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9 yrs ago
Dear People: Please stop 'hating' a day where people try love with each other, however corporate the reason. Remember instead that there are people out there trying to love you, too, and let them.
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10 yrs ago
Gone from 6/19 to 6/27.
10 yrs ago
Ah, Buddhism. Dramatically worded for his and her pleasure.
10 yrs ago
Grave digger, grave digger, let me be the one that got away.
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10 yrs ago
My children, raise your proud and terrible heads. I will find you a better world, where man is a cautionary tale and angels fear to tread.
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This is my bio. There are many like it, but this one is mine.

Drop me a line if you're feeling brave.

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What light through yonder window breaks...


TL;DR Summary:

  • Lovecraftian modern fantasy/horror in scenic Baltimore
  • Characters are otherwise 'normal' people who have been beginning to collectively dream strange, moderately prophetic dreams
  • Overarching plot with heavy alterations based on character actions, decisions, and backgrounds
  • Down-The-Rabbit-Hole theme in which characters find themselves increasingly (and dangerosly) involved in hidden world machinations
  • Slumbering eldritch horrors galore!
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Hello Dorothy,

For most people, the world rolls on. They wake up, go to work, come back home and sleep. They live without knowing, thinking, or caring about what goes on under their feet, or in that alley over there. It's not important--probably Crime, Capital C, the sort that they read about in the paper and then casually recycle while trying to remember if their wife needs another pack of cigarettes yet (she does). The way that light over there blinks in morse-code, the pattern their footsteps might take on a particular street, the particular mumbling of that homeless guy who, by the way, is the same one they passed two minutes go, isn't important to them.

Just like it isn't important to you.

Chances are you're a busy girl. Or guy--prophecy's pretty equal-opportunity these days. You've got a mommy and daddy who want the best for you (even if they don't love you as much as either of you think they do), a place to stay. Food. Maybe a kid already, if you were sort of a fuck-up. But lemme tell you, Dorothy, Kansas is about to have a heap-big tornado run through it and all the storm cellars in the world won't help you now.

They better not. We need you on this one.

For what it's worth, I'm sorry. I'd do it if I could but its your turn now.

See you soon, Dorothy.


Out of Character Info

Still with me? Good.

For both @CorneredBliss and @Culluket for whom this post is directly intended, welcome. I hope you won't be disappointed. For anyone else coming across it, slightly less welcome but a similar hope. This is something of a brain child of mind that I've had for a while now and I'm very much looking forward to it, so if you're here to hit-it-and-quit it then there's the door.

Chesapeake is, primarily, a Modern Lovecratian Fantasy Horror story. Once upon a time, a group of what began as plucky young occultists and became what was affectionately known (by those in the know) as the Old Guard did their best to keep the Chesapeake Bay area safe from what is an unusually high concentration of Bad Things. But that was once upon a time, and in the here-and-now only one of them is still fighting the good fight. Even the infamous Calico Jack can't beat the devil forever.

But maybe you can.

Your characters are otherwise ordinary people (as much as anyone is really 'ordinary) who will suddenly find themselves thrust through the looking glass darkly, to mix literary metaphors. In the weeks preceding the beginning of the RP they have been finding their sleep increasingly less restful, filled with half-remembered dreams of a David-O'Hara-on-two-packs-a-day voice and flashes of streets, homeless, churches. Docks. Sewers. All culminating in the one that will be placed in the IC.

I'm not going to lie to those present--it's going to get rough. Your characters may not return whole, with sanity an unfortunate but likely casualty. The world of Chesapeake-Baltimore is a dark and dangerous place where under the surface of every day life is a sea of broken fingernails and teeth, eldritch things and the people they've dragged down with them clawing to get back in sun. This is a story about desperation and the things that drive people to it. About being pulled through the cracks instead of falling, and about what's necessary instead of what's even tentatively alright. About people--real people--given vague orders and no weapons and standing against the awful things that go bump in the night.

And, if everyone is very lucky, holding the line.

That being said, for those of you hoping to join: I am not going to be nice. I have a vision in my head of how I'd like this to go and I'm going to be that guy and not bend on it. Having already discussed as much with the previously mentioned, I will be accepting precious few applicants that are absolutely not first-come-first-serve. I'm frankly looking to push myself and my collaborators on this one, to try and write something that we can be collectively proud of, so this isn't the one I'm going to bandy about with. I'm not saying don't try, but please don't take it personally if I reject you out of hand. It's not you, it's me.

Similarly, I'm shooting for A Game. Posts may take a few days or what-not, which is fine. I'm shooting for no more than a week between full progressions, hopefully less if we can get a rhythm down, but my personal schedule is wacky. I may be able to post several times in a few days, or I may be able to get one up a week. I'm more concerned with quality than quantity, but I will do my absolute best to keep this moving and would like similar commitment from anyone I bring into it.

Still with me?

Good.

P.S. Still working on finding a bloody good picture for the top of the page. Thank you to HeySeuss for his OOC and Character Sheet templates.
As many as would make an entertaining workout before lunch.


Current estimates place this at approximately 700 gallons of vorcha, @DirtyDingo, if that helps!
The Dashers back together.

What a world, what a world.

Ruminating in the dead man's apartment, Zik couldn't help but feel both tremendous relief and something oddly akin to embarrassment. He'd kept up on the other members of the crew, of course, especially the assault team; most had continued doing what they did best since the band broke up. As he scrolled through the dossiers he kept listed in a file on his omnitool, orange glow highlighting the spatter-pattern of his ex-acquaintance in Omega Neon, he was unsurprised to find that the birds of a feather were already flocking together.

Errol Vahn had continued his mercenary work, of course. Independent contracts, wet work. Good reputation. Abrax had done similar. Rosa had cut into the Omega scene, nominally connected to Aria T'Loak via afterlife--smart move for a smart girl. Trish had done the same--well and over her 'wild years', she was a bit more stable in flight control and administration. Good for her.

It was really Zik that had struggled, a fact he had taken pains to avoid alerting the other Dashers to.

Zik did not do well in isolation. By the time he had run into Declan he was already on a carefully only almost-lethal regiment of chemical intoxicants. Uppers, downers, all-arounders, anything to keep his mind on something other than...

Well.

He would have, by his own nearly-clinical approximation, burned what remained of his nervous system to the ground in little under a year if his rate remained solid. Meeting Declan, forming the Dashers (why, he still pined, couldn't he have chosen the name?), going about their merry business, had in no uncertain terms saved his life. Camaraderie was good for him, gave him something to live for. A consummate performer, an entertainer, and more than a bit of a madman, at least with other people around and a team to lead--again, he forced a reminder, a team to lead again--he had something to look forward to. Some incentive to keep himself together. Without all that it was far too easy to just...

Slip.

He sighed through his teeth, grimacing and letting his head fall back against the leather couch. Pity the popcorn was all gone--not gone, necessarily, but no longer desirable--he could have used something to distract himself. As it stood he was all too aware of his physical condition. If he was very fortunate, the crew's unfamiliarity with salarian physique and the obscuring nature of his armor would prevent them from seeing some of the toll the past few years had had on him. Two whole years...how did other species do it, he wanted to know? How could they stand moving through the world so slowly? Like stepping through pudding, hard-capped by the firing speed of their own neurons. Two. Whole. Years.

Eternity. 5% of an average lifespan.

Focus.

As suddenly as he'd plopped to the ground, Zik stood up and began disrobing. Fingers clicked at clasps on the concealed armor he wore beneath his civilian clothing--habit--letting it fall to the floor as he made his way towards the bathroom. He wasn't about to meet up with old allies covered in blood. What was left of Stephen Vellon flopped to the floor at the sudden motion and lay there.

"Stay." He added over his shoulder without looking, a smile flitting over squared lips. "Good boy."

Fifteen minutes later the now-clean salarian was nearly finished re-affixing his armor, snapping on his bracer only to notice a small green light flickering near his wrist. As he clicked it open once more and scrolled through the displayed data he couldn't help but smile, the way a father might at the badly orchestrated drawing done by his biological contribution's inept childhood nervous system.

Omus Vol. Super Genius.

Zik had missed the rotund arms dealer. Their little games of cat-and-mouse had always been tongue in cheek to him, a sort of casual entertainment. The way some humans played archaic math or word games on their omnitools, Zik had for several years delighted in pushing the little creature's buttons. Having spent so much time with him on the ship, the absence of his favorite playmate had been hard--certainly the volus didn't feel the same way, and since the last time he tried to drop in for a friendly chat he'd nearly been dismantled at an atomic level Zik had decided to respect his decision.

Well. Sort of.

Whenever the Blue Sons were suddenly alerted to another, slightly more lucrative arrangement, Zik did it. If Eclipse happened to learn that the batch of FENRIS security mechs the diminutive war profiteer was offering were at such a good deal due to a manufacturing defect in their friend-foe recognition programming, Zik did it. Frankly it was how he made a good deal of his money, interrupting these little transactions and taking a cut of the diverted profit. Yes, they tended to end badly for whoever it was cutting into the volus' business, and yes, he had felt a bit bad when Vol's security force had allowed him to be locked in his absurdly-well-protected office for two days upon the realization that if they consecutively demanded raises while he was under siege they were more likely to come out profitably, but really. Schoolyard pranks.

The datamine he'd installed in his secretary's pad was actually spitting out interesting data this time. Apparently Trish wasn't the only one who knew that Declan was alive--or planned on throwing him a welcoming party.

"Oh Omus." He said to no one in particular, a wistful sigh on his lips. Last bit of armor in place, he headed for the door.

"It's good to be back."




Hallway to the left, 3.5 meters ahead. Approximately 2 seconds away. Heavy impact to rear left shield, kinetic force enough to stumble--unlucky shot distribution pattern from an M23 Katana. 1.3 seconds. Turn, aim, fire, turn, run. 1 second.

...two...one...

The familar wet thump of a Scorpion round detonating in flesh burst from the other side of the corner Zik had just rounded, annihilating the vorcha it had been inserted into and staggering the friends he had brought with him. Fortunate that there were no krogan--not a Blood Pack operation, just a friendly hello from Omus Vol. Expendable. Really, had he been expecting them to succeed?

Still, there were plenty of them, and they wouldn't be staggered for long. And Declan wasn't expecting it, and the others were rendezvousing on his position. The grin on Zik's lips mirrored the tattooing on his face, wide and excited. This was fun! He was back! Reaching for the grenade at his belt--one of his last--he dropped it to the ground and ran for the window.

A third story window in the tenements above and behind Trish and Declan exploded outwards, a compact form cloaked in a flickering blue shield emerging from it. Broken glass caught warring neon lights, scattering electric indigo and the city's omnipresent neon-orange-red like a corona as Zik fell through the air. For a breathless few moments he hung, letting inertia catch up and draw away the last of his momentum, before the inevitable plummet. A human, krogan, turian would not have been ready for it, too much bulk and osseous structure in the way, but a salarian--

He tucked, rolled, directed what remained of his shields downward. Hit the ground hard, felt the shield struggle and overload with the strain, impacted on his shoulder and rolled forward to pop up on his feet. With a slight hop the dismount turned into a stroll and Zik was walking towards his former captain and that saucy minx of an asari matriarch like the cat that caught the canary.

Tarantino couldn't have shot it better himself.

"Declan Calaway. Trishar Rayana. Been a minute. Good to see you again."

The hole in the wall behind him exploded, blossoming outwards into a ball of fire. It lapped at the plasteel walls seeking something to burn and, finding nothing but detritus, left it smoldering behind. The snarling cry of a vorcha or two meant it had bigger fish to fry on the inside. Without shields, they would have to take the long way down--that bought them at least a bit of time to catch up. He ejected the thermal clip of his Scorpion with dramatic ease, slotting another one in and looking to the pair with more warmth than he'd intended.

"Missed you. Thought I'd bring party favors."
Apologies, been a busy week. I'll be around more this weekend, but if you want to fast forward to Zik arriving to once more foil the plans of Omus Vol, well, I can't say I'd be opposed.
Medigel was an amazing thing. Though BaAt wasn't exactly outfitted with the battlefield-grade stuff with it's 'take four bullets in the chest and keep going' level anesthetics, as the gloved hands smeared the stuff over Yoroi's chest the relief was palpable. With as little idea of what the stuff actually was as ninety percent of the other students, he couldn't help wonder if it was some strange organism that dissolved into the meat of him, felt around in his muscles for the aches and pains and soothed them. It seemed awfully targeted for something so generally applied, as if guided to the parts of him that weren't whole, and he couldn't help thinking of it like some form of bonding amoeba. As its cool, tingling numbness spread bone-deep to his ribs and the station medics began to press them back into place, Yoroi's mind wandered. Had he, he wondered, had a more significant injury? He wasn't sure that he wouldn't have died had both of the rolling biotic spikes punched through him.

It didn't matter. He lived through it, and he would live through it again.

Or would he? He'd meant it, when he asked Madan if they would die here. A stupid thing to say, really, the instructors had it in their best interests to keep them alive, but it wouldn't be the first time. Accidents happened, and how many were actually accidents as opposed to 'accidents' called such after the fact was questionable at best. But Yoroi was beginning to feel that he really might die here--that one day he would either kill those fucking hawks or be killed by them. That he couldn't think of it any other way was both telling and frighting to him, as was his acceptance of both of these facts. What was there left to say? They'd taken something from him, some deep sense of security, and he wanted it back. What would it even be like, now, to be in control of himself? To run his own life? To be a civilian again?

That he couldn't picture it, as he closed his eyes and took a deep breath against the slowly dissipating searing in his chest, was telling.




No one could look at him.

As he made his way back into the lounge some hours after he entered the medical wing, not a one of the students would meet his eyes. That was fine--he didn't need them. What would they have done? Apologized? Lied to him and pretend it had been a good fight? He didn't have anything to say to them, and they nothing to him. He felt as alone as he ever had, and for the first time he found himself wondering if Madan felt like this.

Step Nine. Instructor level, high enough up in the rankings to warrant your own room. Instructors' privileges, the right to command students. What would it be like, with eyes constantly on your back? Was it like this? He could feel them, as he made to take a seat at one of the tables, burning holes in his back and whispering. His wrist still had the red medical tag on it, the one that said he wasn't allowed to participate in training for the remainder of the calendar day, and he toyed with it as he closed his eyes and tried to ignore what he could hear of the murmuring about the room.

Fucking dumbass...
Did you see that? How does someone survive that?
He'll bring the instructors down on all of us, you want and see...
Hope he--

His nose was bleeding.

He swiped over his lip with a thumb, snagging the crawl of red on the calloused skin and observing it for a moment. Not long ago he'd been practically spitting the stuff, but somehow it was more terrifying to see it now than it had been then, all the claustrophobia of the station hitting him at once. He wondered if this was what panic attacks were like, if this was one of them, these moments where the world seemed to blot out and all he could see was the red of his blood. Some kids got migraines--Yoroi got nosebleeds. Bad ones, sometimes, the kind that didn't stop. What if it didn't stop? What if he'd blown something this time? A little pop, somewhere in his head, trying so hard he just couldn't--

His shoulder jerked forward as someone knocked into it in passing, an elbow jarring him forward roughly enough that he had to catch himself on the table. Looking over his shoulder to see Al-Tariq pointedly not looking at him while he walked over to chat up one of the younger girls in the program, Yoroi found himself surprisingly dispassionate about the matter. Yesterday, this morning, he'd have jumped up and made a show out of it. Pulled rank, reminded him who was who in their little biotic food chain. Now...

Now he just didn't have the energy.

He had bigger fish to fry.




He woke to the same sound as ever, that piercing klaxon that sounded the shift from dark to light. Would he ever get used to it? Some of the others had, waking up beforehand and killing time until the inevitable, but for whatever reason Yoroi was always one of the few that woke up to it. His body resisted acclimation, a circadian rebel, in tune with some time-schedule from a world far enough away that it was meaningless to him. There was only the ship now, only the training. The students. The turians.

Yoroi got up and followed the rest to breakfast, back straight and head held high. If they wanted to see him broken, they would have to try harder than that.
At first he kept watching Kalyani because he'd wanted to see her. Now he kept his gaze fixed because he wasn't sure if he would survive whatever he might do if he looked at that fucking turian. He could barely hear the creature over his own heartbeat, hot and heavy in his ears, and it was for the best. Could someone die from hate? Just burn themselves out with it from the inside, spontaneous combustion?

Apparently not. He was certainly trying.

The shuffling of students making their awkward way out of the room filled the air as he tried to get his breath back, finally letting his eyes close and his shoulders shake. This wasn't his first injury and it wouldn't be his last--it wasn't anything medigel couldn't fix in an hour or two--but it hurt. Insides were not meant to be jagged, and with every breath it felt like his expanding lungs rasped on something sharp and intrusive. Had he, a niggling little thought in the back of his head wormed its way in, hoped that she would kill him? That maybe this would be it?

That he couldn't immediately consider the notion ridiculous was not a good sign.

Still, he wasn't dead. He was still on Jump Zero, still in BaAt, still lying on the fucking matting like any other of the pathetic wastes that filled these halls. The ones that didn't have it, that would never be strong enough to fight back. That's what he wanted, after all, why he put himself through all this. If he was every going to be strong enough to beat those fucking turians, he needed this.

Caelnus would have killed him. Kalyani could have, but didn't and she probably couldn't have taken the turian. So where the fuck did that leave him?

"Get up."

His words, this time, hissed through bloody teeth as he fought back that awful prickling in his eyes. Absolutely not. He was not about to fucking cry. He was still alive, and he was not going to give that fucking hawk the satisfaction. One leg at a time he curled, planted, worked his forearms down to the mat. Pushed.

Stood.

His chest screamed. He couldn't breathe. It hurt, but he was a raw nerve, now--everything hurt. Already he could feel the pressure behind his eyes, that throb that meant he was in for the worst of it for the next few hours regardless of his chest--why hadn't they put some kind of dampener on these damn implants? Something that wouldn't let them push so hard? There had been days when Yoroi felt the blood vessels burst, dripping down his nose. Once it had even come from his eyes, leaking like hot tears, unbidden. It was everything he could do to keep from screaming out of, what? Pain? Fury? Either?

But he looked Caelnus in the eye and spat out a 'Yes, Sir'. And he started towards the med bay.

He was burning and he knew it. The human body, the human brain couldn't stand that kind of emotion long term and he was already getting that awful hollow feeling in his chest, like space was just blowing through him. But Yoroi wasn't about to lose it in front of Caelnus, not after that, and so he put one foot in front of the other. Slowly, steadily, each step labor. More than anything he wanted to blow away, to catch that space wind and just dissolve into whatever cold emptiness was out there, spread so far apart as to be a statistical irrelevancy. He was passing Kalyani and something slipped out, dribbled past his lips like the blood he had to wipe off with the back of his wrist.

"We're gonna die here... aren't we?"

...where the fuck did that come from?

He would figure it out later. He would think later, process later, pick up the pieces later and move on, or whatever it was assholes like him did when shit like this happened to them. Right now, he needed the med bay.

One foot in front of the other.
This is my statement of interest. There are many like it, bit this one is mine.
He hated seeing her this way.

In a moment of clarity, right before the storm, Yoroi knew exactly what it was about Kalyani that bothered him so much. He'd seen it before but it had never been so apparent, so obvious to him. As he watched her break her barrier, draw down her hand, fill with power--all in slow motion near-death-experience bullshit--he finally got it. There was something in the way she moved, something in how her face lit up in that blue biotic glow, something about the purse of her lips that radiated a joy he would never know and a pleasure he would never feel.

Like Mozart and Salieri, he thought stupidly, remembering a movie he'd watched one night as a child with his parents. Two composers, one of them achieving so easily the beauty the other had struggled so hard to perfect. One natural, one forced.

Whatever God of Biotics might be out there fucking loved Kalyani Madan in a way it would never love Nagamura Yoroi, no matter how badly he wanted it.

He watched the matting erupt in blue columns, spikes of energy that rippled the air and left little pockets of empty behind them from all the matter they'd displaced. This, he realized, was the difference--it was like realizing there was a third dimension he could move in, that the world wasn't straight back-and-forth. A shockwave, a literal wave of coruscating energy that rippled from below. How was he supposed to block that? He hadn't expected his own strike to do nothing, and in the wake of it his barrier was weaker than ever. Had she planned it this way? Did she know what would happen?

It was all he could do to mount a proper defense. To his credit, he met it head on without hesitation--both hands curled, snapping into fists that flared his barrier to life, but too little, too late. He caught the initial impact on his forearms, braced against it, but when he tried to contain the roll from trois to quatre he just....couldn't.

The drive into his diaphragm was a truck, a speeding car. Impact at God-only-knew how many Newtons of force, straight up into his ribs and sternum. It was enough to lift him into the air by more feet than a few, his guard still up and his teeth still grit in concentration, but when he tried to stick the landing all that impact hit his shattered ribs and he collapsed to his knees like a rag doll. Had they kept the mats red so it was harder to see the blood? It wasn't working--his was bright against the leather, a spatter through grit teeth as he tried not to be sick.

He couldn't breath. He couldn't breathe. His lizard brain was panicking, wanting to gasp, to pant, to suck wind no matter how much it burned, but the measured breath he drew in and that disgusting little groan he managed on the tail end was all he'd allow himself. She'd beaten him and he knew it--no way he was putting up a fight after that--but he'd be damned if he couldn't at least look the bitch in the eye.

It wasn't a smile. It wasn't pride. But he'd made her try--he'd seen what it looked like to be at the top. He just wished it hadn't looked the way he always wanted it to.
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