desperately tried to imagine all beings being equal and the Council not being saints, the Violin in me was being tuned to a new mindset. In the end he came to get me, wearing the flesh of a Clairvoyant angel of the Council – the one who asked me to annihilate Master Melody’s Academy. He reminded me of what I was, thanks to him” she spat “and wanted me back. Wanted to wield me. I didn’t want him to. I looked around but there was no one I could truly deem worthy… so I decided to surrender my power to whoever reaches me first and to let Fate take its course.” She fell silent for a moment, looking down at her hands. “I only awoke two decades later to realise I’d made the wrong choice. Again, it was you and Luciana who had to tell me. I had brought nothing but death and destruction and had been proud of it. Stupid me. And then, you know the rest. Luciana sacrificed herself to shatter the Essence and the power was given to the human race. I’m supposed to be dead but I can’t die because the world still exists and it needs the Gates and Gatekeepers to support it. I’m not who I was then, and hopefully never will be again, but I can’t pretend that it wasn’t me who let Judas rule for 20 years and let so many die. I have decided not to interfere with any conflicts anymore – the humans and Peace-keepers will know better than me what is right or wrong. And.. I thank you for teaching me all that. Thank you for not giving up on me, despite everything. If it wasn’t for you the Sword would have ended up in the Fleshshaper’s hands, and he knew better than Judas how to use it. The world owes you.” She stood up and dusted her skirt and cleared her throat. “And because of that it should pay you back.” Hazumi raised her golden eyes to Lucien and they were piercing and serious. “I don’t know if what you’re doing is right or wrong, Lucien, so I cannot help you on your quest for revenge… but I won’t stop you. The Peace-keepers will not hear from me about all the deaths that litter your path, they will not know your location.” She hesitated before she spoke again. “And there’s something else. If you want… I might be able to help you get your daughter back.” She finished with a nervous tinge in her voice. “Your daughter had the misfortune to end up in the Fleshshaper’s hands and became a component of the Essence. Due to that, some part of her essence must have been alive. That means she still exists somewhere among the Instruments. If we break them apart, we could try to put her back together.”) Lucien nodded when Hazumi revealed that she had seen his previous actions. He had just wanted to make sure she knew what she was doing. What she would be watching, when she watched over him. Evidently, she knew. And he was satisfied with that, with the fact that she wasn’t misguided by any beliefs that he was someone who wasn’t going to be killing his own kind. Admittedly, if he put it that way, he seemed more like a maniac. And perhaps he was. Regardless, he listened attentively as she explained how she came to be the remains of the Three Gatekeepers, and thousands of other remains. He showed no reaction to the story, and his eyes never remained on Hazumi for long. He was busy scanning the area around them, just to be safe that nothing attacked them without him noticing. Some would call it paranoia. He called it prudence. Regardless, when she finished her explanation, he looked back at her. “The world owes me nothing. I am no more than a blood thirsty killer, hunting down the last of my kind for vengeance. If anything, the world should want my head, for hastening the end of a race.” As she spoke of how she wasn’t going reveal his position to the Musicians, he blinked in surprise. “Thank you. And I don’t know if what I’m doing is right either. But I’m doing it.” He gave a small smile. When she began to speak again, about something else, he raised an eyebrow in question. When she finished, he drew in a sharp breath. For a moment, he seemed to freeze. Then, he rasped out ”How?” with an intensity that surpassed even his rage at the Cowards. His eyes seemed to smolder with the idea of resurrecting his daughter, his true daughter, being so close. As she explained, however, that smolder abruptly went out. Hope was being held over the edge of a cliff, and he was afraid it would fall before he could reach it. “And what would happen if we were to break the Instruments? Would it make things worse than they already are? Because I knew my daughter. She would abhor the world being ruined to bring her back.” Silently, he added, She would abhor what I have done in her name. Lucien paused, not even scanning the surrounding area, as all his attention was at the problem at hand. He wanted, wanted so badly, to agree with Hazumi immediately and get his daughter back as soon as possible. But he couldn’t just do it. He had to think of the repercussions on the world. The repercussions on those that his daughter’s essence had been intertwined with. He didn’t know much about the Musicians and their connection to their Instruments, but he had broken one once. To stop the screaming, he had killed the Musician as well. Their connection was deeper than even blood, he suspected. So what would the damage be if they were suddenly cut off from their Instrument? More importantly, would it be worth it to bring her back? Would it be worth the damage that could be caused? He believed so. He believed that it would all work out in the end, if he could just get his daughter back. Was this rational? He doubted it. Still, he nodded at Hazumi. “How soon can you do this? And how will it affect this Zi? You said she was once a piece of you. That means she has a part of my daughter in her. You’d have to remove that piece as well, in addition to all the Instrument pieces. Wouldn’t that kill her? Or, at the very least, completely and utterly change her against her will. I am willing to do many things, but kill someone without giving them a chance to fight back, or changing them against their will is something I am not willing to do.” He was careful to keep his desire, his need for Zi to be perfectly fine and unaffected out of his voice. That might have pushed Hazumi to a decision that would be harmful to all involved. Strange, how he was willing to kill Angels he had known and fought for all his life, but was unwilling to let a stranger die or be changed. Slowly Hazumi just nodded. "Everything will be fine. I won't even touch Zi." Hazumi's voice was strong and sleek as tempered steel. Her golden eyes pinned on his were weary, careful not to expose any possible concerns she could have. Her very worry was being shut down as her compassion to the world was shifting and focusing solely on Lucien and his daughter. She was going to do everything in her might to reunite them again. "I'll start as soon as possible. It'll take some time but... you can trust me." She concluded and reached out to squeeze Lucien's hand. "In the meantime, please take care of yourself." She asked and turned her back on him. With a simple hand-swipe the essence around her swirled in the form of a translucent griffin that she got on and left. Despite everything she couldn't shake off the bitter feeling that she was betraying him... and the world too.
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