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    1. XAnth 9 yrs ago


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2 yrs ago
Current “While there is infection in disease and sorrow, there is nothing in the world so irresistibly contagious as laughter and good-humour.” C.D.
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2 yrs ago
“Spirit!” He cried, thought clutching at its’ robe, “Hear me! I am not the man I was. I will not be the man I must have been if not for this intercourse. Why show me this, if I am past all hope?” C.D.
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3 yrs ago
I can’t stop thinking about the ends of things. I’m glad every time I come back to this place it’s still going. It’s great to see you all still writing. I do not look forward to the day this stills.
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3 yrs ago
Life before death, strength before weakness, journey before destination.
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4 yrs ago
Boom! Added the last one to the set. Replies and such on their way... once we leave the hospital or so


Late night bio construction!!!

My real name is Talon. Yes I understand the damage knowing my real name could cause, both real and fictional (though I'd be hardpressed to define the line), and I'm giving it to you all the same. Think less of the potential damage and more to the potential gains to be made!

Whew... it is late. I'm an RP relic from back in the day when forums were used by kids like me to rp through one liners and a constant stream of grammar blindness. I have kids now and a steady job and dreams somewhere along that which I'd like to see fulfilled!!!

Also, I love anime and videogames and nerd culture and escapism and run on sentences. And I love the person I've become where it's totally cool that you all love the things you love. I also realize my validation doesn't matter but! If it makes you feel better at all that there is one 90s kid/dad/nerd that is totally okay with how you exist then you've found your dood!

May you all write the thing, learn the thing, loot the thing and maybe along the way meet some bad ass people who are mostly just trying to do the same thing... and if I happen to be that person then I promise I'm just as grateful as you are.

Maybe just the tiniest bit less grateful then I'll be to sleep this night. See you space cowfolk~

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Heya, K. Good luck in your search! Welcome~
Someone falls to pieces
Sleeping all alone
Someone kills the pain
Spinning in the silence
She finally drift away
Someone gets excited
In a chapel yard
Catches a bouquet
Another lays a dozen
White roses on a grave

And be yourself is all that you can do
To be yourself is all that you can do

Someone finds salvation in everyone
Another only pain
Someone tries to hide themself
Down inside himself he prays
Someone swears their true love
Until the end of time
Another runs away
separate or united?
Healthy or insane?

The day was here.

And so much sooner than he would ever be ready for. It was such an odd thing, this feeling he had been cultivating in himself, and he found it to be an interesting new kind of obstacle to deal with. He has always been that kind of idiot; the one that rushes head first into everything.

Especially if it was a new experience.

Something was so very different about what he was about to be apart of for the next week AND there wasn't any hope of turning back once he started. Elaine, Miss Dawn as the rest of the folk around the office knew her, had truly meant well in signing him up for this. She had never, EVER, lead him astray even in her most far fetched of ideas. This one, though, seemed one of her most abstract and he would be the only one to suffer should it be the one to finally fail. She had been so adamant, though, that he needed to take this "trip" and try to find someone for himself. She went on and on about how he was spiraling and she didn't know what to do to help him. So, her solution was acquiring the tickets... on the company card, HIS company card, and shipping him on the proverbial love boat for a week.

He sat up in bed still in disbelief of what was about to happen. The room he had been in the past twelve or so hours had already been altered to fit the needs of several Zoom meetings with his coworkers. There was at least one extremely important meeting he had already missed in his travels, Elaine went as a proxy, and he would miss AT LEAST one other before he could make it back. Now was not a particularly good time for him to be missing meetings, either. There had been an attempted take over in the last year by another one of the countries top hardware producers and it had nearly been successful. The truth was that it had shaken some of the foundations of UltraLite and the future of the company was as uncertain as it had been since it's inception. All of this was one of the largest problems he had with taking the trip at all but Emily was one of his closest friends so he agreed to humor her as long as she would continue to act as his proxy.

He grumbled past the momentary grogginess he felt, he had always been something of a morning person, and started to get ready. He was so grateful for Elaine. The only way anything... of this nature would ever work for him would be if someone was behind him lining up all of the logistics. He had his friends had been able to get away for many, many weekends but he would just cram some shit in a bag and walk out the front door. It didn't take thought to have fun, especially in the right company. He wouldn't dare show up in his ratty weekend wear, as Elaina so lovingly put it, and she had made sure he never had the chance to do so even should he feel so inclined. She actually threated to burn his clothing and send him nude should he even try...

It took him a comically long time to decide which might be worse.

His second day in transit, after burning one day for good measure, he had checked through what she had packed him and her judgment had been more than sound. She had gone against some of what she had said she would do and packed him some slightly dressier wear but allot of what he saw among the luggage was casual to the t.

to the tee*

He lined up his luggage and called down to have someone take it to his taxi as it would be arriving soon. He would have gladly taken it himself, he was all about stimulating the economy but he hated being waited on, but he had to squeeze one more meeting in before the taxi came. A quick "call to arms" for some of his immediate partners. Now was a time the company was going to need to band together if they wanted to protect their current way of life. Most of them were at the top in their world and they were going to have to show just how badly they wanted it.

The meeting devolved into stores of "better times" a distinct sign he had bene in the industry too long and he was rescued by the phone in his room ringing. The taxi had arrived and his effects had been loaded. Oliver bid his comrades a hasty farewell then grabbed what few personal possessions he had left and hurried down to his last land bound ride of the week. The taxi driver was a kindly older man and was obviously paid well because he didn't utter a solitary syllable to Oliver on the ride to the dock. It was a dear silence leading up to this event that was having such an unpredicted effect on him. He would have never guessed that doing this would fill him with so much... anxiety. He wasn't even used to identifying that within himself; it had been quite some time.

He was able to send out a few "vital" emails and message Elaina before arrival.

OLIVER - Almost on the boat... thanks allot...

ELAINA - You'll thank me once it's all over. Please just try it, Ollie?

OLIVER - You know the only reason I'd ever do this is for you, yeah? My guts are in my throat right now...!

ELAINA - Aw! That's so sweet! Getting butterflies in your stomach on the first day? I should screenshot this for later.

OLIVER - So kind and caring you are... I'll message you once I get settled in. At least I can get some sleep.

ELAINA - Be safe~!

He thrust his phone in his pocket and shook his head a few times in mock severity.

"...I'm not sure if I'm paying her too much or too little... little shit..."

He grinned and stepped out of the car. That grin was immediately wiped away as he was the boat and the line of people trying to board it. He knew he had a VIP pass and could simply walk aboard but he hadn't quite understood the scope of what Elaine had gotten him in to until now.

This wasn't a weekend out with the boys... not even close.

His bags were immediately taken up to the ship and he walked wide eyed up the VIP path. He could hear a large variety of murmurs in the line leading to the ship and what the passengers talked about ran the gambit. What he could make out pertained to some of the VIPs being actually celebrities and that made his guts turn ever so slightly. Just because he had money didn't mean he had ever... EVER rubbed elbows with celebrities. Where would he have found the time to even try? Now all he could think about was who had already arrived ahead of him. Would he know any of them? He spent basically zero time following what most would consider main stream celebrities and he doubted any of the ones he DID follow would be present. His mind began teeming with the possibilities and he walked, largely unnoticed, to the breath taking meeting area.

He was almost too preoccupied to see what was around him, almost. He grinned widely despite his nerves and took in the view a moment. Not long after he, and the other VIP members he had yet to identify, were addressed by some staff members he assumed were their hosts. As they spoke a waiter made his way swiftly up to Oliver and offered him something fluted and bubbly. He put up an absentminded hand and shook his head quickly.

"No... Thank you. May I have a water...?"

His voice was hoarse and it betrayed his composure. He didn't much get a chance to try and hide his slip up when one of the ladies present seemed to have taken a fall. Her retort was classic and he couldn't help but chuckle. It put him at ease, if only a very small bit, to see some kind of humor from the guests around him. He had been so relieved, and somewhat entertained, to see the spectacle that he had totally forgotten to properly freak the hell out about speed dating...


And instead opted to take a thorough look around at the other hopefuls that had decided to take the leap. His current company ran quite the spectrum and none too many of them were recognizable to hi,. thankfully, and then he saw Alex.

Alexander Fucking Vandenberg...

Oliver had read everything the guy had written and followed every bread crumb he or his publishing house would drop to his fans. As it stood right now, Oliver would stab a stranger in the face to see Frontier 31. He had already planned to so some serious monetary flexing when the premier came close so he could see it as early as humanly possible. The dude was a legend in Oliver's world and he turned promptly away from everyone to hide the growing look of excitement on his face.

What was he here for again? It certainly wasn't to meet one of his all time favorite authors!

His water was brought to him promptly and he gulped it down a bit too fast.
Night has always pushed up day
You must know life to see decay
But I won't rot, I won't rot
Not this mind and not this heart,
I won't rot.

And I took you by the hand
And we stood tall,
And remembered our own land,
What we lived for.

And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.

And now I cling to what I knew
I saw exactly what was true
But oh no more.
That's why I hold,
That's why I hold with all I have.
That's why I hold.

And I won't die alone and be left there.
Well I guess I'll just go home,
Oh God knows where.
Because death is just so full and man so small.
Well I'm scared of what's behind and what's before.
I am a chimbley, a chimbley sweep
No bed to lie, no shoes to hold my feet
Upon the rooftops in dead of night
You'll hear me cry, I'll shake you from your sleep

To hear me weep
"Your day will come indeed
For I am a poor and a wretched boy
A chimbley, chimbley sweep."

I am an orphan, an orphan boy
I've known no love, I've seen no mother's joy
A dirty doorstep my cradle laid
My fortune's made, I'll shake you from your sleep

To hear me weep
"Your day will come indeed
For I am a poor and a wretched boy
A chimbley, chimbley sweep."

"O lonely urchin!" the widow cried,
"I've not been swept since the day my husband died."
Her cheeks are blushing, her legs laid bare
And shipwrecked there, I'll shake you from your sleep
Well I know my death will not come
'Til I breathe all the air out my lungs
'Til my final tune is sung
That all is fleeting
Yeah, but all is good
And my love is my whole being
And I've shared what I could

Well if you are (what you love)
And you do (what you love)
I will always be the sun and moon to you
And if you share (with your heart)
Yeah, you give (with your heart)
What you share with the world is what it keeps of you

Self-destruct sequence
This station is non-operational
Species growing
Bubbles in an IV loitering

Unknown origin
Is this the comfort of being afraid
Solar eclipsed
Black out the vultures
As they wait

Dissect a trillion sighs away
Will you get this letter
Jagged pulp sliced in my veins
I write to remember

'cause I'm a million miles away
Will you get this letter
Jagged pulp sliced in my veins
I write to remember
Every time I look for you
The sun goes down

And I stumble when this
Whole thing runs aground

I left another message
You are never around

But every time I look for you
The sun goes down once more

Will the last one out
Please shut the door

I never did do anything
That she asked

I never let what happened
Stay in the past

I never did quite understand
What she meant

In spite of everything
In spite of everything
I alight like a whisper
I alight with the lights out
And it won't take me long just to find you
And it won't take me long just to find you

I'm allied to the winter
But don't you get clever
Don't you get clever
I'm allied to the landslide
Gonna leave you all severed
Gonna leave you all severed

I alone am the answer
I alone will make wrongs right
But in order to root out the cancer
It's got to be kept from the sunlight
When the truth walks away, everybody stays
'Cause the truth about the world is that crime does pay
So if you walk away, who is gonna stay?
'Cause I'd like to think the world is a better place
When the truth walks away, everybody stays
'Cause the truth about the world is that crime does pay
So if you walk away, who is gonna stay?
'Cause I'd like to make the world be a better place
When the truth walks away, everybody stays
'Cause the truth about the world is that crime does pay
So if you walk away, who is gonna stay?
'Cause I'd like to think the world is a better place
I'd like to leave the world as a better place
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