You know about all of those early teenage clichés?
I know them just as well as the next person...


That ash blonde hair, the early zits, that goof reject in class... That would be me, another one of those lost teenagers experiencing life anew, in an old world flipped upside down.

"Want to tag along to my place and play some games?" my new found ten year old friend asked me, fourteen years old with lack of social life and friends just bonded with a this kid in a playground park while I was playing with the swings in my endless boredom and despite denying it, loneliness.

"Sure..." my words slipped through my mouth and I can bet though unaware of it, I smiled. "Hello, the name is Mav, nice to meet you." I said to my friends sceptical looking mother. A worn out lady, which I would come to learn as a great mom, though lacking responsability she was still a good mother, atleast she tried hard to be.

Chris's little brother Jay and his little sister Linn both ran off hiding for me being all shy. I remember how after a while of introduction and small talk with Chris's mother that she accepted me as his friend and that we headed upstairs to play some video games on his tombstone Xbox. Curse those controllers everyone knows that they were the worst controllers since N64.
But it was fun, a great lot of fun and it became a regular thing so the following days we would play around with video games and that occassional, head outside and play you raskals comment from his mother became a classic.

It was the first time I hung out with him during a weekend when I first met the greatest person I had ever come to know.
Chris had an older sister, two years younger than myself, she was twelwe just in case your math ain't working for you.
People use words like goddess and angel way to frisky, I realised that the first time I saw her, Selene... Yeah lets call her that!
Though I would never call her something as common as that I would refer to her by name, shame on me would I dare to call her something as cliché as angel or goddess, not even queen or princess for only morons called girls and women something as stupid as that.

Selene, yeah we became friends, infact I was good friends with everyone in their family and we were for a good five or so years...

My tragic fucking story had just started but for during three years everything was fine.

If we take a skip just letting you be aware that I was more or less family to them in many ways, but not every way seeing as I was madly in love with Selene.

When things are going so well, why does feel like my heart is hurting so intensively? Did I lose it? Hope...