FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THINGS HOLY, I WAS LITERALLY LOSING MY MIND WHEN I WROTE THIS. TREAD CAUTIOUSLY INTO THE WORDS I WROTE BELOW OR AVOID IT ALL TOGETHER, HOWEVER YOU WANNA SOMETHING WITH YOUR COFFEE. P.S. I'VE GONE MAD. I'VE GONE MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD
What am I doing with my life? What in the Sam Hill am I doing with my life?
JJ Doe said
Why yes, I do use all of the above (well, at least to the best of my ability): Kim’s hallucinations and dreams are an all-you-can-eat buffet of foreshadowing and symbolism (mixed with some randomness in attempt to throw off whoever reads it). Although, I guess it can be argued that Kim's just crazy :P A majority of the foreshadowing, for Kim, is not what will happen to him in the future (I’d like that to be determined more through IC interaction; I do have plans, but they’re not set in stone), but what he will discover concerning the past.
Aaaaaand, I just thought Kim was crazy. This is usually why I watch things or read things twice, to get through it and then to get through it all, taking everything at face value, and then going through and trying my best to run a fine comb to get to the layers beneath. I don't usually do that in RPs because I don't really expect people to really use very many literary devices like that to hint at where they plan to take their character(s) without actually telling people. I've probably got it in my head that most people don't do it 'cause they just assume the RP isn't going to last long enough so they just don't plan ahead.
I think that's why most romances in roleplays are so rushed. They don't pile on the tropes and the layers and it makes it seem flimsy and just there, instead of being something akin to a Romeo and Juliet ballad (however horrid that example is, but many romance tropes have come of the tragic star-crossed relationship), something people can tell is more than just two people wanting their characters to bang it out. Guess that's why stuff like that don't usually work out as intended because there's no substance there because I think a lot of people don't expect to be able to really delve deep into something unless they're doing it one-on-one instead of in a group. Of course, there are exceptions and occurrences, however rare, but I've yet to see one.
I'd have to ask Ex whether he thought a romance he'd seen in one of our RPs was ever fruitful beyond the shallow surface. *Shrug* I kind of doubt it because we'd not planned very thoroughly, but I'd not know of that. Plus, romances that start so early in a story are destined to be driven a part in some form or fashion and a lot of the times they don't really get resolved, i.e. Romeo and Juliet.
Maybe I can attempt that in something... I dunno, a story of my own or give Roy another man along the way, but have them go through an actual process rather than just, "Oh look, gorgeous guy; tingly feelings; must be love, yep," from the get go. I've just... guh, I've just been aching to get something like that on page that goes with my definition of a slow burn romance side plot that has been layered into characters and the story, but not enough that the absence of it would cause a total upheaval. Which might be good to have something like that come to fruition in the end, rather than in the middle, just so I don't accidentally tie certain aspects of the relationship into the story. I'm certain, though, that Prisk wouldn't let me do that. Lol.
Anyway, that's just me mumbling ideas and putting them on my computer rather than letting my brain think it and let it flow away in the memory banks of good nighttime fantasies to dream about and sigh over. I don't expect myself to actually go through with it, but I might, who knows. If I do, I'll have it planned out some before I do it. By planned out, because of how fluid RPs tend to be, I mean have the main points there in vague terms and sentences, while leaving the places that connect them up to interaction. Which means nothing would be set in stone, but I'd have a beginning and an end for it, which is better than nothing at all or simply jumping the gun. It's weird though, cause I honestly don't need to give Roy another romantic relationship. If I did, though, it'd probably fall into place at the end of this RP or this episode of this RP, so it'd technically not be considered a relationship until then, which is probably the total opposite of what Roy had with Thael. It'd be a good developmental arc in which Roy comes to terms with the fact that Thael is gone forevers and it's okay, it really is okay to move on. I'm going to start plotting this out right here if I don't fucking stop. I don't know what it is with me, but for some reason the idea of a romance gets me even more interested in writing and I don't think that's a good thing. Maybe it's just me and the fact that I'm a hopeless romantic and like to read about romance and watch romantic comedies and just see people being happy together and then torn a part in conflict and then get back together in spite of it all and be better for it. Which is pretty much the structure of all romantic comedies. Boy meets girl/girl meets boy/boy meets boy/girl meets girl/pretty much everything in between, they get together about the middle of the film, before the ending, what I usually deem is the three quarters mark, something happens to split them up or create needed tension and conflict, and they get through it to find happiness in each other once more and that solidifies the relationship for them, makes it more than just a fling. And if they had skipped the get together part and went straight to the conflict, then they'd definitely get together afterwards like, "Omg you liked me? Omg I liked you back. Omg omg". I'm crazy. WHAT AM I DOING. IT'S 4AM IN THE MORNING AND I'M TIRED AND I'VE BEEN EATING CHOCOLATE. UAUWHIAUHFAWUHFIUHAWIUfhlauiwegnluiaweguiawheguiaweghuiwhg
I'm going insane. I'm literally going crazy. ;_; I'm gonna wake up tomorrow, see this in the thread and go, "What. IN THE FUCK. WAS I THINKING WHEN I WROTE THIS?!" and then I'll most definitely go, "Oh, yeah, that's what I was thinking..." and then I'll go think about it even more and find a way to vent it all out to something else or someone else and this vicious, vicious cycle will continue to the end of time.
Regardless, I've sidetracked from the original discussion that I had intended to talk about and that was symbolism. ;_; I'd love to use it for Roy and his state of mind and I may have already because I think it'd be a fun and interesting thing to do. Plus, it give Roy more substance and help me write for him. I think it's good to get things churning and I've always loved delving deeper into things. I've spent days on tumblr lookin' at posts about a show and its subtext. I've spent years on Wiki sights just researching pointless things about games and books and movies and shows. It's insanity and I don't know why I find it so much fun to do. Maybe I can find a profession that would just allow me to work eight hour shifts in a forty hour week just rifling through research on the internet or something for something, I don't know. I think I'd be very good at it and would enjoy it. It would pay a hundred bucks an hour if I had my way, but thinking about it now, I'd think it'd be something with a nice salary but nothing gigantic, just something comfortable for one person.
Hm...
I think I need meds for this. How many times have I gotten off topic or sidetracked in this one post? I'm going to say about fifty, counting this one. Is this a symptom of ADD/ADHD? I think it is. I dunno. I'm crazy. I need a check up just 'cause I haven't had one in probably a decade... o_o or maybe a few years ago when I'd thought I had that slow building appendicitis and found out it was nothing and that I was actually just a hypochondriac. Number 51. That was the 51st time I went on a totally different tangent, lucky for me I'm sitting in a very precarious position in my rolly chair and I'm currently uncomfortable and wanting to post this so I can adjust myself into a much better sitting position for my poor as fuck posture. 52nd.
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Just gonna stop now.
It's 4 am and I wish I could say this is just a thing that happens when I'm tired, but I'm most positive it happens at least ten times a day. My mind just likes to think of different thoughts and likes to connect them all in some form or fashion in one endless string of the illusion of one train of thought....
Ugh... am I crazy? I think I'm crazy.
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