Not at all what I was thinking. I just. Okay.
People terrify me. Like, legitimately terrify me. Social interactions give me anxiety attacks. Especially social interactions on the internet, where there's so much possible anonymity and I don't know if they are who they say they are or whether anything they say is honest or calculated and designed to interfere with my thought processes, and I'm absolutely terrified of making friends with someone only to have my heart broken when they turn out to be not-at-all-who-I-thought-they were. And I'm too young to commit myself to a relationship, because even though I'm a junior in high school I'm only fourteen and I can't be trusted to make healthy choices in a relationship, especially with someone halfway around the planet from me.